Sandy Williams - The Shadow Reader

I pull my hand free from his. “Go. It’s okay.”

He shakes his head. “I can’t leave you.”

“You can’t abandon them.”

His eyes are pained as he turns to me. “McKenzie—”

“If the Court finds rebels there, if the Court attacks, the fight could spill over into human homes. You need to go.”

His gaze drops to the ground. He shakes his head, but takes a small pouch out of his pocket, ties it around one of my belt loops, then unhooks a dagger from his belt. He slides his hands under my cloak and around my waist, tucking the sheathed weapon into the waistband at the small of my back.

He takes a half step back but leaves his hands on the curves of my hips and holds my gaze. “Keep going west. You should reach a road by morning. Turn right and head toward Belecha. You’ll come to a crossroads on the way. I’ll be there in the morning, waiting for you, but if I’m not . . .” He draws in a breath. “If I’m not, you’ll have to continue on your own. Keep your hood up and your chaos lusters hidden. The Court will be looking for you. Wait until dark before you enter the city, then find a tavern, one that’s crowded. Ask where you can find saristi . It’s a bird from the Adaris Mountains. Everyone will tell you there aren’t any in Belecha, but word will get back to Sethan’s supporters—he has them in every city. Wait until one finds you. They’ll take you somewhere safe.”

I nod, trying to act calm and competent even though I’m dead tired and don’t want him to go.

His jaw clenches; his hands tighten on my hips. “You’re resourceful. You should be fine.”

It’s not me I’m worried about. His silver eyes drink in every detail of my face. That’s not a good sign, him acting like he’ll never see me again.

“ Sidhe , I don’t want to leave you.” He grabs the back of my head and pulls me into a brutal kiss.

He tastes of the Realm, light and exotic. Addicting. My edarratae pulse in rhythm with my heartbeat. He’s warm, strong. A small explosion goes off in my stomach when he shudders. He’s good at this, teasing all thoughts from my mind but him. His tongue parts my lips, dances with mine, and the world spins. I’d let it keep spinning but Aren breaks away, grasping tightly to my arms.

“McKenzie.” He kisses my lips again briefly, then again, lingering. “I’ll be waiting at the crossroads. I promise.”

HE’S NOT WAITING for me in the morning. I walked through the night, afraid that if I stopped to rest, I’d never get up again, and reached the road to Belecha just as the sky began to pinken. It took about half an hour to reach the crossroads. I planned on waiting until late afternoon, but an electric storm—something extremely rare in the Realm—was inching in. Besides, Aren told me to go to Belecha if he wasn’t here. It’s possible he might not make it here at all.

The thought makes my stomach hurt.

I turn north and watch the dirt pass beneath my boots. I’m not the only one traveling to Belecha. Merchants and their cirikith -drawn carts begin to crowd the road. I keep my cloak clutched around me, careful to make sure my hands and face remain out of sight. It’s during times like this, when I’m walking through another world, surrounded by magic-users, that I wonder if I might be crazy. Maybe my mind is trapped in some kind of elaborate hallucination while my body is still restrained to a bed in Bedfont House. That’s where my parents sent me. I was flunking all my classes, disappearing without explanation, and was caught more than once “talking to myself” and “having fits.” It took Kyol a month to find me there, a month during which medications were forced down my throat and I was surrounded by the truly insane.

I ignore the old memories and trudge on. I don’t expect to make it to Belecha—I expect Aren to fissure to me long before I get there—but as the sun descends behind dark clouds, the city’s outlying buildings come into view. The stone would blend in with the gray sky if snaking green vines weren’t covering the walls. By the time the dirt road turns into smooth cobblestones, those walls take on a blue hue. Night’s fallen. Fae workers are sending their magic into orb-topped streetlights.

I’ve been here before—a few times, in fact—but Kyol always took me straight to the gate. Even if I had someone to fissure me through it now, we’d have to wait until morning. City gates are closed after dark to all but the Court fae, and the only reason they would need to use it is if they were escorting a human.

I wrap my cloak around me and hurry toward a squat building with an open door and boisterous conversation spilling out into the street. As soon as I step inside, see fae clutching fat mugs, and smell a pungent, stale odor, it’s obvious I’ve found a tavern. A shady one, I think, because I’m not the only one here hiding my identity behind a hooded cloak.

I want to hole up in a corner to rest, but I force myself to walk just a little farther. The bartender, a gaunt fae with black hair falling well past his shoulders, asks me what I want.

I want food, but I say, “I’m looking for saristi.”

My accent sucks. His eyes narrow. “You’re looking for what?”

“Saristi,” I say, hoping I’m emphasizing the right syllables.

“You’re in the wrong province for that,” he says. Then, “What do you want?”

From the scowl on the bartender’s face, I won’t be allowed to stay unless I order something. There’s a menu on the countertop. Since I can’t read it, I point to a random line of symbols in the middle.

And immediately snatch my hand back. I’m lucky. No edarratae flashed over my skin, but damn it, I can’t be that careless.

“Fifteen tinril,” the bartender says.

I have no clue how much that is, so I reach into the pouch Aren gave me and take out a few coins. Making sure my hand stays hidden, I drop the change on the counter.

He raises an eyebrow, then sweeps the coins into a pocket. I clench my teeth. There’s no way I gave him the exact amount, but I’m not going to ask for change. I don’t want him to figure out just how foreign my accent really is.

I’d like to hunker down in a corner or at least somewhere near a wall, but the only free table is right smack-dab in the center of the joint. It’s better than standing, though, so I pull out a chair and sit. It doesn’t matter that the chair squeaks and wobbles as if it’s one wrong move away from falling apart; it’s good to be off my feet. It would be even better if I had a bed. I’m certain not even my nightmares would wake me once I lie down.

A few minutes later, a fae sets a bowl in front of me. I don’t know what’s in it. Some mashed-up something covered in something yellow. I start with the flatbread since that’s unlikely to kill me, eat half of it before I’m brave enough to dip a tiny corner into the sauce. I take a bite.

And try not to spit it out. Bitterbark. They turn that crap into a sauce?

Stomach growling, I scrape it off to the side and try a small spoonful of the mash left in the bowl. It tastes like orange-flavored eggs. Disturbing, but edible.

The fae packed into the tavern are louder than when I first entered, but I tune them out. It’s easy to do since I lack the energy to translate their words. I finish off the rest of the mash—which tasted worse and worse with each bite—and debate asking the bartender for a drink.

My hood is wrenched off before I make a decision. I try to jerk it back up before anyone notices my chaos lusters, but it’s too late. Everyone’s staring—gaping, really—except for the fae who removed my hood. He’s linebacker-heavy and almost a full foot taller than I am.