J Croft - A Little Whimsical in His Civilities

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I am not a savage. I must not wring Sir William’s neck. I am supposed to be putting my best foot forward. I must not put my best foot up Sir William’s … never mind. I thank him for his kind consideration but decline the offer. What is a rousing game of cards compared to having the privilege of watching Elizabeth dance with a prancing profusion of pribbling, pox-marked pignuts?

Yes, I am being severe on her partners; yes, I am growing increasingly testy; and, yes, I fear I am also in danger of reverting to the same unacceptable behaviour exhibited last time I was in this reeking, roughhewn room. I take a deep breath, hold it, count to ten, slowly exhale, and remind myself to calm down and relax … and smile, dammit, even if it kills me… or, what’s worse, causes facial muscle fatigue.

I shrug my shoulders, rub the back of my neck, and try to exude good humour. My manners must not give a disgust. I am neither above this company nor above being pleased. Agreeable countenance in place, I fixate on a certain raven-haired, brown-eyed beauty in a fetching blue frock as she dances with yet another bootless, boil-brained boar-pig. Said gown has a rather daring decolletage, and that pleasing part of her figure has my undivided attention as she lightly skips around her partner.

“I can guess the subject of your reverie.”

Please, God. Be merciful. Tell me the voice behind does not belong to Mr. Bennet. I turn around; and it is, of course , Elizabeth’s father. I swallow audibly and reply in an unusually high-pitched voice, “I should imagine not, sir.”

“Perhaps you would care to inspect them more closely. We are quite proud to have such a fine pair on display here.”

I trust my explicit oath was only mentally expressed; but the traitorous flush flooding my face must be a glaring testimony of guilt. What is the man about? I will neither be toyed with nor taken to task here in the midst of a country assembly.

I tug at my cravat and say, “I beg your pardon, sir?”

“I believe you have been agreeably engaged in meditating on the very great pleasure of staring at a pair of fine …”

“Mr. Bennet, I must protest, sir!”

The man’s glance is one of perplexity. “ … landscapes, handsomely framed, and displayed upon our humble assembly room wall. I would appreciate hearing your learned opinion of our recently acquired paintings.”

I pick up my long-lost heart from my shoes and my jaw from the floor. I follow the man’s line of vision, finally notice a couple large Constables hung upon the far wall, and pretend the paintings have left me speechless. John Constable’s artwork may be capable of inspiring in-depth and protracted reflection, but my interest is feigned. Mr. Bennet shakes his head at my affectation and walks away.

Dear Lord, could this night be any more frustrating? Oh. One should never tempt fate.

Part II Of II

The set has finally ended, and the boar-pig is escorting Elizabeth to the tea room. I make haste in the same direction; but, alas, by the time I arrive, a gaggle of ladies has crowded around. Her sisters and friends are forming so close a confederacy that there is not a single vacancy near her which could admit another body. As I approach, one of the girls moves even closer to Elizabeth; and I hear the peagoose say, “The men shan’t come and part us, I am determined. We want none of them, do we?”

A girlish voice in my head sneeringly repeats her vexatious words.

Is it wishful thinking, or was that a wistful look Elizabeth just cast in my direction? Off I go to another part of the room and station myself so as to command a full view of her fair countenance. I watch every move she makes, envy everyone with whom she speaks, and take an ironic measure of comfort from the fact that if I cannot approach her, neither can other men.

I am pathetic.

Once refused, how can I be so cabbage-headed as to expect her acceptance of a renewal of my suit? Is there one among my sex who would not protest against such a weakness as a second proposal to the same woman? There is no indignity so abhorrent to a man’s feelings. Yet I am resolute and will persevere through all pathos, cabbage-headedness, protestations, weaknesses, indignities, and abhorrences.

Surreptitiously I draw a deep draught of resolution and perseverance from the slender flask of brandy carried within my coat. As the young ladies disperse, anxious curiosity and hesitant steps carry me toward Elizabeth’s table. The colour is momentarily driven from her face as I approach, but it returns for half a minute with an additional glow. I stand staring intently, as is my habit in her resplendent presence.

Now Elizabeth is also staring intently, not at me but at the hands clasped in her lap. I compose my thoughts while willing her to spare me one of hers and to lift her gaze. Tilting my head, I bend slightly so I can peer at her face and am finally rewarded. She looks up, and a smile of delight adds lustre to those fine eyes. I think for a space of time that her affection and wishes might match my own, yet I cannot feel totally secure. I stand tall again, and my heart skips a beat as Elizabeth speaks.

“Is your sister at Pemberley still?”

“Yes,” I answer. “She will remain there till Christmas.”

I dearly love Georgiana but do not wish to talk about her now, although Elizabeth apparently does.

“And quite alone? Have all her friends left her?”

“Mrs. Annesley is with her. The others have been gone on to Scarborough these three weeks,” I reply.

I do not wish to talk about Mrs. Annesley or any others now. I want to talk about your coming away to Derbyshire as my bride. Should I have the misfortune of returning to Pemberley bereft of you, despair shall be my life’s companion. Save me, Elizabeth, from such a destiny. Lay claim to your rightful place in my home as well as in my heart. There can be no other woman in the world for me, no other more deserving of the Darcy name, and none more worthy of bearing Pemberley’s heir. The estate and its future generation will flourish under your love, good guidance, and care; and with you by my side, I shall be happy and whole. You, and you alone, deserve the wealth of love and worldly goods I can bestow. I want … I need to spend my lifetime providing for you, protecting you, loving you, and, hopefully, earning your affection in return. Will you not accept all I have to offer, Elizabeth?

During my silent declaration, the tea room has cleared except for a few hirelings. I would dearly love to remain here, alone with her, but know it would be scandalously improper. I ask if I may escort her to the main room; Elizabeth readily agrees and slips her gloved hand onto my arm. It tingles from her gentle touch, and I never want her to let go; yet I resist the urge to place my hand over hers to secure it there. We walk in silence. This taciturnity, while not quite as awkward as our first amble at Pemberley, is unnatural, even for me.

“Miss Bennet, I would …” Neither my empty brain nor my parched throat agree to cooperate. I fill the first with curses, attempt to lubricate the latter, and quell my itching fingers from reaching for the flask. “Would you … “

The opportunity for which I have been waiting all night has finally presented itself; yet I, a man of sense and education, am suddenly ill qualified to formulate even one coherent sentence. There is, of course, in every disposition a tendency to some particular deficiency — a cockered, shard-borne, pottle-deep deficit — which not even the best education can overcome.

“All evening, I have strived to have you… stand up with me for a set. Every attempt has been frustratingly forestalled, for one reason or another. I would ask for the honour now. But, in truth, I would… rather not.” Oh, brilliant.

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