Greta Gilbert - Forbidden To The Gladiator

‘You say nothing because you know that I speak truth,’ she spat. ‘You deliberately succumbed to the Satyr, though it was obvious that you were the better fighter.’

Cal grinned. ‘Did you hear that, Felix?’ he called. ‘She said I am the better fighter.’

‘Rubbish,’ replied Felix.

‘Your second opponent had expected to die,’ she continued. ‘I saw him begging you for a merciful death.’

‘And I damn well gave it to him,’ he grumbled.

He did not wish to think of the Syrian’s death. The man had been a farmer, not a fighter. He had been purchased by Brutus only weeks ago—a field hand who had been put up for sale as a punishment for attempting an escape. He had not been a bad man—not like most of the gladiators who came in and out of Ludus Brutus. Still, the governor had decreed his death and the governor had to be obeyed.

‘So you admit it?’ she pressed.

‘Admit what?’

‘That you deceived everyone.’

Why were Roman women so unrelenting? ‘I admit nothing.’

‘The only true fight was the first one,’ she observed. ‘You relieved the Ox of his head with little effort.’ She pushed her face between the bars. ‘You lie there acting as if you are proud of your deception. They call you Beast, but in truth you are a snake.’

Ha! If only he were a snake. Then he could slither through the bars of his cell and devour her whole. Surely that would shut her up.

Her scowl deepened and he waited in dull irritation for her next accusation. Would she remind him of the gladiator’s sacred oath, perhaps? Or would she explain the Roman code of honour and then recite it for him ad nauseum while she shook her little plebeian finger at his nose?

‘You defied the gods,’ she spat.

‘Which gods? Whose?’

‘You ruined my father.’

‘Your father ruined your father.’ This was almost as diverting as swordplay.

‘I know that you are famous,’ she said. ‘I have heard your name at the baths and seen it scrawled in graffiti. Why would you deliberately destroy your own reputation by rolling beneath the Satyr’s blade?’

‘And what of my reputation?’ Felix called cheerfully. ‘Have you also heard it spoken at the baths?’

‘And mine?’ called another gladiator from down the hall.

But the woman paid the other gladiators no mind. She seemed bent on making Cal alone suffer.

‘Do you think I care a wink for my reputation?’ Cal asked mildly, but her scowl remained fixed, as if she had not heard him.

Typical. In his experience, Roman women never heard what they did not wish to hear, never did what they did not wish to do and rarely saw beyond their own toes.

She was staring down at her own toes now, as if they alone could tell her everything she wished to know about what had happened that night. ‘By the gods, it was all theatre!’ she exclaimed at last. ‘All of it! You were told to kill the German spectacularly and that is what you did. And the Syrian knew he was going to die before he even set foot upon the sands. Those first two bouts were designed for you to win the crowd’s favour so that they would call for mercy when the time came. Your lanista knew it. The ringmaster knew it…’

She gazed up at the stone ceiling, thinking, and Cal observed the elegant length of her neck. ‘Even the governor knew it! And the gold-toothed merchant—he knew it, too. That is why he smiled when you had the Satyr at the tip of your blade. He already knew you were going to lose.’

Cal did not know whether to be impressed or furious. He settled for a smirk. ‘You are remarkably perceptive for one so naive,’ he said.

‘I am not naive.’

‘Your denial of your own naivety is itself naive.’

‘You speak in knots. I assure you that I am quite the opposite of naive.’

‘And what is that exactly?’

She paused, searching the air, and he observed the fine cut of her jaw. ‘ Un -naive.’

‘Your cleverness slays me.’

Her eyes narrowed. ‘You are clearly trying to distract from admitting to your deception.’

Her accusations were growing tedious. Fortunately, he knew how to shut her up. ‘And you are trying to distract from admitting that you wish to lie with me.’

The woman gasped. And there it was, that look of fascinated derision—though on her face it more closely resembled straightforward disgust. ‘That is absurd,’ she snapped, then added, ‘The very thought is an abhorrence.’

An abhorrence? Well, at least she was original. ‘I know you want me.’

‘I want nothing to do with you. You are a mon—’

She bit her lip.

‘A what?’

‘Nothing.’

‘I know what you are thinking.’ You think me a monster.

‘You cannot read my thoughts,’ she said.

‘I know you are Roman and that is all I need to know.’

‘You know nothing about me.’

‘Nothing about you?’ His mind churned. ‘Let me see. You illegally shoved your way into a house of men. Only an innocent would be so stupid. You either have no brothers to act on your behalf, or if you do have a brother, he is useless.’

A small cringe. A glance at the ground.

‘Ah, so you do have a useless brother,’ he continued gleefully, ‘and his very mention causes you pain. Probably returned from one of Domitian’s foolish campaigns? A drunkard, perhaps?’

Her pink lips pressed into a thin red line.

‘Your father, too, is useless, for he is the kind of man who must be followed by his own daughter to the pits. He has plunged your family into ruin, has he not? And you pity yourself mightily for it. Pah! You are fortunate he has not sold you into servitude.’

Her face turned an unnatural shade of grey.

Had her father sold her into servitude?

‘I curse you,’ she spat suddenly. ‘I curse you and this ludus and everyone in it, but you most of all.’

He spouted a laugh—a hearty, deep-throated laugh that nearly split his chest wound. He swung his legs to the side of his bed and stood, watching her take in the sight of him. He had not washed or changed out of his fighting kilt and the bloody paint on his chest had caked and crusted into what he imagined was some nightmarish rainbow.

She stepped backwards as he approached the bars. ‘I have never had the pleasure of being cursed by a Roman woman,’ he continued. He swept her body with his eyes. ‘I think I rather enjoy being cursed.’

‘Then I curse you a thousand times, Beast of Britannia. Whatever you long for, may it be as sand through your fingers. Whatever your dream, may it turn to dust.’

He had to grip his stomach so as not to howl. ‘Such poetry! But before you go on, I am afraid I must tell you that you cannot curse me, for I am already doomed.’

‘Doomed?’ She glanced around his cell, then scolded him with her gaze. ‘You are one of the finest gladiators in Rome. You are worth as much as twenty common slaves. Your bed is perched two cubits off the ground, by the gods! I will not hear about your supposed doom.’

‘You do not believe me?’

‘Why will you not admit to your wrongdoing? You wronged every single man in that crowd tonight. You wronged Rome.’

No, he had to stop her there.

‘ I wronged Rome? Rome that invaded my land and burned my fields?’ He let out a savage laugh. ‘Rome that raped my tribe’s women and sent its men off to the Quarry of Luna?’ He continued to laugh, though his wound had begun to throb. ‘Do you know what it is like in the Quarry of Luna? If you cut less than ten cubits a day you are whipped. Less than five and they remove a toe.’ He continued to laugh, feeling his wound begin to split. He could not seem to stop.