Helen Fields - Perfect Crime

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First published in Great Britain by HarperCollins Publishers 2019

Copyright © Helen Fields 2019

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Cover design © Sarah Whittaker 2019

Helen Fields asserts the moral right to be identified as the author of this work.

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This novel is entirely a work of fiction. The names, characters and incidents portrayed in it are the work of the author’s imagination. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, events or localities is entirely coincidental.

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Source ISBN: 9780008275204

Ebook Edition © April 2019 ISBN: 9780008275228

Version: 2019-06-20

For my mum, Christine May Fields.

Leading by example, inspiring through toil, loving with gestures, even when the words were hard to say.

Contents

Cover

Title Page

Copyright

Dedication

Chapter One: 20 February

Chapter Two: 3 March

Chapter Three: 3 March

Chapter Four: 4 March

Chapter Five: 4 March

Chapter Six: 4 March

Chapter Seven: 4 March

Chapter Eight: 4 March

Chapter Nine: Before

Chapter Ten: 5 March

Chapter Eleven: 5 March

Chapter Twelve: 5 March

Chapter Thirteen: 5 March

Chapter Fourteen: 6 March

Chapter Fifteen: 6 March

Chapter Sixteen: 8 March

Chapter Seventeen: 10 March

Chapter Eighteen: 10 March

Chapter Nineteen: 10 March

Chapter Twenty: 10 March

Chapter Twenty-One: 11 March

Chapter Twenty-Two: 11 March

Chapter Twenty-Three: 12 March

Chapter Twenty-Four: 13 March

Chapter Twenty-Five: 14 March

Chapter Twenty-Six: 15 March

Chapter Twenty-Seven: 15 March

Chapter Twenty-Eight: 15 March

Chapter Twenty-Nine: 15 March

Chapter Thirty: 16 March

Chapter Thirty-One: 17 March

Chapter Thirty-Two: 17 March

Chapter Thirty-Three: 17 March

Chapter Thirty-Four: 17 March

Chapter Thirty-Five: 17 March

Chapter Thirty-Six: 17 March

Chapter Thirty-Seven: 17 March

Chapter Thirty-Eight: 17 March

Chapter Thirty-Nine: 18 March

Chapter Forty: 18 March

Chapter Forty-One: 18 March

Chapter Forty-Two: 24 March

Chapter Forty-Three: 25 March

Acknowledgments

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About the Publisher

It seemed unlikely that there would be enough of his body intact to reuse after the fall, but in one final act of optimism, Stephen Berry left his organ donor card pinned beneath his mobile, keys and wallet at the side of the road. The impact of the fall, even onto water, would be devastating. He would suffer crushing injuries, probable brain damage, and if the force of his body hitting the water didn’t kill him, the temperature would take care of it in a matter of seconds.

He’d done his research. After tumbling from the Queensferry Crossing into the River Forth, the breath would be knocked from his body, the sudden chill would make him gasp and he’d take in lungfuls of water before he had time to resurface. Death, if not instantaneous, would certainly be fast. Nothing to be scared of, he told himself. Fear was only anticipatory. In the moment, his brain would serve him a huge dose of mental opiate. Should he survive the drop, he’d have no memory of it.

The most dramatic of graves, millions of tons of water rushed beneath him, daring him to join it. He only had a matter of a few minutes to get it done and the truth was that he should have begun climbing already. Having purchased special gloves and boots to allow him to scale the inverted anti-suicide fencing, there was no excuse for his ambivalence.

When he’d called the taxi to his home address, he’d been ready to get on with it. The poor cabbie had already done an eight-hour shift and was on his way home. Stephen had hated pointing the carving knife towards his own jugular and threatening to cut, thereby forcing the driver to pull the car over on the bridge – a strictly no-pedestrians zone – but had been unable to think of a less abusive plan. At least he hadn’t threatened the driver with it. He’d said sorry a dozen times before the driver had brought the vehicle to a halt, not that an apology would make up for the trauma of seeing a blade flashing in the rear-view mirror.

He climbed the easy vertical railings, then got a grip on the sharp layers of metal intended to ensure no one made it from one side to the other. It hurt a little, but he was in good shape. Better physically than mentally, that much was obvious. An hour a day at the gym meant he was well toned. A jog twice a week kept his cardio levels high. To look at him, you’d have no idea about the bipolar disorder he was suffering. It would all come out during the investigation into his death. His long flirtation with drugs designed to even out his moods. Periods when he’d gone off his medication against the advice of one doctor after another. Attempts at counselling that only made him feel weaker and more pathetic than his illness already did. Relationships that couldn’t withstand the bluster of his stormy nature. Jobs that hadn’t lasted as long as they should have when some days he simply couldn’t face the concept of shifting from his bed.

The coroner would assume he was in the middle of one of his downward episodes. There would be some regret that there was no more effective treatment available, or that he hadn’t felt able to reach out to a friend and ask for help. A small-type headline buried deep within a local newspaper would repeat that tired old truth that there wasn’t enough care in the community. While he’d decided against leaving a note to explain his death, he wished briefly that he could have dealt with that ridiculous fallacy. No amount of care could have prevented him from getting to where he was today. He’d felt his premature death tugging at him, like a chain around his waist, since he was fifteen years old. He’d spent the next sixteen years fighting it, but today he’d become the postscript in his own story.

The girlfriend from whom he’d tried so carefully to hide his disorder had finally figured out that he was a worthless piece of shit who’d drag her down for the rest of her life if she stayed with him. There had been a lengthy session of me-not-you bullshit, which he could have done without, followed by an excruciatingly long packing period. It wasn’t like in the films, where one of you simply monologued for a while then slammed a door and was mystically gone forever.

He and Rosa had been living together for a year and it was amazing how complex the structure of intertwined lives could get in twelve short months. Pots and pans, pictures, ornaments, books, extension cables, for fuck’s sake. They’d argued over who’d bought the extension cable by their bed. Not – ridiculously – over who’d spent the money on it, but out of fairness, trying to remember the event because she didn’t suddenly want to realise she’d taken something she had no right to. Bitch. Even at the fucking end she couldn’t set him free by being selfish and unjust. She was a good person. How annoying was that? She was such a good person that the fault, as ever, lay with him. His moods, his needs, his fractured, ruptured psyche.