Mary Balogh: A Secret Affair

“Hannah,” he said.

“Yes.”

He was still standing just inside the door. He strode toward her, and she held out her right hand. He took it in both his own and raised it to his lips.

“I do love you,” he said. “In capital letters and in every other way I can think of. And in every way I cannot think of for that matter.”

He heard her inhale slowly.

It was time. And he was no longer nervous. He dropped to one knee, her hand still in his. His face was on a level with her own. The color was high in her cheeks, he could see. Her lips were slightly parted. Her eyes were still luminous and very blue-like the sky beyond the window.

“Hannah,” he said, “will you marry me?”

He had been rehearsing a speech for three long days. He could not remember a word of it.

“Yes,” she said.

He had been convinced that she would tease him, that she would play the part of Duchess of Dunbarton at least for a while before capitulating -if she capitulated at all. He had been so convinced, in fact, that he almost missed her response.

With his ears he almost missed it.

But with his heart?

“Yes,” she had said, and there really was nothing else to say.

They gazed at each other, and he raised her hand to press against his lips again.

“He used to tell me about it,” she said. “About love. And he used to promise me that I would know it for myself one day. I trusted him and believed him for every moment of my life from our first meeting to his final breath, Constantine, but I did not fully believe him in that. I believed that he had loved an extraordinary love for more than fifty years. But I was afraid to believe I ever would. I was wrong to fear, and he was right to be confident for me. I love you .”

“And will for more than fifty years?” he said.

“He used to say it was for eternity,” she said. “I believe him.”

He smiled at her, and she smiled back until he moved his head closer to hers and kissed her.

It had been almost three weeks since they had last made love, and it had seemed to him that he had been hungry for her every moment of every intervening day. Nevertheless, it was not with sexual hunger that they kissed. It was with…

Well, he had only ever kissed with sexual appetite and did not have words for this.

Affection? Far too tame.

Love?

A much overused word.

But whatever it was, they kissed with it.

And then, as their arms closed about each other and he lifted her from the sill and got to his feet with her so that he could turn and sit on the window seat with her on his lap, he knew the word. Or the best one available, anyway.

They kissed with joy .

And then they smiled into each other’s eyes as though they were the ones who had discovered it. Joy, that was. Love ever after.

“Are you quite sure,” he asked her, “that you are willing to sacrifice your title simply for the pleasure of marrying me, Duchess?”

“To be simply Mrs. Huxtable?” she said. “At least you will have to call me Hannah all the time, and I like that.”

“Or Countess,” he said.

She looked blankly at him.

“That would be a little absurd,” she said.

“Not really,” he told her. “The king sent two royal proclamations after your visit to him, you know. Or perhaps you do not know. The one was Jess’s pardon.”

She sat upright on his lap when he did not continue and frowned down at him.

“And the other?” she asked.

“You have just agreed to marry Constantine Huxtable, first Earl of Ainsley,” he said. “The title was awarded for extraordinary service to the poorest and dearest of His Majesty’s loyal subjects. I believe I have quoted him more or less accurately.”

Her jaw dropped.

And then she threw back her head and laughed.

The new Earl of Ainsley laughed with her.

THE EARL AND COUNTESS of Merton were hosting a ball at Merton House the following evening on the occasion of the anniversary of their betrothal ball there the year before.

They had invited family members to dine with them before the ball-Stephen’s three sisters and their spouses, and Cassandra’s brother, Sir Wesley Young, and his fiancee, Miss Julia Winsmore. They had also invited Constantine since he was Stephen’s cousin. And the Duchess of Dunbarton, who was no relative at all.

“I really hoped,” Cassandra said as she and Stephen awaited the arrival of their dinner guests in the drawing room, “that by today it would not seem at all odd that we have invited her, Stephen. Con has been back in London for the better part of a week, and Hannah has been here since we brought her with us from Copeland. And she is the one who persuaded Elliott to go to Ainsley Park and then talked to the king himself. She saved the day almost singlehanded. But nothing has happened yet. Will this dinner be an embarrassment, do you think?”

“Why should it?” he asked. “The duchess has become your friend, and it is perfectly acceptable to invite one’s friend to dine. We intend to announce Con’s new title at the ball tonight, and she was definitely instrumental in bringing that about. She will surely realize that Con is to be one of our dinner guests and will simply stay away if coming will be embarrassing for her. I do not believe the duchess embarrasses easily, however.”

“That scene in the park,” she said. “Meg described it so amusingly and Kate so romantically. And everyone has talked about it ad nauseam ever since. And yet-nothing has happened.”

“We don’t know that,” he said. “Nothing has been announced . We do not know that nothing has happened . They are entitled to some privacy in their own affairs, Cass.”

She sighed.

“We were all so horrified,” she said, “when Con began his affair with her. Not that we were supposed to know about it, of course. Such affairs are always supposed to be secret. She seemed so unsuitable for him. So…”

“Arrogant?” he suggested.

She frowned.

“Well, she did,” she said. “But people are not always what they seem to be, are they? I ought to know that better than most. Perhaps she has always been… well, someone warm and full of fun, someone I very much want as a friend. Someone good. Why are she and Con not affianced?”

Stephen stepped up close to her and kissed her on the mouth.

“Perhaps,” he said, “you can ask each of them as soon as they arrive. Perhaps you can make it a topic of conversation at the dinner table. I am sure my sisters will have something to say on the matter. They seem to have taken the duchess to their collective bosom, just as you have. Even Nessie.”

She laughed and punched him lightly on the arm.

“It would be a lovely opening line,” she said, “as soon as each walks in- why are you not betrothed? I am not a matchmaker, Stephen, but Con is such a lonely man, and Hannah is a lonely woman.”

“And therefore,” he said, “they must belong together.”

“Therefore nothing,” she said tartly. “They do belong together. Anyone who was at Copeland with the two of them would have had to be both blind and stupid not to see it.”

They were saved from further conversation on the subject by the arrival of Vanessa and Elliott and Wesley and Julia almost simultaneously, and then by the appearance of Katherine and Jasper and Margaret and Duncan soon after.

“Is Con coming?” Elliott asked while they were all sipping their drinks.

“He said he was,” Stephen said.

“And Hannah?” Margaret asked.

And they were at it again.

“Mama says they have no choice but to marry,” Julia Winsmore said, “after the way he kissed her in the park. I saw it with my own eyes. It was really quite shocking.”