He fastened his flies and lifted his shirt, then opened the door and there she was. All eyes, lips and lily-white slender limbs.
‘Hello, there,’ he said, stretching his arms inside his shirt. ‘Everything OK?’
By the look on her face everything was not OK. Her eyes had widened to coal-black circles and her mouth was in a shocked red ‘O’ as she gawped at his chest. He stifled a smile as he turned to spare her blushes and started to button his shirt.
‘I’m so sorry to bother you,’ she said, tucking her eyes down, ‘but I was meant to give you this to wear.’ She held out a little parcel, kept her head turned away. ‘From your mum.’
He continued to fasten his buttons and stared at the little parcel.
‘Want to open it for me?’ he said, now walking to the table for his cufflinks.
Her eyes flicked up, then down, but not before she took a good long look. He couldn’t help but smile broadly. Game on.
She pulled open the package and held out a red bow tie and pocket square.
‘Is everything OK?’
‘What?’ she said. ‘Yes, of course everything is OK. I was just wondering why you bother with those things.’
He paused, his collar up, considering her carefully. That was not what he’d expected to hear.
‘Pardon?’
‘Cufflinks. What are they even for? Why not just use buttons? I don’t get it.’
‘Has anyone ever told you you’re quite forward?’ he said, clicking the cufflinks together.
‘I say what’s on my mind. I’m not trying to cause offence, but I’ve never seen anyone use them.’
He finished and tugged at his cuffs, checking that his sleeves were perfectly straight, watching her watching him carefully. He was warming to her more by the minute.
‘They make my cuffs sit nicely. I like the look. A beautiful shirt deserves beautiful cuffs. And, since you’re looking unconvinced by that answer, I’ll also add that these were a gift from an ex-girlfriend. After we split up.’
He turned them in the light and smiled.
‘I’m not all Mr Bad Guy, despite what you might have read in the press.’
‘Oh,’ she said. ‘Right...’ with a tone that was flat and disbelieving.
He raised an eyebrow and tied the bowtie in place.
Well, what did he expect? he thought, turning away to get his jacket while his mind ran to the stupid pictures his friends had texted him and those quotes about being emotionally stunted.
He hadn’t bothered to read them properly. Anyone who knew him well knew the truth. And anyone who knew him well knew that all his stunted emotions sat with Sophie. The only thing he was sure of in his life was that there would never be another Sophie...
They had been the Golden Couple all through university—she with her long blonde hair and he a rising star of the rugby scene. He’d never been happier. The whole world had been spread out before him. His degree in sports science, his imminent career as a rugby player, playing for his country... Would it be Italy or England? When would he ask Sophie to marry him? Where would they live?
Those were the kinds of decisions he’d faced. Until the night he’d got the news that his father had died. Like a great oak being ripped up from the roots, his strength, his confidence had been sapped. He’d felt the world crumble under his feet, felt himself spinning in space. He’d thought his father sure and solid and strong. He’d had all the answers. He’d been wise and clever and honourable and he’d loved his mother—and Claudio had been his best friend.
They had been almost inseparable—closer than brothers. The only thing that had ever came between his parents had been Claudio’s suffocating presence in their lives—until something had happened and everything had changed.
Matteo had once suspected that Claudio had made a move on his mother and his father had found out. It had to be something like that for the schism between them to have been so deep. How wrong he had been.
His father’s fight to save the family bank had been epic. He had worked tirelessly for weeks, but so much of it had gone. People with lots of money wanted lots more. Loyalty was too expensive. Especially when Claudio had offered a fast dividend and people had been too greedy to care how it was made.
But it had been his father’s death more than the losses to the company that had devastated Matteo’s life. His mother had been inconsolable—the thought of her anguish still made him wince with pain. He had gone to her side, nursed her and taken charge as he knew his father would have wanted. A stream of people from the banking world had arrived—all firm handshakes, sober suits and quiet conversations.
All of that he had lived through, knowing that it couldn’t get any worse. Knowing that Sophie was there for him.
And the knowledge of her warm, loving body had driven him one night to take a flight north to university, then a two-hour taxi ride from the airport to the cold, stormy coast of St Andrew’s, where he’d known she would be just about to wake up. Maybe he’d slip into bed beside her, feel the love in her arms and bury himself and his pain...
How many times must he relive those moments? The crunch of the gravel, the lightening shadows of the morning and the frosted cloud of his breath. The cold, metallic slide of his key in the lock, lamps still burning in the hallway, the TV on, glasses on the table.
Like an automaton he had turned to the sound of the shower.
And then had come the sight he wished he could burn from his eyes.
His beautiful Sophie, naked and wet, her legs wrapped around another man. And the other man had been the national rugby coach, come all the way to Scotland to ask him to play for his country.
Was he emotionally stunted? All day long. And for the rest of his life.
‘Most people don’t believe what they read. I never do, if it’s any consolation.’
His eyes tracked round, following the voice that had split through the sick daydream. Angel-faced Ruby, with those huge brown eyes and wide red lips was looking up at him with something that might be described as concern. How sweet. But if it was concern, it was wasted.
‘Please don’t worry about me,’ he said, fastening the last button on his jacket. ‘I’m a big boy. I can take what they dish up and swallow it whole.’
He winked. He smiled. He put one hand on her shoulder. Her delicate, silken-skinned shoulder. He stepped a little closer and watched as her eyes did that widening thing that women always did—usually just before he leaned in for his first kiss...
And wouldn’t a kiss be the perfect way to start his evening with Ruby? Those gorgeous lips, that ivory skin, her lustrous hair... Hadn’t he been tempted from the moment he’d seen her? Hadn’t she shown that she was tempted too?
This could turn into the perfect night after all.
Oh, yes , he thought, and the stirring and hardening in his groin were now very obviously happening. There was only one thing left to do.
‘But it must hurt your mother—reading that,’ she said, turning her head.
He paused in mid-air, correcting himself and exiting the move swiftly. He’d been rebuffed. Well, well, well...
‘What my mother feels is no concern of yours or anyone else’s,’ he heard himself say. ‘I wish people would leave well alone.’
Colour rose like a scarlet tide over her cheeks and he instantly regretted his sharp tone.
Damn, that had been too harsh. Ruby didn’t seem like the gossipy type. And she was only being kind. And, worst of all, she was right. He knew his mother had been hurt by the press, and he knew he had no one to blame for that but himself.
But why couldn’t people worry about their own lives instead of raking all over his?
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