Marisha Pessl - Special Topics in Calamity Physics

“What you have in your hands is an official copy of Blue’s high school transcript,” Dad was saying.

“Yes,” said Ms. Ronin-Smith. Her thin lips, which even in repose tended to look as if she were sucking on a lime, trembled slightly at the corners, hinting at vague dismay.

“The school Blue is coming from — Lamego High in Lamego, Ohio — is one of the most dynamic schools in the country. I want to make sure her work is adequately recognized here.”

“Of course you do,” said Ronin-Smith.

“Naturally, students will be threatened by her, especially those who anticipate they’ll be first or second in the class. We don’t wish to upset anyone. However, it’s only fair that she is placed in close proximity to where she was when my work forced us to relocate. She was number one —”

Lacey gave Dad the Bureaucratic Stare — regret, with a hint of triumph. “I hate to discourage you, Mr. Van Meer, but I must inform you, Gallway policy is very clear in these matters. An incoming student, no matter how outstanding his or her marks, can not be placed higher than—”

“Good God,” Dad said abruptly. Eyebrows raised, mouth an enraptured smile, he was leaning forward in his seat the precise angle of the Tower of Pisa. I realized, in horror, he was pulling his Yes-Virginia-There-Is-a-Santa-Claus face. I wanted to hide under my chair. “That is a very impressive diploma you have there. May I ask what it is?”

“Eh — what?” squeaked Ronin-Smith (as if Dad had just pointed out a centipede inching along the wall behind her), and she swiveled around to survey the giant, gold-sealed, cream, calligraffitied diploma mounted next to a photo of the Mötley Crüe dog in a bowtie and top hat. “Oh. That’s my N.C. certificate for Distinguished Academic Counseling and Arbitration.”

Dad gasped a little. “Sounds like they could use you at the U.N.”

“Oh, please,” said Ms. Ronin-Smith, shaking her head, reluctantly breaking into a small yellowed smile of rickrack teeth. A flush was starting to seep into her neck. “ Har dly.”

Thirty minutes later, after Dad had sufficiently wooed her (he worked like a ferocious evangelist; one had no choice but to be saved), we descended the corkscrew stairs leading from her office.

“Only one twerp ahead of you now,” he whispered with unmitigated glee. “Some little tarantula named Radley Clifton. We’ve seen the type before. I surmise three weeks into Fall Term, you’ll turn in one of your research papers on relativism and he’ll go ‘splat.’”

The following morning at 7:45, when Dad dropped me off in front of Hanover, I felt absurdly nervous. I had no idea why. I was as familiar with First Days of School as Jane Goodall her Tanzanian chimps after five years in the jungle. And yet, my linen blouse felt two sizes too big (the short sleeves creased off my shoulders like stiffly ironed dinner napkins), my red-and-white checkered skirt felt sticky and my hair (usually the one feature I could count on not to disgrace me) had opted to try a dried-dandelion frizz: I was a table in a bistro serving Bar-B-Q.

“‘She walks in beauty, like the night,’” Dad shouted through the unrolled window as I climbed from the car. “‘Of cloudless climes and starry skies; / And all that’s best of dark and bright / Meet in her aspect and her eyes’! Knock them dead, kiddo! Teach them what educated means.”

I nodded weakly and slammed the door (ignoring the Fanta-haired woman who’d stopped on the steps and turned around for Dad — Dr. King’s drop-off sermon). A campus-wide Morning Announcements was scheduled for 8:45, so after I found my locker on the third floor of Hanover, collected my books (throwing a friendly smile to the teacher frantically running in and out of her classroom with photocopies — the soldier who’d woken up to realize she had not sufficiently planned the day’s offensive), I made my way outside along the sidewalk to Love Auditorium. I was still nerdily early, and the theater was empty apart from one diminutive kid in front trying to look absorbed in what was clearly a blank spiral notebook.

The section for seniors was in the back. I sat down in my assigned seat, given to me by Ronin-Smith, and counted the minutes until the deafening student stampede, all the “What ups” and “How wuz your summers,” the smell of shampoo, toothpaste and new leather shoes, and that scary kinetic energy kids emitted whenever they were in large numbers so floors throbbed, walls buzzed and you thought if only you could figure out how to harness it, get it through a few parallel circuits and straight through a power station, you could safely and economically light up the East Coast.

I’m obliged to reveal an old trick: implacable self-possession can be attained by all, not by pretending to look absorbed in what’s clearly a blank spiral notebook; not by trying to convince yourself you’re an undiscovered rock star, movie star, top model, tycoon, Bond, Bond Girl, Queen Elizabeth, Elizabeth Bennett or Eliza Doolittle at the Ambassador’s Ball; not by imagining you’re a long-lost member of the Vanderbilt family, nor by tilting up your chin fifteen to forty-five degrees and pretending to be Grace Kelly in her prime. These methods work in theory, but in practice they slip away, so one is left hideously naked with nothing but the stained sheet of self-confidence around one’s feet.

Instead, stately dignity can be possessed by all, in two ways:

1. Diverting the mind with a book or play

2. Reciting Keats

I discovered this technique early in life, in second grade at Sparta Elementary. When I couldn’t help but overhear details of Eleanor Slagg and Her Recent Exclusive Sleepover, I pulled a book out of my bag, Mein Kampf (Hitler, 1925), which I’d randomly stolen from Dad’s library. I tucked my head between the hardback covers and, with the severity of the German Chancellor himself, made myself read and read until the words on the page invaded Eleanor’s words and Eleanor’s words surrendered.

“Welcome,” said Headmaster Havermeyer into the microphone. Bill was built like a Saguaro cactus that had ultimately had gone too long without water, and his clothes — the navy jacket, blue shirt, the leather belt with a giant silver buckle portraying either the Siege of the Alamo or the Battle of Little Bighorn — looked as dried out, faded and dusty as his face did. He paced the stage, slowly, as if reveling in the imaginary clinks of his spurs; he held the cordless microphone lovingly: it was his high-crowned Stetson.

“Here we go,” whispered the hyperactive Mozart next to me who wouldn’t stop tapping out The Marriage of Figaro (1786) in the space of seat between his legs. I was next to Amadeus and some sad kid who was the spitting image of Sal Mineo (see Rebel Without a Cause ).

“For those of you who’ve never heard Dixon’s Words of Wisdom,” Bill went on, “those of you who’re new, well, you’re lucky ’cause you get to hear it for the first time. Dixon was my grandfather, Pa Havermeyer, and he liked young people who listened, who learned from their elders. When I was growing up he’d pull me aside and he’d say, ‘Son, don’t be afraid to change.’ Well, I can’t say it any better. Don’t be afraid to change. That’s right.”

He certainly wasn’t the first headmaster to suffer from the Ol’-Blue-Eyes-at-The-Sands Effect. Countless headmasters, particularly male, confused the slick floors of a dimly lit cafeteria or the muddled acoustics of a high school auditorium for the ruby-walled Copa Room, mistook students for a doting public who’d made their reservations months in advance and shelled out $100 a pop. Tragically, he believed he could sing “Strangers in the Night” off-key, croon “The Best Is Yet to Come,” lose a strand of the lyrics and never mar his reputation as Chairman of the Board, The Voice, Swoonatra.