Joanna Trollope: Sense & Sensibility

Marianne was in a chair by the sitting-room window with her laptop balanced on her knee. ‘I’m not,’ she said, without looking up. ‘I’m checking courses.’

‘Oh, good,’ Belle said. ‘Not—’ She stopped.

‘Not checking Facebook to see what Wills is up to, you mean?’

‘Well, I—’

‘Ma,’ Marianne said, ‘I think I am pretty well over John Willoughby.’

‘Really, darling? Really?’

Marianne raised her head to look at her mother. ‘I’m over him enough to see I had quite a lucky escape, and that just fancying someone isn’t enough, especially if you can’t trust them or respect them. I can’t say I don’t still fancy him a bit, if I’m completely honest, but I do see that he was bad for me, and bad to me, and made me far more miserable than he ever made me happy. So I’ve come a long way, Ma, don’t you think? And don’t start crying. Don’t. Just tell me something nice – like what plans have you been making?’

‘Darling, I never—’

‘Yes, you do, all the time. You’re always planning something. What have you got in your little Ma mind now?’

Belle said, sniffing slightly but with an elaborate air of casualness, ‘I thought we could ask some people to stay.’

‘Like?’

‘Well …’

‘Not like Fanny and John, please, Ma.’

‘No,’ Belle said. ‘Certainly not Fanny and John. More like – Bill, actually.’

‘Bill,’ Marianne echoed, without emphasis.

‘He’d be a lovely guest.’

‘He usually stays at the Park, Ma.’

‘He’s been so sweet, ringing to ask how you are. He was horrified when you came out of hospital, you were so pale and drawn. It was pitiful to see.’

Marianne looked up, smiling. ‘Who was, Ma? Me or him?’

Belle took no notice. ‘Well, I’ve asked him to come and stay, and he hasn’t said he won’t.’

Marianne went on smiling. ‘Good,’ she said.

‘Will you be nice to him, darling?’

‘Of course. As long as you don’t watch us.’

‘Darling! Would I?’

‘Yes,’ Marianne said. She looked back at her screen.

Belle went on staring down the valley. Then she said, ‘That could , of course, be his car.’

Marianne refused to look up. ‘What a surprise.’

‘I thought he drove a Range Rover.’

‘He does,’ Marianne said.

‘Well,’ Belle said, peering, ‘this car coming isn’t a Range Rover, but it’s quite big, bigger than—’

‘Ma,’ Marianne said, ‘I think you knew he was coming all along. He can sleep in Ellie’s room and she can move in with me.’

‘It isn’t a Range Rover,’ Belle said. ‘It’s quite big and dark, one of those four-wheel-drive things.’

‘Maybe it isn’t coming here. Or it’s one of Jonno’s estate people, a surveyor or something.’

‘It is coming here,’ Belle said. ‘It’s coming up the hill, quite fast. It won’t be a woman driving; women don’t drive like that – have you noticed? – they don’t sort of gun the engine.’

Marianne put her laptop on the floor and rose to stand by her mother, peering too. After a few moments she gave a little gasp.

‘Ma!’

‘What, darling?’

‘I – I think it’s Edward!’

‘It can’t be …’

‘I think it is. It’s his hair. And the way he’s sitting. He’s – he’s coming here!’

‘Ellie’s not back from work!’

Marianne drew a huge breath and stared down the valley again.

‘Ed,’ she said, almost to herself. ‘Ed. How dare he?’

Edward Ferrars pulled up in front of the cottage and got slowly out of the car. He looked terrible, thinner than ever and as pale as if he’d been under a stone for a month.

Belle said at once, ‘I must go and greet him. Poor boy.’

Marianne tried to clutch her.

‘Ma, don’t—’

But Belle had gone, running out of the room, out of the front door. Marianne saw her go up to Ed and put her hands on his upper arms and look up at him. She was probably, being Ma, saying something sweet, something welcoming. He just stood there and stared down at her, looking wretched. Had he, in a typical, clumsy, good-hearted, wrong-footed Ed way, come to say sorry? If he had, what the hell good would he think it would do, with a ring firmly on Lucy’s finger and Elinor’s heart in pieces on the floor? What was he doing there, what was he thinking, if indeed he was thinking anything at all, having made such a massive mess of so many lives?

A flash of colour caught her eye. Down the valley below the cottage, making its lurid way across the park, was Elinor’s car. Elinor and Margaret were on their way back, would be up the hill and at the cottage within minutes.

Marianne hurried out on to the drive. Ed was still standing gazing distractedly down at Belle, who was saying, in a way that made Marianne briefly despair, ‘Of course we hope you’ll be happy, Ed, of course we don’t wish you anything but a happy future—’

Marianne shouted, ‘Elinor’s coming!’

Ed’s head jerked up. He said, almost gasping, ‘She’s who I came to see.’

Marianne looked at him, unsmiling. She said grimly, ‘I bet you did.’

‘No, I—’

Belle gave him a little pat. ‘I’m sure she won’t be cross with you.’

‘And I’m sure’, Marianne said, ‘that she should be.’

The orange car was climbing up the hill.

‘Just listen to that poor old engine!’ Belle said with determined gaiety.

‘Shush,’ Marianne said. ‘I vote we none of us say anything till Ellie gets here.’

‘But, darling …’

Marianne folded her arms and stared down the hill. Ed glanced at her, stepped away from Belle and looked at his feet. Belle retreated a step or two and put her hands in her trouser pockets. Slowly, unevenly, the orange car toiled up the hill and crunched to a halt beside Ed’s car. Immediately, the passenger door opened and Margaret climbed out, scattering her possessions. She glared at Ed.

‘Where’s the Sierra?’ she demanded.

‘I – I haven’t got it any more.’

‘New car?’ Margaret said. ‘New wife?’

‘No,’ he said distractedly. ‘No. I – The car’s Bill’s. Bill lent me the car. It’s a Delaford car.’

Elinor had emerged slowly from her side of the car, and now stood with one foot still inside it, looking at Ed across its roof. She said, wonderingly, ‘Ed?’

‘Yes.’

‘What – what are you doing here?’

He shifted a little on the gravel. He said unhappily, ‘All this stupid Twitter stuff …’

‘What of it?’

‘I came …’

‘Yes?’

He took a step forward, and then another, and then, in a stumbling rush, got as far as the orange car and leaned on the roof, stretching out towards Elinor. He said, almost shouting, ‘Ellie, it isn’t me who got married!’

Elinor gave a little cry. She put a hand over her mouth.

‘ What? ’ Margaret said.

Edward said, ‘I was worried you’d think from Lucy’s tweets that it was me she’d married. It’s not me. It – it was Robert.’

Elinor’s face was as white as paper. She whispered, ‘But I thought Robert was – is …’

‘He is,’ Ed said. ‘He wanted a beard, or whatever you call it, for some reason. No, not for some reason. Because – because, oh, I’ll tell you. Another time. And Lucy doesn’t care. Lucy wanted money. They just did it, on impulse, like – like celebrity kids do. For a sort of laugh.’

‘Oh, Ed …’

He put his foot on the sill of the passenger door and stepped up, so that he could almost touch Elinor across the car roof.

He said, ‘I’m so relieved. I was in such a state in case you thought—’