Pitigrilli - Cocaine

Nocera: I tell you they’re very economical, in fact they’re almost miserly. They’ll insist on a man’s wasting a thousand francs on a useless thing like a wedding present, but if they get a letter with an unfranked stamp they carefully remove it and re-use it at the first opportunity.

Tito: Decent women do that too. Four sous, if a woman has to spend them, are four sous, but a hundred lire spent on her by a man are worth less in her eyes than a tram ticket. Women have invariably been responsible for the worst instances of stinginess I’ve come across. But go on.

Nocera: The prostitute you marry will have money that you’ll be under no obligation to distribute out of pride to the poor of the parish. Perhaps at the time you may be tempted to do so, but at the last moment the temptation will disappear. Money in small quantities soils the hands, but in large quantities it cleans them; fortunately the only signatures on banknotes are those of the director-general and the chief cashier, and those who pay a woman don’t add their signatures, so your dignity will be safe. Also the woman, having earned her money by her own sweet efforts, will realize that your money too is worthy of some respect, and that’s something not understood by young ladies of good family.

Also, if you marry the type of woman I have in mind, your wife will have enjoyed all the ephemeral pleasures of luxury and will have satisfied her wildest whims; things like a villa on the Lake of Lucerne or a yacht at Nice or a car with special coachwork will no longer tempt her. She’ll have a delightful longing for simplicity à la Cincinnatus. Instead of saying: “You know what you ought to buy me, darling?” she’ll say: “Don’t waste your money, my love.”

Whether you marry a young woman of good family or a whore, she’ll certainly be unfaithful to you, but there’s a difference. The former will deceive you in a noisy, sensational fashion; if she does not draw your attention to your unhappiness, she’ll certainly draw everyone else’s to it. Not having much experience of men, she’ll believe her idiot of a lover (because she’ll inevitably fall in love with an idiot) is an exceptional individual; and if he tells her that you’re a fool she’ll take his word for it and help him make you look a fool to your friends. A whore, on the other hand, will deceive you elegantly, methodically, economically, with style, tact and honesty. She will be able calmly and accurately to compare your merits with the other man’s, because she knows men, while a wife recruited from respectable virgins of good family knows only two, that is, you and the other man. A respectable woman who cuckolds you will laugh at the state she has put you in, because she regards it as strange, remarkable and exceptional. But the whore, knowing it to be natural, normal and usual, will not laugh. The respectable young woman will want you to help her lover, lend him large sums of money, help him over his difficulties. The whore, being used to taking money from men, not giving it to them, will not impose that burden on you.

She will not be accepted in good society, so you won’t have the displeasure of having to meet people and return visits and debase yourself with the company of the respectable. The only people you will invite to your home will be agreeable and unprejudiced persons such as ourselves, who will never cause you any embarrassment, because with a former whore there’s no need to mince words; and there’ll be no vulgarity either, because the woman will have become your wife after all. Also, she’ll never refuse you when you want her.

Tito: No wife ever refuses herself.

The man whom nobody knows: That’s what you think, but there are wives who have the courage to say to their husbands: “No, not tonight, darling.”

Nocera: But she won’t make the excuse of being tired, because you could answer: “What? You, who had twenty men a day?” And if she wanted it when you were tired, you could say: “But haven’t you had enough yet after your active and hard-working career?” You could have as many lovers as you liked, and if she objected you could silence her by mentioning the first Christian name that came into your head.

A respectable young woman will never bother to hide her fits of irritability and bad temper and will make you put up with her nervous outbursts, and when she gives herself she’ll show her indifference or disgust. But the whore, accustomed to giving herself with a smile and an appearance of pleasure, will treat you as her most highly valued client and give you the illusion of desire and pleasure, even though her father and mother have died of yellow fever that day. Also she’ll keep her beauty till an advanced age because, as it’s one of the essentials of her calling, she will have learnt all its secrets.

Just as retired actors sometimes yield to the temptation of returning to the stage, or at least of giving a special performance, she may one day be tempted to do the same. But, if so, no one will be surprised, no one will despise you for it, because it’s her former profession, after all.

You may, perhaps, have a strange feeling on the first night of your marriage. You won’t have the feeling of being in bed with a wife, but with a woman whom you’ve accosted in the street. Won’t that be a pleasure? You won’t be up against the nuisance of having to struggle with a virgin’s safety locks, and that’s a far from negligible advantage. But if you were foolish enough to want a virgin wife, believe me, my friend, a prostitute could provide that for you too, for only prostitutes — and not virgins — are able to create a complete illusion of virginity.

Tito: You’re perfectly right, my dear fellow.

Nocera: The first thing you must do is to drop those two women and never see them again.

Tito: No, I’ll never see them again.

Nocera: Do you swear that?

Tito: I swear it.

The telephone rang.

“It’s for Tito Arnaudi.”

Tito picked up the receiver. “Yes, darling, it’s me,” he said. “At your place in half an hour? Yes, even sooner.”

“Who was that?” Nocera asked.

“The Armenian,” Tito answered, and walked out.

He reached Kalantan’s villa a little late, having met, at the entrance to a Métro station, his old school friend, the waiter, who used to memorize dates like telephone numbers (Peace of Campoformio, one seven nine seven) and had acted as his guide to the cafés of Montmartre when he was doing his research for the cocaine article.

“I’m going back to Italy,” his friend announced, extending his baggage-laden arms. “I’m sick of Paris, I’m sick of waiting, I’m sick of earning money one franc or so at a time, I’m sick of everlasting complaints. If I stayed here much longer I’d throw myself in the Seine, though half of its water comes from the bidets of recognized or clandestine whores.”

“Do you expect to find a cleaner river in Italy? Perhaps you will, because Italian women wash less.”

“I’m going to be a monk. There’s a monastery near Turin where they take anyone who offers himself. It’s a kind of religious Foreign Legion.”

“But do you know how to be a monk?”

“I don’t think it’s very difficult.”

“And do you have faith?”

“No.”

“Do you have a vocation?”

“No.”

Then why are you doing it?”

“There’s a small garden, the cells are well laid out, there’s not much work, the rule is not oppressive, the food’s healthy, there are plenty of books, and you never go out, even after death, because there’s a cemetery on the spot. There’s every convenience.”

Tito looked at him, puzzled. Then he said: “You’ve had an unhappy love affair. Has your mistress been deceiving you with her husband?”