Jay Kristoff - Darkdawn

Mia’s eyes narrowed. ‘My purpose was avenging my familia. It was killing Remus, Duomo, and Scaeva. And I’ve done that, after living neck-deep in blood and shit for eight fucking years. No thanks to your precious Mother.’

‘Mia …’ Ashlinn murmured.

‘The Red Church captured Mercurio, Tric. Maw knows what they want with him, but he’s in their hands. They probably know he helped me murder Scaeva. I have to—’

‘Mia ,’ Ashlinn said.

She turned to her lover, saw fear swimming in that beautiful blue.

‘What is it?’ Mia asked.

‘I have to tell you something,’ Ash said. ‘About Scaeva.’

‘So tell me?’

‘… You should sit down.’

‘Are you jesting?’ Mia scoffed. ‘Spit it out, Ashlinn.’

The Vaanian girl chewed her lip. Drew a deep and shivering breath.

‘He lives.’

Jonnen’s eyes grew wide, his little mouth hanging open. Mia felt her heart skip a beat, an awful dread turning her gut colder than the deadboy behind her.

‘What are you talking about?’ Mia hissed. ‘I put a gravebone blade right through his ribs. I cut his fucking heart in two!’

Ash shook her head. ‘He was a double, Mia. An actor, fleshcrafted by Weaver Marielle to look like Scaeva. The consul was in league with the Red Church, and they knew our plan to win the magni all along. They wanted you to kill Duomo. Scaeva’s going to use the cardinal’s public murder as an excuse to exercise permanent emergency powers, claim the title of imperator, become king of Itreya in all but name.’

Mia’s head was swimming. Heart racing. Skin filmed with icy sweat.

Could it be true?

Could he have seen her coming?

Could she have been so blind?

Her legs felt weak. Dizzy from exhaustion, loss of blood, Solis’s toxin still lingering in her veins. She glanced to Jonnen, saw the boy looking at her with triumph in his black eyes. She’d been so careful. So certain. She could remember the elation as her blade parted Scaeva’s chest, the maddening joy as his blood splashed across her chin and lips, warm and thick and lovely red.

‘O, Goddess …’

She blinked at Ashlinn, searching desperately for the lie, the ruse.

‘How do you know this?’

‘Scaeva told me. When they ambushed me in the chapel. And Mia … he told me something else besides.’ Ash swallowed thickly, her voice shaking. ‘But I don’t want to hurt you. I don’t want to give it voice, knowing what it will do to you.’

‘I thought it was finished …’ Mia could feel bitter tears brimming in her eyes. Too tired and hurt to push them back anymore. ‘Eight f-fucking years, and I … I actually let myself believe it was done.’

She sank to her knees on a sea of screaming faces, tempted just to start screaming along with them.

‘What could be worse than that?’

‘O, Goddess, forgive me …’

Ashlinn sank down on the stone beside her. Taking Mia’s hands in her own, she took a deep, trembling breath.

‘Mia …’

Ash shook her head, tears spilling down her cheeks.

‘Mia … he’s your father.’

Mia sat on a black shoreline, a war of three colours in her head.

The first was the red of blood. The red of rage. She felt it curl her hands to fists. Fill her to brimming, toe to crown. Spitting curses and fire and stomping about on those anguished stone faces. It was bliss to give in to it for a while, embracing the temper she was so notorious for. At least she knew where it came from now. Swimming in the air about her, the city above her, changing the architecture beneath her skin.

All her life.

The rage of a god laid low.

The second was cool steel grey. Suspicion, slipping into her belly like a knife, cold and hard. There was a moment where she prayed it was all a trick – manipulation from a man who’d always proved himself three steps ahead. But in her darkest depths, it all rang true. The way Scaeva had looked at her that turn in her mother’s apartments. That turn he’d stretched out his hand and taken her whole world away. The gleam in his eyes as he’d looked down at her and smiled, dark as bruises.

‘Would you like to know what keeps me warm at night, little one?’

And so fury killed suspicion. Drowned it beneath a scarlet flood.

But after suspicion’s cool grey had come sorrow. Black as storm clouds. Turning her curses to sobs and her fury to tears. She’d slumped down on that voiceless, howling shore and cried. Like a child. Like a fucking babe. Letting her grief, her horror, her anguish spill up out of her lips and down her cheeks until her eyes were red as blood and her throat aching and raw.

Darius Corvere. Justicus of the Luminatii. Leader of the Kingmaker Rebellion. The man who’d given her puzzles for Great Tithe gifts, who’d read her tales before bedtime, whose stubble had tickled her cheeks when he kissed her goodnight. The man who’d propped her little feet upon his own and whisked her about that shining ballroom.

‘I love you, Mia.’

‘I love you, too.’

‘Promise you’ll remember. No matter what comes.’

The man she’d adored, the man she’d grieved, the man she’d devoted the last eight years of her life to avenging. The man she’d called Father.

Nothing close.

Ashlinn sat behind her as she wept, gentle arms about her waist, forehead pressed cool and smooth against her back. Mister Kindly and Eclipse sat close by, watching silently. Jonnen looked at her with a newfound confusion glittering in those bottomless eyes. Black as crow’s feathers. Black as truedark.

Just like Scaeva’s.

Just like mine .

‘His wife can’t have children,’ Ashlinn murmured, her voice thick with grief. ‘Scaeva, I mean. I suppose that’s why he took Jonnen … afterwards …’

‘All good kings need sons,’ Mia whispered. ‘Daughters, not so much.’

‘I’m sorry, love.’ Ash took her hand, pressed Mia’s scabbed and bleeding knuckles to her lips. ‘Black Mother, I’m so sorry.’

Eclipse drifted closer, wrapping her translucent body around Mia’s waist and resting her head in the girl’s lap. Mister Kindly lay across her shoulders, entwined in her hair, tail curled protectively across her chest. Mia drew comfort from their smoky chill, the whisper-light feel of their bodies against hers, Ash’s arms around her. But her eyes were soon drawn back to that black pool before them, the copper stink of blood hanging heavy in the air. She looked down at her empty hands again, the passengers beside her, the shadow beneath her, darker than it had ever been.

The many were one.

And will be again?

She looked to the silent Hearthless boy standing before her. His black eyes were fixed on Ashlinn. On their fingers entwined. She remembered those eyes had been hazel once. That those fingers had touched her in places no one ever had.

His revelation still rang in her ears. The weight of the truth she’d sought all these years, now ill-fitting and crooked upon her shoulders. Part of her still found it impossible to believe – even with the memory of the truedark massacre singing in her head, the power and fury she’d wielded so effortlessly, shadows cutting like swords in her outstretched hands. She’d killed so many men, giving in to the rage that had sustained her through all the years and all the miles and all the sleepless nevernights.

It was creeping back into her now, slipping out towards her from that pool. Toxic. Narcotic. Smothering sorrow’s black beneath waves of familiar, comforting red.

If she was angry, she didn’t need to think.

If she was angry, she could simply act .