Jo McNally - A Man You Can Trust

“Damn it!” Nick’s hand wrapped around her wrist and he dragged her to the grass along the dark edge of the lot. Then he propelled her even farther away from the cars, sending her stumbling. He was bent over, looking up at her with one eye tightly closed, like the Hunchback of Notre Dame. Rage burned in that one open eye. His voice was tightly controlled. Almost calm.

“Stay back. You inhaled some of your own pepper spray. Hell, Cassie...” He dropped to his knees, raising his hands to his face but not touching them to his skin. “Water...”

She dived back into her bag and pulled out a water bottle. She started to hand it to him, then realized he couldn’t see her. “Turn your face up toward me, Nick. I’ll pour the water.”

He tilted his head. “Just the left side...” She poured the water slowly over the side of his face, and he took a deep, ragged breath. She did the same, noticing her lungs didn’t feel like they were in spasms any more.

“What were you thinking, sneaking up on me like that? I thought you were kayaking.” He didn’t answer, just sat on the grass, his head between his knees, both eyes tightly closed. A low, steady groan was the only sound he made. She sat next to him. “I was only defending myself...”

Sun Tzu said it perfectly. Invincibility lies in defense.

His whole body went rigid and he raised his head, glaring at her with his right eye. The left side of his face and neck were bright red in the glow of the parking lot light, his left eye tightly closed.

“ Defending yourself? I could write an entire training manual on what not to do from your performance just now.” He closed his good eye and grimaced. “Damn, that hurts.”

Cassie was caught between sympathy and anger. Anger seemed easier. “A training manual, huh? Since you’re doubled over in pain right now, I’d say I did a pretty good job of rendering you harmless.”

Before she could blink, Nick’s hand snaked out and grabbed her wrist, yanking her almost onto his lap. His face was so close to hers that she could smell the pepper spray on his skin. She was too stunned to scream, but her heart felt like it was going to leap straight out of her chest.

“Do I look harmless to you right now, Cassie? If I’d been an attacker, you’d be dead, or worse. I could have forced you into your car and...” He growled to himself and released her with another curse, driving his fist into the ground at his side. “You did everything wrong. You let me get too close. You used the keys first when you should have used the spray. The keys-in-the-fingers trick only works when you’re in close hand-to-hand combat, which should be your last resort. You took so long getting the pepper spray that I would have had your purse away from you before you could reach it.”

Nick picked up the water bottle and poured what was left down the side of his face and neck. “You gave me time to turn away, so you didn’t completely incapacitate me. And then, instead of running when you had the chance, you stepped forward, right into your own cloud of pepper spray, and nearly incapacitated yourself .” He turned to focus his good eye on her. “So, yes. A whole training manual. On what not to do.”

Cassie stared at the dark ground, focused on bringing her pulse under control. Nick had been careful not to hurt her when he’d grabbed her, but he’d still frightened her. On purpose. She’d hate him for it if it weren’t for the truth of what he’d said. If he had been some random attacker—if he’d been Don —she would have been a victim. Again.

“Why are you armed with pepper spray? Did something happen to you?”

She didn’t look up.

“Yes. Something happened.”

“Here?”

She shook her head, her body trembling so badly she didn’t trust her voice. The only sound was his wheezing breath. He finally cleared his throat.

“Okay. Something happened. Somewhere.” His voice was gravelly from the pepper spray, but it was calmer than it had been a few minutes ago. “And you wanted to protect yourself. That’s smart. But you need to do it right . I’ll teach you.”

Her head snapped up. He was doing his best to look at her, even though his left eye was still closed.

“What are you talking about?”

“I’ll teach you self-defense, Cassie. The kind that actually works.”

“Are you talking karate or something? I thought the pepper spray...”

“It’s a tool, but you need more than that. If some guy’s amped up on drugs, he’ll just be temporarily blind and really ticked off.” He picked up the pepper spray canister from the grass at her side. “This stuff will spray up to ten feet away. You never should have let me get so close before using it.”

“I didn’t know that.”

“Exactly.” He grimaced and swore again. “I need to get home and dunk my face in a bowl full of ice water.” He stood and reached a hand down to help her up. She hesitated, then took it.

“Are you okay to drive, Nick? Do you want me to...”

“I’m fine. I’m only a couple miles from here, and I have one functioning eye. How about you?”

She was rattled to the core and definitely wouldn’t get any sleep tonight, but one of her favorite things about Nora’s place was that there were few places for anyone to hide in the wide-open loft. She always parked her car right next to the metal stairs that led to the back entrance. “I’m good. Don’t worry about me.”

Nick walked slowly to his Jeep, still cradling the side of his face with one hand. She felt bad that he was suffering, but she also felt a tiny spark of pride. Maybe she hadn’t fought back successfully, but she’d fought . That was something, right?

* * *

Nick went into the office for a few hours on Saturday morning, but there was no sign of Cassie. He should have been relieved, considering she about killed him with that damn pepper spray the night before. Instead, he felt a nudge of disappointment, and more than a nudge of concern.

Something happened.

One of the reasons he wasn’t a cop anymore was that he’d run out of patience with victims. He looked at Jada’s wedding photo on his shelf. No, that wasn’t completely true. He’d run out of patience with victims who didn’t help themselves. Who willingly allowed themselves to be victims. That’s why his partner was dead. If Beth Washington hadn’t gone back to her husband, Jada would still be alive.

But Cassie had armed herself with pepper spray and she hadn’t hesitated to use it. She’d used it badly , but she’d used it. It was a good thing she was so bad with the stuff—at least she’d blinded him in only one eye.

He slid his notes from his time with Brad into a manila folder and put it on the corner of his desk to review on Monday. Blake Randall would be back in the office, and Nick’s orientation period would come to an end. He looked forward to getting down to business. But first, he needed to finish unpacking and get himself settled in the small house he’d rented on Gallant Lake. He was getting sick of living out of cardboard boxes.

It was weird not seeing Cassie sitting at her desk when he left the office. He wondered if she’d take him up on his offer to teach her self-defense. She didn’t need to become a Krav Maga expert to protect herself. But she was so damn jumpy and twitchy about everything. She’d have to lose that spookiness to be effective at self-defense, which was all about outthinking the enemy. Nick frowned. He didn’t like the thought of the quiet brunette having enemies. Especially the kind who drove her to have such a quick trigger finger on a canister of pepper spray.

The heavy blue stapler sat on the corner of her desk, just begging to be hidden somewhere. Maybe he should leave her alone, especially with the boss coming back next week. But what was the fun in that? He set the stapler on the windowsill, tucking it behind the curtains that were pulled back to show the view of Gallant Lake and the surrounding mountains. Maybe he’d get out in the kayak tomorrow if the nice weather held.