Miranda Lee - It Started With A Kiss - The Secret Love-Child / Facing Up to Fatherhood / Not a Marrying Man

Isabel closed her eyes and tried to do nothing, but her mind was by now wide awake. She began thinking about last night after dinner. In the end, they hadn’t got anyone else to run them back to their jetty. Rafe had said he was fine to operate the boat and she’d been far too tipsy to worry.

Tipsy! Hardly an adequate word to describe her state of intoxication. She’d been seriously sloshed. Not Rafe though, yet he’d consumed as many glasses of wine as she had. Or had he? Perhaps not. He’d talked a lot between courses, and she’d just sat there, sipping her wine and listening to him like some fatuous female fool, thinking how gorgeous he was and how stupid Liz was to dump him.

No, Isabel finally conceded. Rafe hadn’t consumed nearly as much wine as she had. If he had, he wouldn’t have been able to make such beautiful love to her as he had after they’d come home.

Not that she could remember it all. Some bits were pretty hazy. But she could remember the feel of his hands on her as he undressed her and caressed her. So gentle and tender. The same with his kisses. His mouth had flowed all over her and she had dissolved from one orgasm to another.

She’d never known climaxes could be like that. Blissful and relaxing. Her bones had felt like water by the time he’d rolled her onto her side, rather like she was lying now. Only last night Rafe’s naked body had been curled around her back.

Isabel’s stomach contracted at the thought. That was one thing she hadn’t forgotten. How he’d felt when he’d first slipped inside her. She moaned at the memory. It had felt so good. Even better when he’d begun to move.

Never had she been so lost in a man’s arms, her mind and body like mush. She hadn’t come again. But, Rafe must have. She had a vague recollection of his crying out. But after that, all memory ceased. She must have fallen asleep. And now here she was the next morning with a parched mouth and a vicious headache, whilst Rafe was down at the beach, no doubt bright-eyed and bushy-tailed.

A shadow fell across the corner of her eye and she rolled over just enough to see Rafe walk through the sun-drenched doorway. His dark silhouette eventually lightened to reveal that she’d been right. He had been swimming, thankfully dressed in board shorts. She couldn’t cope with him in full-frontal nudity this morning.

‘How’s the head?’ he said as he walked towards the bed.

‘Awful. Many thanks for the tablets and the water.’

‘My pleasure. And it was,’ he added with a devilish grin.

‘Don’t be cocky. I was pretty plastered.’

‘So I noticed. You know you’re very agreeable when you’re plastered.’

‘I really couldn’t say. Last night is somewhat hazy.’

‘You mean you can’t remember anything?’

Isabel caught an odd note in Rafe’s question. Was he pleased or offended? ‘I didn’t say that. I said hazy, as in…hazy.’

‘Ahh. Hazy. Hazy word, hazy.’

‘You were pretty good, if that’s what you’re waiting for.’

He smiled. ‘That’s nice to hear.’

‘Different, though.’

Rafe’s stomach flipped over. ‘Different?’ he asked, trying not to panic. ‘In what way, different?’

She shrugged. ‘Gentler. Sweeter. Different.’

Rafe smiled his relief. ‘Well, I didn’t need to rush it. You weren’t making any of your usual control-losing demands.’

Isabel was taken aback. ‘What do you mean, control-losing demands?’

‘Honey, you have a very impatient nature when it comes to sex. It’s always faster, Rafe. Harder. Deeper. Again. More. No more. Stop. Don’t stop. The list is endless.’

‘That’s not true!’ she denied hotly.

‘Perhaps a slight exaggeration on my part. But it was still a rather nice change to know I could take my time and do exactly what I wanted to do with your total cooperation. I really enjoyed it.’

And how! Rafe thought.

Any apprehension over his bold decision not to use any protection had disappeared once he’d put his plans into action. Knowing that a child could possibly result from his lovemaking had added an emotional dimension Rafe hadn’t anticipated. When he’d felt his seed spilling into her he’d thought his heart would burst with elation. And when she’d gone to sleep in his arms afterwards he’d been consumed by feelings so powerful and deep that they’d revolutionised his ideas on what loving a person was all about.

Seeing Liz last night was the best thing that could have happened to him. What a fool he’d been, choosing a solitary life for fear of being hurt again. Fair enough to withdraw into his cave for a while. But it had been years, for pity’s sake. Years of keeping women at a distance, except sexually, and telling himself—and everyone else—that he didn’t want marriage and a family, when the truth was he’d become too much of a coward to risk his male ego a second time. He’d been afraid of being dumped again, afraid of rejection.

Not any more. He was going to take a leaf out of Isabel’s book and go after what he wanted. Which was her as his wife as well as the mother of his child. Or children. Heck, he wasn’t going to stop at just one. He’d hated being an only child.

But he couldn’t tell her all that yet. He couldn’t even tell her how much he loved her. She wasn’t ready for such an announcement. But she would be, in time. And when Mother Nature eventually took her course.

It was to be hoped that last night had done the trick. But if it hadn’t, he’d already doctored a few more condoms for today. If at first you don’t succeed, Rafe, then try, try again.

Trying again had never looked so pleasurable. Pity she had a hangover. Still, that would pass.

‘God, I can’t stand people looking perky when I’m dying,’ Isabel grumbled.

‘What you need is a refreshing swim,’ Rafe suggested.

She groaned. ‘My head is already swimming, thank you very much. Do you think I could con you into getting me a cup of coffee?’

He jumped up off the foot of the bed. ‘One steaming mug of sweet black coffee coming up!’

Isabel groaned again. Not only perky, but energetic. He even started whistling.

Still, she had to concede Rafe wasn’t anything like she’d first thought. Oh, she didn’t doubt he was a bit of a ladies’ man. And marriage and children were not part of his life plan. But he wasn’t at all arrogant, or selfish. He was actually quite considerate, and highly sensitive. That Liz female had really hurt him, stupid greedy amoral woman that she was.

His dad’s death had scarred him as well. Isabel had been moved last night when Rafe had told her how his father had been a country rep for a wine company, travelling all over New South Wales, selling his products into hotels and clubs and restaurants. Rafe had been just eight when his dad’s car had hit a kangaroo at night and careered off the road into a tree, killing him instantly. Unfortunately, his father hadn’t been a great success as a salesman—a bit of a dreamer, though in the nicest possible way—and money had been tight for his widow and son after his demise.

But he’d been a great success as a dad. Clearly, Rafe had adored him. His voice had choked up when he’d told Isabel that the only things his father had left him in a material sense were a camera and a pair of phantom’s-head cuff-links. Father and son had had a real thing for the Phantom, his Dad always bringing Rafe home a Phantom Comic after he’d been away. They would always read it together that night. Isabel had been moved to hear that, when one of the prized cuff-links had been lost during a house move Rafe had had the other made into an earring and never took it off for fear of losing it as well. How he must have loved that man!

It was a pity he shied away from being a father himself. With his dad’s example to go by, he’d probably be a very good one.