Darren Shan - Hell's Horizon

Bill was sitting in his excuse for a garden when I returned, drinking a can of beer, several empties scattered around him. I packed my bag, wandered outside and told him I was going back to my apartment. He wasn’t happy, but I said I couldn’t stay with him forever. He’d been great, I couldn’t have pulled through without his help, but it was time to stand on my own two feet and get on with life. He told me to take advantage of his hospitality anytime, no matter what the circumstances.

Ali spotted me pulling up and rushed out to commiserate. I thanked him for his kind words but didn’t stay to chat. He told me to call in if there was anything I needed. I said I would, then hurried up the stairs, eager to make a start.

Somebody had fixed my door. Probably Bill. Also, the fridge and freezer were stocked, the bed had been made and all the notes that had been strewn around the place were in boxes, tidied away. I threw my bag down and started pulling out the notes. I hadn’t gotten through two of the boxes when the door to the bathroom opened and Paucar Wami stepped out.

“Al m’boy,” he croaked, “you’ve come back to your dear ol’ pappy.”

I laid the box down. “How long have you been in there?”

“Most of the day.” He flopped into a chair. “I had a feeling you would return after the funeral. I was expecting you earlier. What delayed you?”

“The wake.”

“You stayed for that? I detest wakes. Everybody speaks so well of the dead. Nobody mentions the infidelities, the scams they pulled, the people they betrayed. I worry that somebody will throw a wake for me when I pass on.”

“I don’t think there’s much chance of that,” I replied icily.

“You might be surprised,” he grinned. “Enough beating about the bush. You have had your time of mourning. On to business. Have you learned anything new?”

I thought of the marble and sat down opposite him. “There’s something I have to ask. You won’t like it but I’m going to ask anyway.”

“Go ahead.” He looked interested.

“Did you kill Ellen?”

He frowned. “You suspect me?”

I told him about the marble, black with golden streaks, how I’d discovered it, how it had gone missing and turned up in my locker, how it had been found on Ellen.

“You think I left it on her?” he asked. “That I rolled the marble your way in the first place, meaning I’ve been fucking with you from the very start?”

“Maybe.”

Wami stared at me in cold silence, then slid a dagger out of a pocket. He pressed it into my right hand and placed the blade against his bare, unprotected throat, offering himself to me.

“If you doubt, destroy,” he hissed.

I stared at the blade and the hairless flesh of his throat. I took a deep breath. As agile and powerful as he was, he couldn’t stop me if I decided to kill him. One flick of my wrist and he was a dead man.

I started to lower the knife. Wami grabbed my hand and pressed the blade back against his throat. “Be sure,” he snarled. “I have never volunteered my life before. I will not do so again. Be sure of me or kill me.”

I withdrew the knife. He didn’t stop me this time.

“I had to ask,” I muttered.

“No. But you did, and it is perhaps just as well. Now we know where we stand.” He pocketed his knife. “With the dramatics out of the way, I will ask again — anything new?”

“You first. What’s happened since Ellen was…?” I didn’t want to say it.

“Nothing much. Nobody knows who killed her. The room at the Skylight was officially vacant. The police do not know whether it was a copycat killer or the original.”

“The original,” I snapped.

“Of course. No luck on the Charlie Grohl front. I have been following young Nicholas, without joy. I tracked down the two leads of Ellen’s — I found them by going through your notes — but they knew nothing of her or Nicola Hornyak.”

“Did you kill them?” I asked quietly.

“One of them. The other was a crook with political connections. I let him live in case I have use for him in future.”

“How come you didn’t hit on Ziegler?”

“I was saving him for when you returned. We will go after him together, father and son, a proper team. Now, what news with you?”

For the second time I related the story of my underground sojourn. Wami sat through it uncommonly slack-jawed.

“I know of the tunnels and caverns,” he noted at the end. “I have explored them. But I never came across anything like that.”

“Can you make sense of what the villacs said?” I asked.

“No.”

“ Flesh of Dreams means nothing to you?”

“Should it?”

“It did to The Cardinal.” His eyebrows rose, so I told him about our meeting.

“It grows more incredible by the minute,” he sighed. “The Cardinal leaving his fortress to declare his innocence. I never heard the like.”

“The Cardinal knows about the villacs and their plans,” I said.

“That does not surprise me.”

“I thought their rantings about blood streams, Flesh and Dreams were gibberish, but if The Cardinal takes them seriously, so should we.”

“Absolutely,” Wami agreed.

“So find out,” I told him.

“How?”

“Torture a few blind men. Take The Cardinal out back of Party Central and beat the truth out of him. I don’t care. That’s your concern. My hands will be full with Nick and Ziegler.”

“Why divide? Let us pursue Nicholas and Rudi together, then—”

“No,” I cut him short. “If either was responsible for the murders — or knows who was — he’s mine. Same if you find the killer — leave him for me.”

“You grow greedy, Al m’boy,” Wami murmured. “You want all the fun.”

“To hell with fun!” I shouted. “This isn’t a game anymore. I loved Ellen. Can you understand that, you black-hearted son of a bitch? Do you know what love is?”

“Please,” Wami winced. “Spare me the pop lyrics.”

“Don’t joke,” I growled. “I’m serious.”

“How can you be serious about a little thing like murder?” he protested. “We all die in the end. She is dead — accept it and forget her. It is not like the two of you were still an item.”

“That doesn’t matter. I loved her.”

“ Love ,” he sneered. “It is the basest of emotions. Love owns the weak — owns, cripples and destroys.”

“You don’t know what you’re talking about. You’ve never loved. You can’t understand it unless—”

“But I have!” he exclaimed. “I do. I love death .”

“Hardly the same thing as loving a human,” I noted.

“It is better,” he insisted. “Death is the only mistress worth love because she owns us already. Loving one of your own is a form of slavery. Only by learning to love death can one taste freedom. By acknowledging the bonds of our mortality, we are freed to explore the loops that form the chains of life.”

“I’m not going to get philosophical with you,” I said. “Love whatever the hell you want. I loved Ellen and I’m gonna find her killer and murder him. Alone. If you’ve got a problem with that…”

“Al,” he tutted. “Sons should not pit themselves against their fathers. It runs contrary to the laws of nature.”

“Will you leave the killer to me?” I asked.

“If I do not? Will you raise your hand in anger?”

“If I have to.”

“And if I raise mine in return?”

I didn’t answer. Wami studied me, then shook his head with disgust. “So be it. The killer is yours.”

“Thank you,” I responded coolly.

“You know,” Wami smiled, “I almost envy you. It has been many years since I took a life in anger. Nothing compares with that first drawing of blood, the thrill of…” He stopped when he saw a shadow pass across my face. “Did I say something amiss?”