Dennis Lehane - The Given Day

“In my experience,” the Deacon Broscious said, “the most memorable thing in a man’s life is rarely pleasant. Pleasure doesn’t teach us anything but that pleasure is pleasurable. And what sort of lesson is that? Monkey jacking his own penis know that. Nah, nah,” he said. “The nature of learning, my brothers? Is pain. Ya’ll think on this — we hardly ever know how happy we are as children, for example, until our childhood is taken from us. We usually can’t recognize true love until it’s passed us by. And then, then we say, My that was the thing. That was the truth, ya’ll. But in the moment?” He shrugged his enormous shoulders and patted his forehead with his handkerchief. “What molds us,” he said, “is what maims us. A high price, I agree. But” — he spread his arms and gave them his most glorious smile — “what we learn from that is priceless.”

Luther never saw Dandy and Smoke move, but when he turned at the sound of Jessie’s grunt, they’d already clamped his wrists to the table and Smoke had Jessie’s head held fast in his hands.

Luther said, “Hey, ya’ll wait a—”

The Deacon’s slap connected with Luther’s cheekbone and busted up through his teeth and his nose and eyes like shards of broken pipe. The Deacon’s hand didn’t leave his head, either. He clenched Luther’s hair and held his head in place as Dandy produced a knife and sliced it along Jessie’s jawbone from his chin up to the base of his ear.

Jessie screamed long after the knife had left his flesh. The blood climbed out of the wound like it had been waiting its whole life to do so, and Jessie howled through his mask and Dandy and Smoke held his head in place as the blood poured onto the table and Deacon Broscious yanked on Luther’s hair and said, “You close your eyes, Country, I’ll take them home with me.”

Luther blinked from the sweat, but he didn’t shut his eyes, and he saw the blood flow over the lip of the wound and off Jessie’s flesh and spill all over the table, and he could tell by a fleeting glimpse of Jessie’s eyes that his friend had exited the place where he was worried about the wound to his jaw and had realized these could be the first moments of a long, last day on earth.

“Give that pussy a towel,” the Deacon said and pushed Luther’s head away.

Dandy dropped a towel on the table in front of Jessie, and then he and Smoke stepped back. Jessie grabbed the towel and pressed it to his chin and sucked through his teeth and wept softly and rocked in his chair, his mask gone red up the left side, and that went on for some time, no one saying anything and the Deacon looking bored, and when the towel was redder than the Deacon’s hat, Smoke handed Jessie another one to replace it and tossed the bloody one behind him to the floor.

“Your thieving old man getting killed?” the Deacon said. “Nigger, that’s now the second most memorable moment of your life.”

Jessie clenched his eyes shut and pressed the towel so hard against his jaw Luther could see his fingers turn white.

“Can I get an ‘amen’ on that, brother?”

Jessie opened his eyes and stared.

The Deacon repeated his question.

“Amen,” Jessie whispered.

“Amen,” the Deacon said and clapped his hands. “Way I figure it, you been skimming ten dollars a week from me for two years now. What that add up to, Smoke?”

“One thousand forty dollar, Deacon, sir.”

“A thousand forty.” The Deacon turned his gaze on Luther. “And you, Country, you either in on it or known about it and didn’t tell me, which make it your debt, too.”

Luther didn’t know what else to do so he nodded.

“You don’t need to nod like you confirming something. You ain’t confirming shit to me. I say something is, and it very much is.” He took a sip of whiskey. “Now, Jessie Tell, can you pay me my money or it all done got shot up your arm?”

Jessie hissed, “I can get it, sir, I can get it.”

“Get what?”

“Your thousand forty dollars, sir.”

The Deacon widened his eyes at Smoke and Dandy and all three of them chuckled at the same time and stopped chuckling just as fast.

“You don’t understand, dope ho’, do you? The only reason you alive is because, in my beneficence, I kindly decided to call what you took a loan. I loaned you the thousand forty. You didn’t steal it. If I was to have decided you stole it, that knife be in your throat right now and your dick be in your mouth. So say it.”

“Say what, sir?”

“Say it was a loan.”

“It was a loan, sir.”

“Indeed,” the Deacon said. “So, as to the terms of that loan, let me enlighten you. Smoke, what we charge a week for vig?”

Luther felt his head spin and he swallowed hard to keep his vomit down.

“Five percent,” Smoke said.

“Five percent,” the Deacon told Jessie. “Compounded weekly .”

Jessie’s eyes, which had gone hooded with the pain, snapped open.

“What’s the weekly vig on a thousand forty?” the Deacon said.

Smoke said, “I believe it work out to fifty-two dollars, Deacon, sir.”

“Fifty-two dollars,” the Deacon said slowly. “Don’t sound like much.”

“No, Deacon, sir, it don’t.”

The Deacon stroked his chin. “But shit, wait, what’s that per month?”

“Two hundred eight, sir,” Dandy chimed in.

The Deacon showed his real smile, a tiny one, having himself a time now. “Per year?”

“Two thousand four hundred ninety-six,” Smoke said.

“And doubled?”

“Ah,” Dandy said, sounding desperate to win the game, “that be, um, that be—”

“Four thousand nine hundred ninety-two,” Luther said, not even sure he was speaking or why until the words left his mouth.

Dandy slapped the back of his head. “I had it, nigger.”

The Deacon turned his full gaze on Luther and Luther saw his grave in there, could hear the shovels in the dirt.

“You ain’t dumb at all, Country. I knew that first time I saw you. Knew the only way you’d get dumb is hanging around fools like this one bleeding all over my table. It was my mistake to allow your fraternization with said Negro, and that’s to my everlasting regret.” He sighed and stretched his great bulk in his chair. “But it’s all spilt milk now. So that four thousand nine hundred ninety-two added to the original loan come out to …?” He held up a hand to stop anyone else from answering and pointed at Luther.

“Six thousand thirty-two.”

The Deacon slapped the table. “It do. Dang. And before ya’ll think I’m a merciless man, ya’ll need to understand that even in this, I was more than kind because ya’ll need to consider what you’d owe if, like Dandy and Smoke suggested, I’d added the vig into the principal every week as I did my computations. You see?”

No one said anything.

“I said,” the Deacon said, “do you see?”

“Yes, sir,” Luther said.

“Yes, sir,” Jessie said.

The Deacon nodded. “Now how you gone pay back six thousand thirty-two dollars of my money?”

Jessie said, “Somehow we’ll—”

“You’ll what?” The Deacon laughed. “You stick up a bank?”

Jessie said nothing.

“You go over to White Town maybe, rob every third man you see all day and all night?”

Jessie said nothing. Luther said nothing.

“You can’t,” the Deacon said softly, his hands spread out on the table. “You just can’t. Dream all you want, but some things ain’t in the realm of possibility. No, boys, there’s no way you can come up with my — oh, shit, it’s a new week, I almost forgot — my six thousand eighty-four dollars.”

Jessie’s eyes slid to the side and then forced their way back to the center. “Sir, I need a doctor, I think.”