K. Robinson: Twisted Ties

“What the fuck?” she shouted.

I froze as I stared at the person I hated most in the entire world. We’d never been alone together since everything had happened.

“I can’t fucking believe this! I thought I was nuts when I kept seeing this car every night when I came home. What the hell are you doing here?”

“Looking for Jesse,” I said defiantly. I knew I was busted, so there was no point in trying to lie.

“You’re pathetic. Did you really come all this way to find him?”

“Did you?” I asked. “Because I think you did.”

“Maybe I did, but at least I’m not parked outside of his house every night like a fucking psycho.”

“So, he does live here,” I said excitedly.

She’d given me the information I needed. Now that I knew he was here, there was no way that I was leaving without talking to him. She would have to beat me unconscious to keep me away.

“He does, but he doesn’t want to see you. I think you’ve hurt him enough.”

“I did hurt him, but I won’t again.”

I started to open my door, but she slammed it shut.

“Let me out of the fucking car.”

“No. I won’t let you go in there and destroy everything I’ve worked for.”

“What? Are you together now?”

“We are.”

I felt like I’d been punched in the stomach. The moment I had seen Ally that day in the diner, I’d suspected something like this had happened. I wasn’t going to leave until I had the chance to talk to Jesse though. Maybe if he knew I was here, he’d leave her and come back to me.

“We’ll see if you are after I talk to him,” I said as I tried to open my door again.

Ally refused to budge.

“Move.”

“Not until you listen to what I have to say.”

“Then, spit it out, so I can go talk to him.”

“I’m pregnant!” she blurted out.

My mouth dropped open, and then I froze. “There’s no way. You’re lying.”

“I’m not. It was an accident, but there’s nothing Jesse or I can do about it. I have his baby growing inside of me.”

Forget being punched in the stomach. I’m going to vomit. This couldn’t be happening. There was no way that he could have slept with her after what she had done to us. She’d destroyed us, and she’d destroyed his friendship with Andy in the process.

“Do you really want to go in there and take my baby’s father from her? Because that’s what will happen if you do. Jesse will leave me for you, and I’ll be left alone to take care of this baby. You’ll destroy my child’s life.”

I couldn’t believe this was happening. How could Jesse have been so stupid? And how could I have been so stupid that I’d held out hope for a boy two years after he disappeared from my life? I was doing nothing more than chasing a high school crush while assuming it was true love.

I thought about the way I’d been raised. If I were to go to Jesse and he left Ally, I would be putting his child in the same situation I had been in. Ally was a spiteful bitch, and I knew she would never let Jesse see his child if he’d left her. His son or daughter would be forced to live with a manipulative bitch while his or her dad wasn’t around. I hated Ally, but I couldn’t do that to her child. It was innocent despite the circumstances surrounding his or her parents.

“This can’t be happening,” I whispered.

“It is happening. Look at my stomach.”

She pulled her shirt tight and turned sideways to show me the beginning of a baby bump. Bile rose in my throat, but I forced myself not to vomit. I wouldn’t give her the satisfaction.

“I guess it is,” I mumbled.

“I won, and you lost. It’s time for you to accept that and go back to California where you belong,” she said with a triumphant grin.

I wanted to get out of my car and smack that grin right off her face. I wanted to so badly that my hand was on the door handle before I even realized what I was doing. I couldn’t believe that I was about to hit a pregnant woman. Dear God, I’ve lost my mind. I needed to get out of here and fast if I wanted to leave with my sanity intact.

“Move out of my way,” I said as I started my car.

“Leaving so soon?” she asked sweetly.

“Get the fuck out of my way, or I swear to God, I’ll make you move, pregnant or not.”

She laughed as I put my car in drive, and then I tore out of my parking spot.

I knew Andy had to work tonight, but I hoped he was at home by now. There was no way that I could go back to my dorm room and sit alone while all of this was going through my head. I was hanging on to my sanity by a thread, and I knew that if I was by myself while dealing with this, I’d lose it.

I nearly cried in relief when I pulled into his apartment complex parking lot, and I saw his car sitting there. I didn’t have to be alone. He would help me. I ran across the lot, and in too much of a hurry to use the elevator, I sprinted up the stairs to his floor.

Tears were streaming down my cheeks as I beat on his door. I prayed that he hadn’t fallen asleep yet. I had a key to his apartment, but I hated to use it this late at night. I didn’t want him to think someone was trying to break in.

The door opened, and Andy was standing there. He took one look at me and pulled me into his arms.

“Emma, what’s wrong?” he asked.

I was crying too hard to speak, so I shook my head.

“Who’s that?” an unfamiliar female voice asked.

I hadn’t even thought about the possibility of him having someone over. I looked over his shoulder to see a pretty red head standing behind him. From the fact that she was wearing his shirt, it was obvious that she planned to stay the night with him.

“This is Emma,” Andy told her.

“Who is she? Is she going to be okay?” the woman asked as she looked at me warily.

Obviously, that my tears were making her uncomfortable.

“She’s…she’s my family. I hate to cut our evening short, but you need to go,” Andy said as he walked me over to the couch and pushed me down onto the cushions.

“It’s fine. You’ll call me?” she asked as she grabbed her pants off the floor and threw them on.

“I will.”

Not bothering to take off his shirt, she picked up her purse and walked out the door.

“I’m sorry.” I hiccuped. “I didn’t mean to ruin your night.”

“It’s cool. She was just a hook-up anyway. What’s wrong?”

I couldn’t look at him. I was ashamed that I’d held out so much hope for Jesse and me. I’d gone as far as moving clear across the country just to find him so that we could be together—and I’d dragged Andy along with me.

“Emma, come on, talk to me. Something obviously happened tonight.”

I took deep breaths as I tried to calm myself down enough to talk so that he could understand what I was saying.

“I don’t even know where to start.”

“Start from the beginning.”

“I was waiting outside of Ally’s house again. I must have fallen asleep because the next thing I knew, someone was tapping on my window.”

“Shit, Emma. I told you to stop going over there so much. Who was it?”

“Ally.”

He muttered a string of curse words as he looked me over. “What happened? Did she hurt you?”

I shook my head. “No, I didn’t even make it out of my car. One good thing is the fact that I found out Jesse is living at the same house as her.”

“Was he home?”

“I think so. I never got out to check.”

He looked confused. “Why not?”

I stared at him as tears filled my eyes again. “I think congrats are in order. You’re going to be an uncle.”

“What are you talking—” His eyes widened. “No. There’s no way.”