Lauren Groff - Fates and Furies

“Fat chance,” she said. She left Chollie and went across to her husband and whispered in his ear. Lotto’s eyes widened, and he bit down on a grin and didn’t watch his wife as she went around the party and out the apartment’s front door, turning down the dimmer switch on her way so that the only illumination in the room was from the flicker of the jack-o’-lanterns.

In a minute, Lotto went out the door with ostentatious nonchalance.

He went up a flight of stairs, found Mathilde outside the old lady’s door. His party churned below; from within he hadn’t been aware it was so loud. He wondered why the old lady hadn’t called the cops yet, as she usually did. Still before ten, perhaps. There was a flush of cold as the front door opened and a clump of clowns clattered down the stairs to their apartment, and Lotto’s exposed buttocks prickled with goose bumps. But the front door closed; the door to their apartment opened and swallowed the clowns. He loosed Mathilde’s left breast from her bustier, his mouth on the curve of her throat.

He turned her around to press her cheek against the door, but she struggled back, her eyes flashing, and he submitted to the standing missionary. Not as exciting, perhaps, but still a prayer to the gods of love.

Inside the second-floor apartment, Bette was eating a runny egg sandwich alone in the dark, kept up by the festivities below. Now, unmistakable, a creak on the stairway, and Bette thrilled to the thought of a burglar, the tiny gun she kept in the fern stand. She put the sandwich down and pressed her ear to the door. But here was another creaking, a murmur. Some preparatory thumps. Indeed! This was happening. It had been so very long since her Hugh; but what had passed between them still felt fresh to her, a peach bitten into. Felt like yesterday, all that bodily joy. Begun so young they didn’t even know what they were doing and they wouldn’t give it up, so when they were old enough, they married. Not the worst thing to build a marriage around, such juice. The first years had been delirious, the latter ones merely happy.

The girl on the landing moaned in her chest. The boy was muttering but not so distinctly that Bette could understand the words, and the girl’s moans became louder, then were muffled as if she were biting something — his shoulder? The rattling of the door was strenuous. Bette pushed herself against the heaving wood [so long since anyone had touched her; she offered up her change on her palm at the grocery store so that the clerk would brush her hand with his fingers]. Such athletes. Put Bette in mind of the monkey house on a Sunday visit to the zoo, the capuchins’ gleeful whoring.

A mingled half shout and Bette whispered to her tabby figure-eighting her ankles, “Trick or treat, old girl. Indeed.”

Out on the landing was hoarse breathing and rustling and those silly creatures. Oh, she knew who it was, the strange-looking giant from downstairs and his tall, plain wife, though she would pretend that she didn’t to save embarrassment when they met in the foyer. Then the footsteps down, away, the music intensifying, quieting as their door closed, and Bette was alone again. Now for a stiff scotch and a toddle off to bed, dovey, like the good girl you’ve become.

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TEN O’CLOCK and Mathilde was on her knees picking up the pieces of their millionth shattered wineglass since they moved into this dismal apartment five years ago. After all this time, still Goodwill crap. Someday, when Lotto got a gig, they’d afford better. Oh, she was tired. She hadn’t even bothered to put in her contacts tonight, and her glasses lenses were smeared with fingerprints. She longed for everyone to go home.

She heard Lotto say from the couch, “An attempt to shake things up. At least it’s not as bright as a mouthful of Lemonheads anymore.”

Rachel stroked the freshly painted wall. She muttered, “What’s this color? Suicide at Dusk? Church on a Winter Afternoon? It’s the darkest blue I’ve ever seen.” She seemed even more nervy than normal; a car had just backfired on the street, and she’d dropped the glass. “ Please let me do that,” she said sheepishly to Mathilde. “I’m such a klutz,” she said.

“I’ve got it. And I can hear you about the new paint, you know. I love it,” Mathilde called out, letting the pieces of glass rain into the garbage. But a drop of blood fell onto the mess — she had sliced her index without feeling it. “Fuck,” she whispered.

“I love it, too,” Luanne said. She had plumpened in the past year like dough before the second punch-down. “I mean, at least as a background for that stolen painting it’s nice.”

“Stop saying that,” Mathilde said. “Pitney smashed it, Ariel told me to throw it out. And I did. If I picked it up out of the dumpster later, it was fair game.”

Luanne shrugged, but her smile was tight.

“With all due respect,” Chollie said. “This is the worst party in the history of parties. We’re talking about walls . Susannah and Natalie are making out, and Danica’s asleep on the rug. What possessed you to have a wine-tasting party? What twentysomething knows balls about wine? We went to better parties in high school.”

Lotto smiled, an effect like dawn. The others perked up. “We were wild,” Lotto said. He turned to the others, and said, “I only lived in Crescent Beach for a few months before Chollie debauched me and my mom sent me away to prep school. But it was the best. We stayed up all night pretty much every night. I can’t even tell you how many drugs we did. Choll, remember that party up in the old abandoned house by the marsh? I was screwing a girl on the roof when I realized the house was on fire and hurried things up and rolled off her and fell two stories into a bush, and when I crawled out, my peen was out of my fly. The firemen gave me a round of applause.” The others laughed, and Lotto said, “That was the very last night I ever spent in Florida. My mom shipped me off the next day. She’d promised an enormous gift to the school, screw admissions criteria. Haven’t been back home since.”

Chollie gave a choked noise. They looked at him. “My twin sister,” he said. “It was. You were screwing.”

“Shoot,” Lotto said. “I’m so sorry, Choll. I’m such a jerk.”

Chollie took a deep breath, let it out. “That was the night I broke my leg in a spiral fracture when we were prepartying on the beach. I was in surgery when all the other stuff happened.”

Long silence.

“I’m so embarrassed,” Lotto said.

“Don’t worry,” Chollie said. “She’d already fucked the whole soccer team by then.” Chollie’s date made a stricken sound. She was a downy model from some USSR country whose beauty, Lotto had to admit, cast even Mathilde’s into the shade. [Not difficult, these days.] Lotto looked across to his wife standing in the kitchen. How bedraggled she was, her hair unwashed, in her glasses and sweatshirt. He shouldn’t have insisted on the get-together. But he had been worried about her; for weeks she had been quiet, remote. Something was wrong. Nothing he said was right, none of the jokes. Was it her job? he’d finally asked. If she was so unhappy, she should quit and they should start a family. If he gave Antoinette a grandbaby, they’d be reinstated for sure. They’d have plenty of money then, jeez, enough for Mathilde to relax a little, figure out what it was she really wanted to do with her life. She struck him as an artist who’d never found her medium, restlessly testing this and that but unable to find a way to articulate her urgency. Maybe she’d find it in children. But, Oh my god, Lotto, stop, please, stop talking, stop your endless talking, stop about having babies, she’d hissed; and it was true they were still too young, too few of their friends had spawned, at least intentionally, and so he’d tabled the discussion and distracted her with videos and booze. He’d had the idea that a wine-tasting party would cheer her, but it was clear that all she wanted to do was go to their new mattress, the bedroom with the embroidered curtains, the antique etchings of nests, and bury herself there. He had forced tonight on her.