Dewey Lambdin - A King`s Commander

A spasm of grief perhaps, another tic of pain in his brows that quieted him for a moment, but Nelson's voice broke, and he was forced to massage his right temple and brow, as if to knead away whatever agony ailed him with those long, slim, delicate fingers that seemed so out of place on such a wee little fellow, so fond of hard-handed war.

"Oh, do forgive me for… for being a killjoy." Nelson frowned after he'd mastered himself. "For even broaching the subject, but… Fremantle and I just came from the local churchyard. A fellow officer, Commander Lewrie. You understand, I'm certain?"

"My condolences for your loss, sir," Lewrie gravely offered.

"A most gallant young man, sir," Nelson all but croaked. "One who'd have made a name for himself that would have been on everyone's lips, had he not… hmm. Lt. James Moutray, 'board Victory. A fine young fellow. Was to have been promoted, soon. His father, Captain Moutray and his mother… we were great friends, when I had Boreas at Antigua, 'tween the wars. He was Navy Commissioner at English Harbour, d'ye see. And I knew James, from a child. Just a wee lad, back then. It's as if I'd lost my own son, had I… as sorrowful a thing as if Fanny and I had lost our dear Josiah."

Fremantle made a tiny face, rolled his eyes in dubious humor, which expression of contempt Lewrie caught.

"Knew you were married, sir," Lewrie prompted, to pique his further curiosity. "But I didn't know you were a parent, as well. Might I offer you congratulations. Some cheer, that he's safe abed in England at this moment."

"Uhm…" Nelson was forced to confess, pulling at his long, thin nose. "Stepson, actually. My dearest Fanny and I met on Nevis, while I was in Boreas, as well. She'd been widowed, and… no, Josiah is with me, Lewrie. In Agamemnon. Brought him aboard as a midshipman. To keep a weather eye on his progress, hmm? To assure myself that there will be a successor in the Navy. Why, as I recall, Lewrie, you've sons of your own." Nelson brightened, of a sudden, as mercurial in his grief as he was in his enthusiasms. "Perhaps 'twas Lady Emma Hamilton, in Naples, who spoke of you, when I represented Admiral Lord Hood with King Ferdinand. I'm sure she was the one told me."

"Mmm, well, sir…" Lewrie almost winced. Phoebe turned a cool and amused gaze upon him. Though she already knew his marital status, and that he was a father, and didn't seem to mind… "My eldest, Sewallis, I rather doubt. Now, Hugh, the second son, o' course… had to fetch him down from the mizzen stays, just before we left Portsmouth."

"Ees devotion to ees family amaze me, Capitaine Nelson." Phoebe chuckled. The other shoe dropped, at last, and Nelson almost flushed as he realized their relationship. Phoebe also took pains to tap the side of her shoe against Lewrie's, under the table, and reward him in public with a cocked eyebrow and tiny smile, hiding her impish teasing for later, in private.

"Mmm, well…" Nelson summed up.

"At least the Moutrays may have some comfort, sir," Alan went on, trying to change the subject, and wiggle his way free. "That their son Lieutenant Moutray passed over in an honorable cause, fighting his King's foes."

"Ah, you see, though, Lewrie," Nelson said with a bitter sigh. "God knows why they allowed it, but… he was their only son and heir. And it wasn't honorable battle, no. 'Twas a fever, so please you! A bloody fever took him, just as… a horrid waste of talent, of promise."

Can I dig the grave any deeper, hey? Lewrie asked himself, feeling an urge to look heavenward, where, he was mortal-certain, God was having Himself a knee-slapping good time at Lewrie's expense.

" 'Absent Friends,' " Fremantle harrumphed, raising his glass in toast to bridge the embarrassment of the moment. Embarrassments, rather.

"Wrong day for it, but…" Fremantle shrugged. Absent Friends was the Sunday toast in the wardroom aboard a King's ship. Lewrie was of a mind, though, to believe that the morrow's-Thursday's-might be more apt; the one Lieutenant Moutray's fellows were probably most callously making at that very moment, now a rival for promotion or command had passed from their midst- A Bloody War, or a Sickly Season.

Thankfully, Alan was spared any further chances to embarrass himself by the arrival of their food. Bouillabaisse, aswim with clams and crabmeat, with mussels and a few puny oysters that might please Fremantle, and a host of tiny pink bits of cut-up shrimp peeking coyly from the rosy broth, "decks awash." A fresh wine course, the hard Mediterranean bread sticks, then an appetizer of golden-fried crab cakes, with a rйmoulade of horseradish, garlic, and a dash of olive oil. Lewrie tucked in, savoring every morsel, though Fremantle and Nelson seemed a bit put off. Nelson ate as if being merely polite. Fremantle muttered, scowled, and inspected every bite, as chary as a customer in some twopenny ordinary who knew a fellow who'd died after eating there. He almost sniffed each new arrival, casting his eyes about as if looking for a hound to try each dish out on first.

He'd have a rough go of it, Alan thought. The carte de menu had no roast beef, no smoking joint of mutton to offer. The choices were mostly fish, wild fowl, pigeon, or chicken, eked out from paltriness of portion with rice, pastas, and tomato gravies. Like the goat ragout he had ordered, at Phoebe's insistence, the arrival of which he was awaiting with a great deal of almost lustful anticipation. And some manner of glee. Just to see the look on Fremantle's phyz when he declared what it was he was eating!

Small pheasants or grouse appeared, and with them, a new course of wine. Squab, most like, Alan thought; how many Corsicans had powder or shot with which to hunt, these days. Squab, on a thin bed of rice, colorful with steamed vegetables and a brown sauce.

One of the waiters came to Nelson's right side to fetch off his near-empty glass of rhenish, and replace it with a fresh stem of some red wine. Just as Nelson reached for it, to drain the last of it down to "heeltaps." Their hands collided, the glass turned over, and went smash on the tiled floor.

"Frightfully sorry, tell him," Nelson snapped, now it was his turn to burn with embarrassment. Once more, he massaged his right brow as if to knead a devil out. And wince with more than mortification.

"Just have 'em corne under your lee from larboard, from now on," Fremantle attempted to jape. "There's your answer, Nelson."

"Perhaps that would be best, Fremantle," Nelson responded, essaying a matching light tone of voice. "My sight, do you see… still a bit impaired, sir… mademoiselle. Frogs smashed three guns complete to flinders while I was in the battery. Rock, sand… splinter of something. I had the misfortune to be within feet of a shell that burst. A temporary affliction, I do trust, yet… 'tis hard for me to discern much more than light from dark with this poor eye. Could not spot the fellow to my starboard side."

"Pray God that will be temporary, sir," Lewrie said. Should he lose his sight, Alan thought, surely he'd stand a good chance of being "beached," and lose his ship. No wonder he'd not made much heroic ado 'pon it! "Least said, soonest mended," went the old adage. The least-mentioned a commission-ending, career-ending wound, perhaps the soonest forgotten by their superiors!

"Surely, you saw someone…?" Lewrie wondered aloud.

"Oh, of course," Nelson assured him warmly, turning nigh jovial to disguise those very fears, "Doctor Harness, a physician… a surgeon Mister Jefferson. Certified me today, as a matter of fact. 'Sawbones' and 'potion pushers,' I tell you. 'Eye of newt and toe of frog,' that's about all they're good for… all their kind prescribe. I'm down to see Chambers, surgeon to forces in the entire Mediterranean, in a few days. I am most confident my veil will be lifted, as it were, and full vision restored, by then, or shortly after. A few days' rest…"