Hammond Innes: Blue Ice

I must have been dead beat, for I fell asleep at once and the next thing I remember is Curtis shaking me. I sat up at once, listening to the sounds of the ship. We were canted over and moving fast through the water, cutting through a light sea with a crash and a splash as the bows bit into each wave. ‘When do we reach Leirvik?’ I asked.

He grinned. ‘We left Leirvik an hour ago,’ he said.

I cursed him for not waking me. ‘What about Sunde?’ I asked.

‘He made his call.’

‘Is he back on board?’

‘Yes. I saw to that. I went with him.’

‘You don’t know what place it was he rang?’

He shook his head. ‘No. He wouldn’t let me come into the call box with him.’

‘Has Dahler come round?’

‘Yes, he’s all right. Got a hangover, that’s all.’

I got up and went into the saloon. Dahler and Sunde were there facing each other over the remains of a rice pudding. And again I heard the name Max Bakke mentioned — this time by Sunde. His voice was nervous and pitched a shade high. He glanced round as I entered and I was aware of a sense of relief at my interruption.

‘Who is Max Bakke?’ I asked as I settled myself at the table.

Dahler rose to his feet. ‘A business acquaintance of Mr Sunde,’ he said quietly. And then to the diver: ‘We will talk of Max Bakke later.’ He turned to me. ‘Has the weather cleared yet, Mr Gansert?’

‘I don’t know,’ I said. ‘I haven’t been up top.’

He went out then and I was left alone with Sunde. ‘Who is Max Bakke?’ I asked again as I helped myself to bully beef.

‘Just somebody Mr Dahler and I know,’ he replied. Then with a muttered excuse he got up and hurried out of the saloon.

When I had finished my lunch, I went up on deck. It was raining. The ship was shrouded in a thick mist. The mountains on either side were a vague blur. The wind was abeam, coming in gusts as it struck down invisible gullies in the mountain sides. Dick was at the wheel, his black oilskins shining with water and little beads of moisture clinging to his eyebrows. Jill and Dahler were standing in the cockpit.

‘Had a good sleep?’ Jill asked. Her face was fresh and pink and wisps of fair hair escaped from below the peak of her black Norwegian sou’-wester. Her grey eyes smiled at me teasingly. She looked little more than a kid.

‘Fine, thanks,’ I answered. ‘Has it been raining all the time?’

‘All the time,’ she said.

‘It always rains in the entrance to the Sognefjord,’ Dahler said. ‘It is a very wet place.’ He glanced up at a leaden sky. ‘Soon it will be fine. You will see.’

He was quite right. By the time we were off Kvamsoy the sun was out. The wind changed and blew straight down the fjord. We took the sails in and started up the engine. The mountains had receded. They were higher and more massive. But they were not impressive. Deep snow capped their rounded tops, but thickly wooded slopes dropped gently to the quiet waters of the fjord. They basked in the sun, a symphony of bright green and glittering snow, and somehow I felt cheated. They should have been towering and black with precipitous cliffs falling sheer 4,000 feet to the water with the white lacing of giant falls cascading down their granite cliffs. This smiling land seemed much too kindly.

The wind died away. The surface of the fjord flattened out to a mirror. The ship steamed in the noonday warmth and, sitting at the wheel, I found I was hot even with nothing on but a short-sleeved shirt. Dick had turned in and Dahler had also gone below. The rest of the crew lay stretched out on the deck, sleeping in the sun. Jill came aft and sat beside me in the cockpit. She didn’t speak, but sat with her chin resting on one hand, gazing ahead towards a wide bend of the fjord. She was waiting for her first glimpse of the Jostedal.

I often think of that afternoon. It was the beginning of something new in my life. As I sat there at the wheel watching the bend of the fjord slowly open up ahead of us, I was conscious for the first time of someone else’s feelings. I knew what she was feeling, felt it as though it were myself. She was dressed in a deep scarlet jersey and green corduroy slacks and her fair hair stirred in the breeze, glinting in the sunlight like spun gold. Neither of us spoke. The only sound was the rhythmic beat of the engine and the gentle stirring of the water thrust aside by the bows.

Gradually the great headland on our port bow slid back, revealing more and more of the mountains to the north. And then suddenly we were clear of the enclosing mass and looking right up to Balestrand and Fjaerlandsfjord. It was a breath-takingly beautiful sight. The mountains rose in jagged peaks, tier on tier for miles inland, crag over-topping crag till they seemed tilted up into the blue bowl of the sky. The dark green of the pines covered the lower slopes and there was emerald in the valleys. But higher up, the vegetation vanished and sheer precipices of grey-brown rock piled up like bastions holding back the gleaming masses of the snow-fields.

‘Isn’t it lovely?’ Jill whispered. But I knew she wasn’t thinking about the wild beauty of the place. She was gazing for’ard across the bows to where the snow-field of the Jostedal glittered like a fairy carpet in the sun and remembering Farnell.

She didn’t speak for some time after that. She just sat there, thinking about him. I could feel her thoughts inside me and in some strange way they hurt. Her left hand was flung out along the edge of the cockpit. It was a slender, almost ivory hand, with slender wrist and little blue veins. It was very close to mine where it lay against the warm brown of the varnished mahogany. Without thinking — conscious only of the reflection of her emotion in me — I stretched out my hand to hers. The fingers were cool and smooth, and the instant I touched her I felt close to her — closer than I’d been to anyone before. I started to withdraw my hand. But her fingers closed suddenly on mine. And then she looked at me. Her grey eyes were wide and misty. She clung to my hand as though it were something she feared to lose. ‘Thank you, Bill,’ she said softly. ‘You’ve been a dear.’

‘He meant so much to you?’ I asked, and my voice came strangely to my lips.

She nodded. ‘So much,’ she said. Then she looked away to the mountains again. ‘So much — so long ago.’ She was silent for a moment, her hand still holding mine. ‘Six weeks,’ she whispered, as though to herself. ‘That’s all we had. Then he was gone.’

‘But you saw him later — after the war?’ I said ‘Yes. For a week. That was all.’ She turned to me. ‘Bill. What makes a man throw love away for — for something a woman can’t understand? You, for instance. Have you ever been in love?’

‘Many times,’ I answered.

‘But not really. Not so that it was more important than anything else?’

‘No,’ I said.

Her hand suddenly tightened on mine so that I could feel her nails biting into my palm. ‘Why?’ she cried softly. ‘Why? Tell me why? What was there more important?’

I didn’t know how to answer her. ‘Excitement,’ I said. ‘The excitement of living, of pitting one’s wits against everyone else.’

‘Meaning a wife is an encumbrance?’

I nodded. ‘For some men — yes.’

‘And George was one of them?’

‘Perhaps.’ I hesitated. How could I tell her what made a man like George Farnell love metals more than he loved himself. ‘Jill,’ I said, ‘Farnell was an artist. He knew more about metals than any man I know. And the driving force in his life was the belief that he could open up these mountains here and let them pour out their store of mineral treasure. To the average person he is a cheat, a swindler, an escaped convict, a deserter. But in his own mind that was all justified. It was the means to an end. His art was everything. And he staked his whole self on me belief that there was metal up here under the ice that you see now. If he hurt you in the process — well, that was no more than the hurt he had done himself.’