Kerry Thornley - The Dreadlock Recollections

The most pressing question in my mind is where can I get ample data about what is going on? How can I wiggle out of the agreement I made with Brother-In-Law to work on a need-to-know basis? I have to find out how my family became involved with the intelligence community. A rumor and their obvious unwillingness to tell me tends to make me suspect they were spies for Japan during WWII. That there is still a lot of neo-Nazism involved in this conspiracy is evident to me.

So I think about that "Mattco" principle associated with Susan Roberts (who was linked to "Milk" which is a code name for the same conspiracy for which the Worldwide Church of God is a front) and I think it is probably the lesser of three evils. That they are authoritarians and rightists doesn't necessitate that I change my views, because I can argue them eloquently and perhaps exert an influence that way among them.

The Russians don't want the JFK murder investigated, as I understand things (probably as David Rockefeller describes things). The Chinese are slaughtering both Cambodians and Vietnamese in what is probably a Vril Society race war against the inhabitants of the Indochinese Peninsula. The U.S. government agencies offer a milieu that could only appeal to a suicidal masochist. (There are more suicides among NSA agents than among employees of any other intelligence organization in the world, according to a Penthouse article.)

Although I've been getting more and more suicidal in recent years, I'm not a masochist, and, although the truth about my life is very depressing, the more I find out about it, that truth has always been there, and I'd be better off making a healthy adjustment. And that requires more information, rather than more faith and dedication to unknown causes recommended by anonymous sources.

John Connelly or someone like him says I'm in error about the above.

"Cast aside right states of mind, o monks, much less wrong ones."

Grasping this or that way of looking at things, we block the senses with the mind and fail to see.

I notice this all the time, of course, when people approach me expecting cant. Cant is then what they perceive. Or is that my mind blocking my perception? Or both?

Also it is observance in what we call buttons. Someone clutches at a summary of a situation, a conclusion, and they thereby ignore the potentials for anything else. This is a propensity of the human mind. A conscious relaxing of effort is needed to avoid it.

Conclusions about things received or anxieties, which are there in the first place because of previous conclusions and their inadequacy.

So we stack one inadequate conclusion on top of another in a perpetual anxiety producing war against anxiety. Like worsening a disease with too many quack cures.

Paying too much attention can be worse, sometimes, than paying no conscious attention at all.

NC says the only way they can get accurate data is to support landlords. It's also being guessed that landlords are responsible for my harassment, which may explain why all the data I get about land is incredible, in particular. I'm told that the left supports landlordism and that the right is against it, that racists are against landlords and that antiracists support them, etc. "Ralph" is probably polluting our information networks.

I suspect the source of these problems originates with Bob's Big Boy in Tujunga.

That's going too far, I'll admit. I was much happier, though. It's like admiring Mao's China but, when it comes down to it, preferring to live in Japan. Not because the Japanese political system is very nice. Just because the Japanese understand how to mind their own business, instead of parading around like a lot of Prussians. The old Confucians and cutthroats vs. Buddhists and soldiers thing. Both are out of kilter. It's still a mixed-up world. Freedom is essential, though, before anything else can be accomplished that will endure beyond the death of the latest Party chairman.

It's like, to me, the ideal is, as with Mao, the potentials revealed by the Paris Commune. The problem is an argument about how to get there from here, and how miserable is it worth being over an idea, and for how long?

Then there is this Pope with his heavy snow. I'm trying to organize from the bottom up. These autocrats in New Orleans want me to be isolated from the people I live with. I'm not supposed to tell them what's going on. This is supposed to prevent racism. Whoever has been in charge of preventing racism ought to be fired for incompetence, particularly if they think secrecy will help.

The period of reconstruction after the Civil War gave birth to the Klan.

Duvalier is like Senator Fishback of Louisiana. He isn't preventing racism. He's creating racism. I'm not gung ho about opposing him because I don't need a divisive fight with Blacks who support him. I've already taken on the Prussians. If Duvalier lived on Uranus, though, and me on Mercury, I'd rest a lot easier. That way I wouldn't have to worry about pissing him off.

As it is, there are Duvalier agents in Miami and Atlanta who are practicing extreme terrorist tactics. Everybody is afraid of them. They are being quite open about themselves.

This is going to drive a lot of Southern working class people who were beginning to realize who their actual oppressors were back into racism, instead. Baby Doc could probably be brought along to a higher level of consciousness. Or maybe he will be ousted, as he obviously fears.

Anyway, I've got these Black "orange trucks" to endure, meanwhile, I guess is what they are. They seem to be the ones who don't want people around me. Understanding why they are being ordered to persecute me. As long as life is made miserable for me, I will continue, blindly, if necessary, to change the situation. Since I believe it is the ignorance of the agents used to hassle me that keeps them from exposing their bosses, instead, I'll continue to fight that ignorance.

As usual, my problems with the Rockefellers continue. Whenever I soften toward them they once again demonstrate that they are more convoluted that Jesuits, as racist as Germans, and more invisible politically than anybody.

I don't trust people who are all things to all men. Jim Garrison is the same way. So is Mark Lane. The only thing I like about David is that he isn't a hysteric. He carries it to greater extremes than I can relate to, though. Since he seems the only non-hysteric in conspiracy politics, though, he's all I've got in that department. If he thinks Wilson is a Nietzschean, though, he is a hysteric about that much. That's that Anglo-Saxon thing, again. Everybody is either a Communist a Capitalist or a Nazi, there are no anarchists in that worldview. Like the CFR scene in the Trilogy . The Anarchists are no different (to them) than the hordes of Ghenghis Kahn. A nice weak, safe enemy for all the Powers to pick on, if you ask me. Like potheads and gays to the police.

That's speculation about where they are at, of course. I look at the results and I draw what seem like obvious conclusions. Non-Caucasians are being exterminated by famines by the millions, so I conclude the Nazis remain very powerful.

Bolsheviks cooperate with this conspiracy of extermination so I conclude they are instruments of the German ruling class. The Invisible Hand of the technocracy leaves its fingerprints wherever there are Hitlers or Stalins or Castros, so I conclude they were all instruments of the same conspiracy.

You find a big foot print, you assume a large man or woman walked there. You find a small foot print, you assume a small person left it.

When, in the Marines, Ronald Wilson told the CO Ravenhurst was a huge, mountain of a man, and then they found size six shoes under his bunk, they began to suspect things. The fact is, vast areas in Africa are suffering famine. All anyone talks about is Ethiopia. Then they whip up a frenzy of charitable aid. Then the Marxist government confiscates food supplies. Rumors say the British have got the Marxist politicians there under surveillance and control.