Kerry Barrett - The Forgotten Girl

We looked at each other for a moment – a long moment.

Then Frank threw open the door to the darkroom.

‘Prints,’ he announced. ‘Hi, kid.’

‘Hi Frank,’ I said, annoyed and relieved in equal measures that he’d interrupted me and George.

‘Fashion,’ he said, giving me a large envelope. ‘I’m pleased with them. Get Rosemary to call and tell me what she thinks.’

I nodded.

‘Did you bring me an issue?’

‘Oh yes,’ I said, I’d thrown it on a side table when I came in, so I fetched it now. Frank – who was in his forties with a bushy beard that he claimed he’d cultivated to make him look like a grown-up – held the issue at arm’s length and looked at the cover. It was a photograph of a pie, taken from above, on a dark-brown background.

‘Fucking dreadful,’ he said.

I grinned. I agreed entirely.

‘Why don’t you put people on the cover?’

I shrugged.

‘Not up to me,’ I said.

‘One day it will be up to you,’ George said.

‘One day,’ I laughed. I pulled on my mac again and picked up the envelope of prints.

‘I’ll get Rosemary to ring you,’ I said. ‘Bye George.’

George blew me a kiss and I floated on air all the way back to the office.

As I was walking past Bruno’s though, a shout made me look round.

‘Nancy,’ Bruno called from the door of the café. ‘Nancy! I need you.’

Oh god, had that Suze stolen something or caused a commotion? Heart sinking, I crossed the road.

‘Your friend,’ Bruno said, his Italian accent heavier than usual. ‘She is sick. You have to help her.’

Chapter 5

I can’t lie, for a moment I thought about telling Bruno I barely knew Suze, and going back to work. But then I remembered the slump of her shoulders when she picked up her wet article, and I knew I couldn’t abandon her. What had George called me? A sucker. Sounded about right.

‘Nancy!’ Bruno sounded panicky. ‘She’s at the back.’

I went into the long narrow café, enjoying the warmth after being outside in the rain. The windows were fogged up and there was a buzz of chatter fighting with the hiss of Bruno’s fancy coffee machine that he’d brought with him from Italy.

The left side of the room was lined with booths with maroon, PVC benches. It was close to lunchtime now, so the café was busy and I glanced at the customers as I walked past, appraising their hairstyles, their clothes and their shoes. The counter was on the right, and at the back of the café, past the serving hatch, there were another two booths. That’s where Suze was – right at the back – curled up on one of the PVC benches.

‘She came in, all bouncy,’ Bruno said. ‘She said she was your friend, ordered a coffee and then she fainted. We put her here and gave her some water.’

‘Is she asleep?’ I said, looking at the top of Suze’s dark head, which was all I could see.

‘No,’ she said, her voice muffled. ‘I’m awake. I just feel woozy when I sit up.’

‘Sit up, and put your head between your legs,’ I said, remembering my friend Delia from school, who fainted all the time. ‘It gets blood to your brain, or something.’

Suze didn’t reply, but she slowly sat up, giving me a glimpse of her very pale face, then spun her legs round so they were outside the booth, and lowered her head in between her bony knees.

‘Suze,’ I said, studying her shoulder blades, which stuck up like chicken wings. ‘Did you have breakfast?’

She moved slightly – a brief shake of her head.

‘Bruno, can you get her some orange juice and a sandwich?’ I said, wondering if Suze still had that ten-shilling note – junior writer wasn’t a very well paid job. ‘I think she needs to eat something.’

Bruno looked relieved that I was taking charge. He slunk off behind the counter, poured an orange juice, which he handed to me, and busied himself making a sandwich.

I sat down opposite Suze. From the look of her, it wasn’t just breakfast she’d skipped. I wondered if she’d eaten anything all week.

‘Suze,’ I said. She raised her head and I was pleased to see some colour coming back into her cheeks. I pushed the glass of orange juice towards her and she drank it all in one go. ‘Suze, is there anyone I should phone for you?’

She shook her head.

‘A friend?’ I said. ‘Boyfriend? Parents?’

She smiled at me, weakly.

‘No,’ she said. ‘I’m sort of a loner.’

Bruno put the sandwich in front of her and she tore into it. She ate like a child, holding her sandwich two-handed, not worried about how she looked. If my mum had been here to see her, she’d have been horrified at her lack of table manners.

‘It’s fine,’ she said. ‘I only live round the corner. I’ll just go home and sleep. I was up late finishing my article.’

I looked at my watch. It was lunchtime now, so Rosemary would assume I’d taken my break after going to Frank’s.

‘Round the corner?’ I said.

‘Peter Street,’ she said, through a mouthful of bread.

That really was just round the corner. I was surprised and impressed that she actually lived in Soho and I wondered if she was one of those society kids who’d dropped out of their rich world but were still supported by their parents.

‘Finish your sandwich and I’ll walk you home,’ I said, partly out of concern for her and partly because I was curious to see where she lived. ‘Make sure you’re okay.’

Suze’s eyes widened in horror.

‘No,’ she said. ‘Honestly, I’m fine now. You go back to work and I’ll pay Bruno and get home.’

‘I’ll walk you home,’ I said firmly.

Suze had finished her sandwich. She looked at me, her head tilted to one side, like she was sizing me up. Then she nodded.

‘Okay,’ she said. ‘I’ll just pay Bruno.’

She eased the 10/- note out of her pocket and I grabbed her hand.

‘Keep it,’ I said. Like I said, sucker. ‘I’ll pay.’

I settled the bill and with Suze hanging on to my arm like an old lady, we left the café and headed for Berwick Street.

Suze knew everyone. The market traders all called out to her as we passed, and she had quick responses to their questions and jokes.

‘Had one too many?’ the guy on the fruit stall shouted. He had tattoos all over his arms and one crawling up the back of his neck, but his smile as he looked at Suze was kind. I’d probably walked past him every day for a year, but I’d never seen him before.

‘Ha ha,’ Suze said. ‘Just feeling a bit off.’

He threw her a bag and she caught it deftly.

‘Can’t sell these, they’re all bashed,’ he said, winking.

Suze grinned.

‘Thanks.’

She put her mouth close to my ear.

‘Nothing wrong with them,’ she said. ‘He’s such a softie, though you’d never know to look at him.’

I glanced at the greengrocer over my shoulder. She was right about that.

Peter Street ran along the bottom of Berwick Street. One end led to Wardour Street, and the other was a dead-end. Suze led me that way, to a barber’s shop, tucked right in the corner. There was a boarded-up door in between the entrance to the barber and the shop next to it and that was where she headed. She stuck her hand down the neck of her dress and pulled out a tiny key.

‘I keep it in my bra,’ she said, smiling. ‘I’d lose it otherwise.’

Then she unlocked the padlock that was keeping the plywood door firmly shut and pushed me inside, shutting the door behind us and moving the padlock from the outside to the inside.

‘It’s best to keep it locked,’ she said, in a tone that told me she hadn’t always done that.

She led the way up the narrow stairs in front of us. They were covered in threadbare carpet, and the only light came from a dirty, skinny window on the landing.