C.J. Miller - Capturing A Colton

The grand staircase had once gleamed in the ornate chandelier fixture that had hung from the center of the two-story foyer. Now, the wood was scuffed, the bannister missing on one side and the chandelier gone, nothing hanging in its place. Livia had loved using the stairs to make a grand entrance to parties. She would gather her guests in the entryway, serve them champagne and cocktails and, when enough people had arrived and the band was playing one of her favorite songs, she would sweep out into the limelight in her couture gown, her hair arranged artfully, and she would descend the stairs as if she were royalty greeting her subjects.

How the people in Shadow Creek had put up with that, Jade had no idea. It had struck her as odd then, and now she wondered if they didn’t fear Livia, the same way her children had. Jade didn’t realize she had walked up the stairs until she was halfway to the first floor. Her mother’s bedroom had been off-limits. Jade shuddered to think what had gone on in that room.

Her mother had cheated on all her husbands. She hadn’t been faithful to another human being once in her life. Her words were cruel and her mouth spewed lies, deceit and hate.

When the details had emerged of Livia’s crimes, Jade had been disgusted and horrified that she had lived in a house where organized crime, human trafficking and drug deals took place. Jade walked to her room first.

She hated everything about it. For her ninth birthday, Livia had offered to remodel her bedroom and Jade had been excited at the prospect. Seeing her siblings’ rooms, she had thought about colors and curtains. An interior designer had met with her and had sketched a room perfectly suited to Jade. Her anticipation at seeing the final product had been immense; she had slept in Claudia’s room while the work was completed on hers. After three days, she had entered her room and had been met with disappointment.

The colors and styles she had discussed with the designer were nowhere to be seen. She had turned to her mother, sight blurry through her disappointed tears, and her mother had looked at her through narrowed eyes. “Stop crying.”

“This isn’t...”

“This isn’t what? What you wanted? I made it better. What you picked was ridiculous. Horses in a room? Horses stink. They are dirty and they make the people around them filthy. Are you a common stable girl? What do you want to do with your life? To clean up horse crap? I thought you were smarter than that. This room is what I wanted.”

Jade had felt utter defeat, as if Livia’s comments about horses were another insult to her father. She had wiped at her tears and had sat quietly in her bedroom alone until bedtime. When she had been called for dinner, she had pretended to be asleep in her new bed, underneath the purple-and-green bedspread that she’d hated.

“I wish I could burn this room down,” she said.

Declan was standing in the doorway. “Some dark things happened in this house.”

Jade turned, surprised at how much being here was affecting her and bringing to mind memories she had thought were buried. “Everything my mother did or said or touched turned to pain.”

Declan walked into the hallway and returned with a sledgehammer and a pair of goggles. “I can’t let you burn the place down. Too dangerous. But you can smash whatever you want.”

Jade slid the goggles over her eyes and took the sledgehammer from his hand. “Really? You’ll let me smash holes in the wall?”

He shrugged. “Sure. Go ahead. If it gives you an ounce of therapeutic value, then it’s worth it. Just be careful around the window. I don’t want you hit with flying glass.”

Jade walked to the corner of the room, lifted the tool over her shoulder and swung it at the wall. It was an intensely satisfying sensation and sound. Then she lifted the heavy hammer and swung again. The more that wall crumbled, the better she felt. Her mother flirting with other men and acting smug when her father asked her about it. Another bash to the wall. Fabrizio being hit in the head by Livia. Crashing and banging. Hiding in her bedroom beneath the covers, wishing she couldn’t hear her parents fighting. The sledgehammer tore apart the wall and every loud noise was utterly satisfying.

When she was finished, she stood in the middle of the room, surveying the damage. “This place looks better.” She was panting and hot, but felt good.

“Was there something about this room that offended you in particular or just the whole setup in general?” Declan asked.

He didn’t seem fazed by her destruction of the room, his posture calm, his voice neutral.

“My mother decorated this room against my wishes. It was another of the hundred ways that she disrespected me. Nothing I said mattered and nothing I did had any value.”

Declan came closer and brushed debris off her shoulders. “I can’t imagine what it must have been like for you to grow up with Livia Colton as your mother. She hurt many people, and perhaps most appallingly, her children. You’re doing good work at Hill Country. Living in a way that contradicts everything she stood for. You care for your horses. You’re part of the community. I heard two mothers at the Cozy Diner talking about something they do there called Farm Fridays and they seemed excited. You’re doing great work. Whatever your mother did, it doesn’t shadow your life now.”

Declan knew what a monster her mother was. Livia had tried to kidnap Edith, but the younger woman had been rescued before any real harm could be done. When River had told her the story, Jade had been, and still was, appalled, but not surprised by the attack. It was not beyond her imagination to picture her mother doing any manner of evil. If it suited some end goal, her mother would do it without a care in the world.

Jade rested her head against Declan’s chest. The outpouring of emotion inside this room had whipped through her. The anger had been exhausted. Now what remained was sadness.

Some of her friends had complained about their mothers growing up. A few were even jealous of Jade, with her big house and swimming pools and adoration of the town. No one had known her secret. Witnessing her mother kill her father had destroyed her. Money and fame didn’t cover up that deep hurt.

Sliding her arms around his waist, she felt the stillness of the room settle around her. “My mother was an evil woman.”

“I’m sorry she hurt you,” Declan said.

“Me and everyone she came into contact with,” Jade said.

Declan’s stronger arms banded around her. The heat in the room and smell of broken drywall had Jade’s nose itching. She took a step back from Declan, wondering if she had been inappropriate. He was watching her with that cool stare.

“Hey, guys.” Allison was standing in the doorway, her smile bright. “What happened in here?”

“This was my room,” Jade said.

Allison held up her hands. “Say no more. I think given the opportunity, Knox would do the same thing to his. And if I ever see Livia, I’ll do the same thing to her.”

Livia had kept Knox and Allison apart in high school by offering Allison a college scholarship. They had grown apart, but a visit to Shadow Creek and a one-night stand had left Allison pregnant with Cody. Allison had kept Cody a secret until Knox found out about him; then the boy had been kidnapped. Livia had been a prime suspect. Though it hadn’t been easy, Jade was glad her brother and Allison had worked things out and were now a family with Cody.

“I had no idea this house could still affect me,” Jade said.

“I didn’t even grow up here and the house affects me. I catch myself thinking about what went on here and I feel betrayed. Disgusted. Angry,” Allison said. “Pile on what she did to Cody and Knox. I hope the authorities find Livia first. Because if not, she’ll face me.”