Ann-Marie MacDonald - Way the Crow Flies

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“The sun came out after the war and our world went Technicolor. Everyone had the same idea. Let’s get married. Let’s have kids. Let’s be the ones who do it right.” The Way the Crow Flies As the novel opens, Madeleine’s family is driving to their new home; Centralia is her father’s latest posting. They have come back from the Old World of Germany to the New World of Canada, where the towns hold memories of the Europeans who settled there. For the McCarthys, it is “the best of both worlds.” And they are a happy family. Jack and Mimi are still in love, Madeleine and her older brother, Mike, get along as well as can be expected. They all dance together and barbecue in the snow. They are compassionate and caring. Yet they have secrets.
Centralia is the station where, years ago, Jack crashed his plane and therefore never went operational; instead of being killed in action in 1943, he became a manager. Although he is successful, enjoys “flying a desk” and is thickening around the waist from Mimi’s good Acadian cooking, deep down Jack feels restless. His imagination is caught by the space race and the fight against Communism; he believes landing a man on the moon will change the world, and anything is possible. When his old wartime flying instructor appears out of the blue and asks for help with the secret defection of a Soviet scientist, Jack is excited to answer the call of duty: now he has a real job.
Madeleine’s secret is “the exercise group”. She is kept behind after class by Mr. March, along with other little girls, and made to do “backbends” to improve her concentration. As the abusive situation worsens, she is convinced that she cannot tell her parents and risk disappointing them. No one suspects, even when Madeleine’s behaviour changes: in the early sixties people still believe that school is “one of the safest places.” Colleen and Ricky, the adopted Metis children of her neighbours, know differently; at the school they were sent to after their parents died, they had been labelled “retarded” because they spoke Michif.
Then a little girl is murdered. Ricky is arrested, although most people on the station are convinced of his innocence. At the same time, Ricky’s father, Henry Froelich, a German Jew who was in a concentration camp, identifies the Soviet scientist hiding in the nearby town as a possible Nazi war criminal. Jack alone could provide Ricky’s alibi, but the Cold War stakes are politically high and doing “the right thing” is not so simple. “Show me the right thing and I will do it,” says Jack. As this very local murder intersects with global forces,
reminds us that in time of war the lines between right and wrong are often blurred.
Ann-Marie MacDonald said in a discussion with Oprah Winfrey about her first book, “a happy ending is when someone can walk out of the rubble and tell the story.” Madeleine achieves her childhood dream of becoming a comedian, yet twenty years later she realises she cannot rest until she has renewed the quest for the truth, and confirmed how and why the child was murdered..
, in a starred review, called
“absorbing, psychologically rich…a chronicle of innocence betrayed”. With compassion and intelligence, and an unerring eye for the absurd as well as the confusions of childhood, MacDonald evokes the confusion of being human and the necessity of coming to terms with our imperfections.

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She is aware that the colours in the room have brightened a notch. She looks at Nina and says, “He killed her.”

She grips the armrests so hard she feels the wood giving way, melting, turning to chocolate.

Part Five. HUMAN FACTORS

THE GLIDER

IT WAS AFTER they had found out Mike was missing. It was before hope had begun to fade. It was years before Jack and Mimi moved into the condo. Madeleine was graduating high school in three weeks; in three weeks her life would begin. She surged with the dark and shining joy of imminent escape into the world, far from this suburb.

She was at the kitchen sink, resentfully peeling apples for her mother. From the backyard came the roar of the old lawnmower. Through the window, they saw her father crossing back and forth. “Look at your father out there mowing the lawn.”

Madeleine said, sullen, “You want me to do it instead? He won’t let me.” Her mother always talked about her father as though he were some kind of invalid— your poor feeble father, out there pushing the mower on his crutches . Why can’t anyone just be normal around here? Houses have lawns, men cut them. It’s not rocket science and it’s not a tragedy. There is nothing poignant about a middle-aged white man mowing his lawn. Especially when there’s a big fat swimming pool in the middle of it.

Mimi turned and smiled and Madeleine got a stab of guilt in the heart. There were tears in her mother’s eyes. If Mike were here he would be mowing the lawn . She felt horrible for her mother, horrible about what a horrible daughter she was, and she felt furious that her father never let her mow the lawn — as if the safe operation of a small engine with blade affixed required the presence of a Y chromosome. He told her she could be anything she wanted to be — politician, lawyer, brain surgeon, astronaut. He would send her to the moon but he didn’t trust her with a maudit Canadian Tire Lawn-Boy: These things are tricky, you can lose a toe before you know it .

She slouched toward the front door. She heard her mother’s voice from behind her, “Why don’t you ask your father if he wants to go for a walk?” She hated it when her mother tried to “encourage” her relationship with her father. We have one, okay? And you are not the boss of it . So — annoyed at her mother for making her annoyed at the prospect of going for a walk with her father, which was something she otherwise enjoyed doing — she headed for the back door. “You have the nicest papa in the world,” she heard her mother say, and let the screen door slam.

She stepped out into the backyard and said, “Hey Dad, wanna go for a walk?”

He looked up from where he was crouching with the mower tilted, wiping its green-stained blade. Tightening the nut. The smell of cut grass and gasoline reached her, deeply reminiscent, reassuring … and sad. Everything is fucking sad. It’s sad to be conceived. We start to die the moment we are born.

“Sure, sweetie.”

She followed him into the garage as he wheeled the mower across the concrete to its appointed place. The smell of cool concrete — another deep suburban smell, along with the chlorine whiff, mingle of roses and other people’s suppers.

“How come you don’t buy an electric mower, Dad? They’re better for the environment. Or just get a push mower.”

“That’s not a bad idea, I like the sound of those things a whole lot better.”

They’ve had this mower since Centralia. Dad calls it “the beast.”

“I’m just waitin’ for this one to die, but Henry Froelich fixed it so well, I’m afraid it never will.”

They left the garage and walked.

It was one of those rich Ottawa sunsets. The humidity lent a ravishing quality, wet fire streaked an aqua sky. Leaves so shiny they looked waxed, sprinklers hissing, parked cars gleaming.

They talked about the future.

“Why don’t you go to New York? Wait tables and work your way up through the clubs to the Ed Sullivan Show?” She had moved past Ed to Laugh-In but she didn’t correct him.

“Or why don’t you take a raft up the Yukon River?”

They walked past the high school. A group of kids were hanging out in the parking lot, music coming from the radio of someone’s dad’s station wagon. She glanced scornfully in their direction. The cool kids. Like I care. Dating, mating — all those girls soon to be trapped. She saw gorgeous Stephen Childerhouse. He looked up and she looked quickly away; he was holding hands with Monica Goldfarb. So what? The world doesn’t exist anyway. Reality is subjective. We are all just in a dream, and probably not our own. Don’t wake the red king. See? I don’t have to get stoned to be weird.

They got ice cream cones. He took his first lick and she turned away, because he looked so young and she felt so old.

They walked out past the edge of the housing development to where the land was still shaggy and the trees lived for themselves, trailing their leaves in the Ottawa River. Out there in the middle was a Huck Finn — sized island; why had she never snagged one of those stray logs from the match company upriver and floated across? She had always meant to, but at seventeen she wasn’t a kid any more. And it wouldn’t be much fun to do it alone. Jocelyn wasn’t that kind of friend. Madeleine had only ever had that kind of friend once.

They walked along the dirt path past a blackened spot where kids had had a campfire and she said, “Dad? Do you think it’s possible that Ricky Froelich did it?”

“Absolutely not.”

“How come they convicted him?”

“That was a travesty.”

Madeleine felt the tang and churn of something deeper than guilt. Something she could not outrun; she had to wait for it to pass, like the recurrence of a tropical disease. Shame. Her father would know nothing about it. He was clean. She watched him from the corner of her eye, willing him to keep his eyes from her. If he looked at her now he would see the dark thing. He was squinting into the sky, licking his ice cream, so innocent and unconcerned. This Book Belongs to John McCarthy .

“Look at that,” he said, and pointed up. She felt her darkness falling away. “Up there,” he said, “see it?”

She looked up and saw a white airplane. Silent. Slow. Wings long and tapered, clean and unencumbered by engines.

They watched in silence. Unhurriedly she banked, dove, looped up and paused, offering her smooth breast to the sky before swooning back into the arms of gravity, her dance partner.

“Now, that’s flying,” said Jack.

LE GRAND DÉRANGEMENT

“That’s the effect of living backward,” the Queen said kindly, “it always makes one a little giddy at first.”

Through the Looking-Glass

NINA DIDN’T THINK she should be alone this evening. Suggested she call a friend, and gave Madeleine her home number “in case you need to talk.” She asked if Madeleine was prepared to find out that Mr. March had died.

“That doesn’t matter, I still have to tell what he did.”

“I think you need to prepare yourself for the possibility that you may not find exactly what you expect.”

“Why, you think Ricky did it?”

“That’s not what I’m saying, Madeleine.”

“Well what the fuck are you saying?!”

“I’m saying — I’m asking. Where are you in all this?”

But Madeleine didn’t understand the question. And she was late, late for a very important date.

Out into the blinding street, people spilling across the intersection, light refracting off windshields and hoods. She can’t seem to get an entire lungful of air. It’s a beautiful day, not too hot, mid-June. Her eyes are up to their old tricks, this time seeing words that aren’t there, shivering letters stencilled on a restaurant window, It’s Cruel Inside… . She runs down the leafy Annex sidewalk. She wishes she had her bike, she runs faster—

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