Ann Beattie - Falling in Place

“We’re just staying for a little while,” Nick said. “We got a late start. We’ve got to get to our friends’ house pretty soon.” He said it before he even sat down.

Laurie kicked off her shoes and sat on the rim of the pool. She had on the kind of mirrored sunglasses that you can’t see into: He looked and saw the red clouds reflected, and a large shadow that must have been him. You could only tell by her mouth that she was happy.

Nick had brought a horseshoe game. “I’ve wanted to play all summer,” he said. “Does anybody else want to play?”

He went down to the beach with Nick. Nick ground the stake into the sand, then handed him a horseshoe. “My grandmother had one of these over her back door,” he said. “For luck.”

“Did she have good luck?” John said.

“Not particularly. About average. She also pitched horseshoes. Come to think of it, she was very good at that.”

“Shit, what are you doing with a horseshoe game?”

“How’s it going?” Nick said to him. Nick threw a horseshoe. Missed. “What I’m doing with it is that it makes me nervous to be around the two of you and I thought it would give us something to do.”

“We could drink.”

“Okay,” Nick said.

“I was kidding. Louise is just sobering up.”

“How’s it going?” Nick said.

“All right,” he said. For some reason, he thought that it would be betraying Louise to say that she had asked for a divorce.

“If it’s going okay, then I’m supposed to tell you that Nina’s back, and she wants you to call her.”

The horseshoe went thump in the sand. Neither of them had hit the stake.

“When did you hear from her?” he said.

“She called me yesterday. I don’t know anything. I told it to you just the way she told it to me.”

“She wants me to be in a good mood if she’s giving me bad news,” he said. “That’s what it is.”

“You don’t know till you call,” Nick said.

“How did she sound?”

“She didn’t sound any way. All right. She sounded all right.”

“I’m going to go call her.”

“Don’t do that to me,” Nick said. “What if Louise walks in the house when you’re on the phone? I don’t want to be here if there’s going to be some fight. I just got done fighting with Laurie’s brother about how she’s black and I’m white.”

“Then we’ll go back to the house, and you ask for some liquor we don’t have, and I’ll go get it. There’s a phone at the liquor store.”

“Oh Christ. What if you get depressed and don’t come back? Then what?”

“I’m not that out of control.”

The horseshoe spun around the stake. “Proof,” John said.

“Dumb luck,” Nick said. “I’m not even saying it’s going to be bad news, but if it is, you’d better come back.”

They walked toward the horseshoe stake.

“What liquor don’t you have?” Nick said.

“We have just about everything. Ask for something weird.”

They went back to the house. Louise was sitting on the rim of the pool, dangling her legs alongside Laurie’s. They were sipping drinks.

“What have you got there?” Nick said.

“Gin and tonic,” Laurie said.

“You know what I’ve been wanting to try?” Nick said. “Have you seen those ads for that liqueur made from melons?”

“I’ve never seen you drink anything but Scotch or beer,” Laurie said.

“That sounds disgusting,” Louise said.

“It’s green,” Nick said. “I can’t think of the name of the stuff.”

“Go get yourself a bottle,” John said. “The liquor store is two minutes away.”

“Nah,” Nick said.

“Go ahead,” John said.

“You come with me,” Nick said. “I don’t know where it is.”

“Are you serious?” Laurie said. “Melon liqueur?”

“I’ll get it,” John said. “If they have it.”

“He’d do anything for you,” Louise said. She sipped her drink. “Melon liqueur is a favor?” Laurie said.

Louise shrugged. Nick sat beside them, kicked off his sandals.

“Be right back,” John said. “Anybody want anything else?”

They didn’t. He went into the house, picked up the car keys and his wallet, went out the front door and jumped in his car. At the liquor store, he bought a bottle of Midori, surprised at how expensive it was. Then he waited while an old man shouted into the phone about what the doctor had said was causing his high blood pressure. “I will too buy beer,” the old man said. “I call to give you good news, and you start nagging. I told you it was all heredity.” He had on a California Angels baseball cap, a white Lacoste shirt, madras bermudas and white knee socks. He wore red running shoes. He hung up and stood staring at the phone, fuming, his face nearly as red as the shoes, while John stood politely in back of him, waiting for him to move away. Finally he did. As John talked to the operator, the old man began to lift six-packs of beer out of the cooler and pile them on the counter.

“I knew you’d call,” she said. “Hi. I came home.”

He could tell that it wasn’t going to be bad. It wasn’t going to be something horrible. It was going to be all right.

“We’re getting divorced,” he said.

“You and me?” she said.

“Never,” he said.

“I came home.”

“Don’t hang up,” he said.

“Why would I hang up?”

“Don’t say something I don’t want to hear.”

“There’s nothing to say that you wouldn’t want to hear. I went to Stockbridge. I rode up that far with Spangle, and it would have been so easy to keep driving, to just keep going. We got stoned and smooched. That was all.”

“Take it back,” he said.

“Take what back?”

“That you smooched.”

“We did. In bed. In a motel in Stockbridge. With our clothes on. Maybe it was for old times’ sake. Maybe the other would have been, too.”

“Don’t tell me any more,” he said.

“There’s nothing more to tell.”

“I’m red in the face because of heredity,” the old man shouted at the clerk behind the counter. “Give me some bags of those salted peanuts.”

“Don’t hang up,” he said.

“I won’t. I wanted to tell you something. I thought you might be amused. It’s not funny, really. It’s just so strange.”

“Tell me,” he said.

“I miss you,” she said.

“You’re not going to say something I don’t want to hear?”

“I can’t imagine that it would bother you. It’s just so strange. I guess the truth is that it bothers me , but I don’t understand it.” She was smoking grass. He could hear her drawing in, waiting. Nina, in the apartment on Columbus Avenue. He could really understand how someone would shoot because of love.

“You remember your dream?” she said. “That depressing dream that didn’t make any sense? Well, I dreamed an answer to it in Stockbridge. The air conditioning was blowing on high and we couldn’t turn it down, and it was too hot without it and too cold with it, so we were huddled in bed together, but I was still freezing, and that night I had a dream that picked up where your dream left off.”

She laughed. He was listening to Nina laugh on the phone. They would invite the landlady to the wedding. Mary had told him to be where he wanted to be, and he was going to take her at her word. The psychiatrist was in the business of fixing people up, and he could fix John Joel. Louise did not love him. She was paranoid about things that were not happening and she didn’t care about things that were. The night he had stood looking at the shooting star, she had said to him that she didn’t know everything, and she didn’t want to.