For Jackie and Michelle, my BFFs for too many decades to count!
All that glitters is not gold .
—WILLIAM SHAKESPEARE
This book has been so much fun to write, and it’s all thanks to the following people: my lovely and amazing editors Katherine Tegen, Claudia Gabel, and Melissa Miller, who made this book possible; my wonderful agent, Bill Contardi, the perfect combination of humour and smarts; and, as always, my husband, Sandy, who showed me that all things are possible for those who believe.
Cover
Title Page
Dedication
Epigraph
Acknowledgements
PROLOGUE: LOST STARS
ONE MONTH EARLIER
ONE: HYPOCRITICAL KISS
TWO: WHILE MY GUITAR GENTLY WEEPS
THREE: REASONS TO BE BEAUTIFUL
FOUR: CELEBRITY SKIN
FIVE: MENTAL HOPSCOTCH
SIX: LONG COOL WOMAN (IN A BLACK DRESS)
SEVEN: I CAN’T GET NO (SATISFACTION)
EIGHT: TEENAGE DREAM
NINE: SUMMERTIME SADNESS
TEN: MR. BRIGHTSIDE
ELEVEN: ROYALS
TWELVE: I WANNA BE SEDATED
THIRTEEN: EVERYBODY WANTS TO RULE THE WORLD
FOURTEEN: SEX AND CANDY
FIFTEEN: YOUNG AND BEAUTIFUL
SIXTEEN: BLURRED LINES
SEVENTEEN: GO HARD OR GO HOME
EIGHTEEN: THE POLITICS OF DANCING
NINETEEN: WICKED GAME
TWENTY: LIPS LIKE SUGAR
TWENTY-ONE: SUNDAY BLOODY SUNDAY
TWENTY-TWO: GHOST IN THE MACHINE
TWENTY-THREE: SUICIDE BLONDE
TWENTY-FOUR: KNOW YOUR ENEMY
TWENTY-FIVE: SHADES OF COOL
TWENTY-SIX: SHOW ME WHAT I’M LOOKING FOR
TWENTY-SEVEN: BACK DOOR MAN
TWENTY-EIGHT: WORK B**CH
TWENTY-NINE: GOLD ON THE CEILING
THIRTY: NOTHING ELSE MATTERS
THIRTY-ONE: DESTINATION UNKNOWN
THIRTY-TWO: THIS IS HOW A HEART BREAKS
THIRTY-THREE: HOW TO SAVE A LIFE
THIRTY-FOUR: LIKE A VIRGIN
THIRTY-FIVE: JUST A GIRL
THIRTY-SIX: BREAKING THE GIRL
THIRTY-SEVEN: BIGMOUTH STRIKES AGAIN
THIRTY-EIGHT: ARE YOU HAPPY NOW?
THIRTY-NINE: BULLET WITH BUTTERFLY WINGS
FORTY: WAKE ME UP WHEN SEPTEMBER ENDS
FORTY-ONE: BLOW ME (ONE LAST KISS)
FORTY-TWO: THE HAND THAT FEEDS
FORTY-THREE: ANOTHER WAY TO DIE
FORTY-FOUR: THE SWEET ESCAPE
FORTY-FIVE: NOWHERE GIRL
FORTY-SIX: GLORY AND GORE
FORTY-SEVEN: CALIFORNICATION
FORTY-EIGHT: SHAKE IT OFF
FORTY-NINE: SHUT UP AND DANCE
FIFTY: HIPS DON’T LIE
FIFTY-ONE: DON’T SAVE ME
FIFTY-TWO: PARANOID
FIFTY-THREE: MISSING PIECES
FIFTY-FOUR: RUNNIN’ DOWN A DREAM
FIFTY-FIVE: PICTURES OF YOU
FIFTY-SIX: GOODBYE TO YOU
FIFTY-SEVEN: BANG BANG
Copyright
Despite the crush of tourists storming the sidewalks year after year, Hollywood Boulevard is a place best viewed behind a pair of polarized lenses and lowered expectations.
From the string of sagging buildings in various stages of decay, the tacky souvenir shops hawking plastic statues of Marilyn in her windblown white dress, and the seemingly endless parade of addicts, runaways, and glamour-deprived transients, it doesn’t take long before the sunburned, white-sneaker-wearing masses realize the LA they’re searching for does not exist there.
In a city that feeds off youth and beauty, Hollywood Boulevard more closely resembles a former screen siren who’s seen better days. The incessant sunshine is a harsh and brutal companion, intent on magnifying every wrinkle, every age spot.
Yet for those who know where to look (and those fortunate enough to boast a spot on the guest list), it also serves as an oasis of the city’s hottest nightclubs—a sort of hedonistic haven for the young, fabulous, and rich.
For Madison Brooks, the boulevard was everything she’d dreamed it would be. Maybe it didn’t look anything like the snow globe she’d had as a kid, the one that showered small squares of golden glitter over a miniature version of the Hollywood sign, but she never expected it would. Unlike those clueless tourists expecting to see their favorite celebrities hanging by their Walk of Fame stars, handing out autographs and hugs to all who passed by, Madison knew exactly what she’d find.
She did her due diligence.
Left nothing to chance.
After all, when planning an invasion, it’s best to familiarize yourself with the lay of the land.
And now, only a few short years after exiting that grimy bus station in downtown LA, her face was on the cover of nearly every magazine, every billboard. The town was officially hers.
While the journey was far more arduous than she’d ever let on, Madison managed to surpass everyone’s expectations but her own. Most merely hoped she’d survive. Not a single person from her former life expected her to rocket straight to the top. Ultimately becoming so known, so lauded, so connected, she’d command full, no-questions-asked access to one of LA’s hottest nightclubs long after it had closed for the night.
In a rare moment of privacy, Madison strode toward the edge of the vacant Night for Night terrace. The heels of her Gucci stilettos sliding gracefully against the smooth stone floor, she pressed a hand to her heart and bowed toward the skyline, imagining those flickering lights as an audience of millions—cell phones and lighters raised in her honor.
The moment reminded her of a similar game she’d played as a kid. Back when she staged elaborate performances for a crowd of grubby stuffed animals with matted hair and missing limbs. Their dull, unblinking button eyes fixed on the sight of Madison dancing and singing before them. Those tireless rehearsals prepping her for the day those secondhand toys would be replaced by real, live screaming fans. She never once doubted her dream would become a reality.
Madison hadn’t become Hollywood’s hottest young celebrity by hoping, wishing, or depending on others. Discipline, control, and steely determination steered her ascent. Although the media loved to portray her as a frivolous party girl (albeit one with serious acting chops), beneath the salacious headlines was a young and powerful girl who’d seized control of her destiny and made it her bitch.
Not that she’d ever admit to such a thing. Better to let them think she was a princess whose life flowed effortlessly. The lie provided a shield that kept them from learning the truth. Those who dared scratch beneath the surface never got very far. The road to Madison’s past was jammed with so many roadblocks even the most determined journalist eventually yielded defeat by writing about her unparalleled beauty—her hair the color of warming chestnuts on a crisp fall day (according to the guy who’d recently interviewed her for Vanity Fair ). He also described her violet eyes as shadowed by a lushly dark nimbus of lashes used to alternately reveal and conceal. And wasn’t there a mention of her skin being pearlescent or incandescent or some other descriptor that translates to radiant?
Funny how he began the interview as just another jaded journalist sure he could break her. Convinced that their vast age difference—she being eighteen, he hovering way past forty (ancient in comparison)—along with his superior IQ (his assumption, not hers)—meant he could trick her into revealing something regrettable that would send her career into a tailspin, only to walk away from their meeting entirely frustrated, if not a little infatuated. Same as all the others who’d gone before—each of them grudgingly admitting there was something different about Madison Brooks. She wasn’t your average starlet.
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