Juliet McKenna - The Assassin's Edge

Guinalle’s memory bathed the sanctuary in wistful sunlight. She dwelt on the plain house she had shared with two other girls, all of them happy to escape the intricate formalities of noble etiquette and dress. Her mind’s eye turned to the library where nascent aptitude for Artifice won her merit, not blood and heritage. Her piercing sorrow for her gentle, long-dead teachers pricked Temar’s eyes.

“I was so happy there,” she said softly.

“You’d never recognise Bremilayne now,” he began bracingly. ”When I was there last year—”

“I don’t want to know.” Guinalle’s grip was painful. “Don’t you wish it could all be as it was?”

A rush of recollection assailed Temar. A hammer-beamed hall decked with green boughs, a massive fire roaring in the hearth, silks, jewel bright in candle- and firelight, as dancing gowns swished across the rush-strewn floor, matrons as deft as their slender nieces and daughters. Their partners were just as gaudy, gold and silver buttons bright on doublets and gowns woven with shimmering brocade. Double doors opened into a broad room of tables set with every delicacy and temptation that a noble House could command. Laughter echoed silently in Temar’s head, floating above a merry mix of celebration and flirtation laced with pious thanks to Poldrion for another year safely past.

“Festival’s nothing like how you remember it either.” Temar tried to turn to his own recollections to the summer Solstice he’d passed in Toremal. It was a futile effort. Guinalle held stubbornly to her memory and she was far more adept at this than he. Temar gritted his teeth and summoned the thrill and exhilaration of the vivid, sunlit city of Toremal. He recalled his astonishment at the sprawling districts that dwarfed and surrounded the old walled town they had known, at the elegant Houses Sieurs new and old had built to ring the city with all the artistry gold could buy. “The world’s moved on, Guinalle. You should come and see for yourself.”

“See what?” Behind the mask of Guinalle’s relentless self-control, Temar felt grief for her family so long dead, rage at the House that had so long forgotten and then disowned her.

“There’s no use pining for what’s lost.” Temar did his best to quell his unease, trying instead to let Guinalle see how his own sorrow and rage had run their course. “We have to look forward, not back. Tormalin rebuilt itself from the ruins of the Chaos; we’re doing the same for Kellarin.” If the people of Kellarin no longer had any place in this new Tormalin, by all his hope of Saedrin’s mercy, Temar would build them a new home, raise a new power across the ocean.

“Is that what we have to look forward to?” Guinalle’s low voice was strained. “Some mockery of the colony we planned, built on the charity of these Sieurs who rule this changed new world of yours? Oh, I’ve tried, Temar, I’ve really tried. I spend my days curing bellyaches and dressing blisters while people bring me petty squabbles over patches of dirt or smelly animals. Is this to be my life? I was a princess. Tor Priminale was a name to claim precedence in any gathering, honoured for husbanding vast lands and tenantry numbering thousands.”

“Which you turned your back on, as I recall.” Temar kept his tone light with some effort. He didn’t want to provoke her to outright hysteria but, curse her, Guinalle wasn’t going to get away with this nonsense.

“I set my rank aside to study the arts of enchantment. Acolyte of Larasion, Adept of Ostrin: that means nothing now,” Guinalle answered, stricken. “I cannot even reclaim my own Name, I’m just handed over to a House all but dead before we even sailed.”

“Thanks to the Crusted Pox,” said Temar coldly. “That plague and my grandsire taught me a hard lesson very young, Guinalle. I could weep and howl all day and all night but my father wouldn’t hear me in the Otherworld. No brothers or sisters could repass Saedrin’s threshold to comfort me. All I could do was strive with the life that was granted me, to honour their memory.”

“It’s just that I miss them all so; Vahil, Elsire, the Sieur Den Rannion, his maitresse, all those others cut down in their blood.” Guinalle’s brittle belligerence crumbled and a single tear spilled from her brown eyes, dark pools of misery. “My uncle, Den Fellaemion, a byword for boldness and success. He had such hopes, such plans, but he always told me, if it all fell to pieces, we could just go home. Now where do we go? Where do we belong?” She choked on a bitter laugh. “You say so much has changed. Not everything. We flee black-hearted invaders and I hide everyone who escapes beneath enchantment, since it can’t be more than a season before help arrives. But we wake to find I’ve condemned us all to a life where everyone we ever knew and loved is dead, but these same foul marauders are still trying to kill us! Then I learn that my enchantment threw the balance of the Aether into such disarray that adepts clear across the Empire were cast into confusion. With that last prop shattered, chaos destroyed our world, Temar, and it was all my doing!”

“It’s not your fault.” Temar chose his words with exquisite care. “I know how difficult this is, Guinalle. I’ve thought just the same in the silence of the night, and wept for lack of answers and simple misery. Anyway, Nemith did more to bring down the Empire than you ever could. You know what he was like.” He faltered. “But we are alive and where there’s life, there must be hope and however much the world has changed around us, we can still look for warmth and succour to heal our hurts.”

“Can we?” Guinalle took both Temar’s hands and held them tight.

Vivid as a dream on waking, he remembered his desire the first time he’d seen her, his nervous awareness that she wasn’t some easy conquest like those many who roused his passing lust in his carefree youth. Memory sped through his painstaking courtship to linger on his astonished delight when she’d first accepted his kiss, permitted his decorous embraces and soon encouraged more. “Oh, don’t, Guinalle.” He tried to curb his embarrassment but felt a blush burning his cheeks.

“Couldn’t we offer each other a little solace?” she asked defiantly.

“You’re a fine one to talk about the ethics of Artifice, if this is how you’re going to behave!” Temar said crossly.

“You wanted to share everything with me.” Guinalle rebuked him with a memory of uncovering her nakedness in a secluded glade. “You wanted to marry me.”

“You declined that honour, Demoiselle,” Temar retorted, stung. But that wound was not as tender as it had been, he realised with some surprise. “Anyway, you were right; we were never meant to be more than friends.” The sour taint of Guinalle’s unguarded jealousy surprised him. “What’s Allin ever done to you?”

“Oh, no more than any other mage. Just dismissed my Artifice as quaint enchantment from a forgotten age, good for healing but no challenge to their crude and gaudy magic.” With the Artifice linking them, Guinalle’s sarcasm could not hide her hurt.

Temar found he wasn’t inclined to sympathy. “You’re exaggerating and you know it. Usara’s all but split his skull trying to work out where aetheric magic and wizardry might meet. He has nothing but respect for your lore. Saedrin’s stones, Guinalle, Artifice can leave a wizard mindless! Isn’t that enough superiority for you?” Temar fought a desire to take the demoiselle by the shoulders and give her a good shake.

“Once Usara’s worked out how to defend himself against such things, how much more interest will he have in me then?”

Temar saw she was mired in confusion over her feelings for the mage.

“Don’t you dare pity me!” she gasped, dropping his hands at once.