Julie Garwood: The Wedding

"We weren't thrown out. We were just encouraged to go back to our rooms."

"What about dear Father Sinclair? He can't pay attention to his daily vespers, thanks to you. Why won't you listen to us? You told me you love your husband."

"Don't you understand? He made his choice when he left me. He doesn't want me or my love. He never did. She's part of his past, and he's never going to let go of what happened. No, I can't go back. It would hurt too much."

The need to blow her nose ended her protests. Faith still didn't understand. "You never used to cry. If loving someone makes a woman miserable, I swear I'm never going to fall in love. I wish I never had to get married either. For the love of God, will you stop crying? Perhaps if you went back and tried once more… If you told him how you feel…"

"He knows how I feel even though I didn't give him my declaration. He's intelligent, Faith. And so am I," she added. "I know when I'm not wanted. I can't talk about this anymore."

"What if he comes for you?"

She shook her head. "He won't."

"But what if he does?"

She let out a sigh. "I would think his pride forced him to come here. I wouldn't go back with him. Can't we talk about something else?"

Faith ignored her suggestion. "Gillian might not let you come back with us. Then what will you do? Stay in the abbey for the rest of your life, making these poor monks miserable?"

"My brother won't deny me. Did I tell you Connor doesn't even know how many brothers and sisters I have?"

"Yes, you've mentioned that fact to me about a hundred times now. You want children, don't you? If you go back…"

"I do want children, but I'm not about to leave them with Connor."

"Now what are you talking about? Go back to him, Brenna. Please, before it's too late. He's your husband."

"Must you nag me?"

Faith decided she had pressed enough for the moment. "Perhaps some fresh air will make you feel better. Let's go outside and stroll about the gardens."

"If we stray from the path, we aren't on sacred ground anymore."

"I don't understand."

"The path in front of the abbey. There's a wooden cross where it ends on the south side and another on the north side. If we step off the path, we aren't safe. I think we should just stay here. Besides, Gillian should be here any time now if Father Sinclair's estimation was right."

"If you insist on hiding here, then we'll hide. At least pull the fur coverings off the windows so the sun can come inside. It's like a tomb in here." Faith didn't wait for her sister to agree or disagree with her. She ran to the window, unhooked the cotton loops, and pulled the thick fur down.

Closing her eyes against the bright sun, she reached behind her head and lifted her hair away from the nape of her neck. "The breeze feels wonderful," she whispered, her face aglow with pleasure. She stayed silhouetted against the light until her arms began to ache. And then she looked out at the landscape.

"Oh… my… God… they're… they're… huge."

"Is something wrong?" Brenna asked.

Mesmerized by the sight before her, Faith couldn't even manage a nod. At the northern end of the abbey were giants for as far as the eye could see. Faith guessed at least forty men rode with the fierce-looking warrior who had separated himself from the others and had ridden closer to the path. Every one of the men was bare-kneed and would have been bare-chested as well if it weren't for the wide strip of material that was pulled up from one side of his waist and draped over his opposite shoulder. Some of them were scarred; others were not. All of them were in dire need of a good scrubbing, haircuts, and decent clothes.

Saints above, they were savages.

Faith whirled around. "You can't possibly go back. Thank heavens you came to your senses. No, no, you can't go back to your husband. You should live with Gillian. He'll be happy to have you. He loves you dearly. Why didn't you tell me they were… they were… Oh, Brenna, how did you ever manage to stay alive all this while?"

"What are you rambling about?"

Worried she might come to the window and see who was outside, Faith frantically shook her head. Her sister had had enough upsets to last her a lifetime. The proof was there for anyone to see. She had a scar on her forehead, and another on her arm.

In her haste to make amends because she hadn't had any idea what Brenna had been up against, she stammered out her apology. "I'm so sorry. I didn't know… until I saw them, I didn't know. No, it's out of the question."

"What's out of the question?" Brenna asked. She stood up to join her sister at the window.

Faith ran over to her and shoved her back down on the cot. Then she raced to the door and threw the lock into place.

"It's out of the question to… to go outside. Yes, it's out of the question. My, but it's gotten chilly in here. I believe I'll put the fur back up."

She went back to the window and peeked out, hoping she had only imagined the savages were there. No, they were there all right, looking just as frightening as before.

Her hands shook while she tried to rehook the loops. "Brenna, tell me what your husband looks like."

"Why?"

"I'm curious, that's all," she answered. She stared at the leader and tried to finish rehanging the fur at the same time. He really was scary.

"He's handsome."

"You're jesting."

"No, I'm not. He is handsome."

"But what exactly does he look like? Describe him for me."

"Dark hair and eyes, a straight nose. He's tall, and very strong. Does that satisfy you?"

"Long hair?"

"All the MacAlister men have long hair. What are you looking at?"

"Father Sinclair," she answered, which wasn't a lie, because the priest was running down the path toward the warrior in front of the other savages. Father should have been running the other way, shouldn't he? Surely he noticed they were all armed for battle.

Brenna went to the water basin to wash her face and hands. "If Father's outside, it's safe for us to go out. He won't let you wander off the path."

"Was it safe for the two of you to come here without an escort?"

"No, but it was necessary. It isn't now. Besides, I was dressed as a monk, and all the Highlanders respect men of the cloth. None would harm them. Right now, however, you are the one I'm concerned about. Once you make up your mind to do something, you do it, no matter what the risk, and if you decide to pick flowers up on the hill, I know Father won't let you."

"You taught me how to take a risk," Faith protested. "Oh, dear, the fur just fell out the window."

Leaning out, she watched the covering drop down with a shush to land on the stone path just a step away from the priest. Startled by the near miss, Sinclair glanced up at the window.

"I'm so sorry, Father. It slipped," she called out before she jumped back so he wouldn't lecture her in front of the savages. Besides, she knew she was going to laugh, and she really didn't want to hurt the priest's feelings.

He heard her, of course, and so did the MacAlisters. Everyone but Quinlan pretended not to notice. He grinned with obvious approval.

Curious, Crispin turned to him. "You find her amusing?"

"I find her enchanting."

Crispin shook his head to let his friend know he thought he was demented. Quinlan nodded, and then declared his intention, "I mean to have her."

"She'll run from you."

"I hope so. It wouldn't be any fun if she didn't. She's bonny, isn't she?"

"Marriage?"

"Eventually."

Connor suddenly raised his hand. His friends thought he wanted them to be silent so that he could hear what the priest was telling him. Then their laird gave the signal to let them know the enemy was near. He simply put his hand on the hilt of his sword. Englishmen were approaching.