Carrie Jones - Need

Don, the artist, needed health care and Dave's company wouldn't cover him. My dad opened the door and let us into the house.

"It's ridiculous. Get me some water, honey," he had said, smiling, bending over to catch his breath and leaning on his knees for balance. He'd already taken off his Red Sox hat and his silver hair beneath it was wet from sweat.

I grabbed two Poland Spring waters out of the fridge and pivoted around, and it was like my dad wasn't there anymore. That's the only way I can describe it. He cringed. White and gray erased the normal ruddy color of his skin.

"Daddy?"

He didn't answer, just sort of lifted up a hand to wave me off. Then he pointed toward the sink. "The window. He's… I saw him. Run."

"What?" I said.

"Don't let him take…"

"Daddy?"

I started to turn and look at the window but then he fell over on his side, his mouth wide open, trying to grab air. His blood didn't know what to do because his heart had failed him.

I dropped the water bottles on the floor. One rolled into his shoe, the other went back toward the fridge, hiding, I guess. I wanted to hide too. My own heart started beating crazy rhythms, out of control, against my ribs. I reached out for his hand and grabbed it. He squeezed back but not hard, not tight and strong like normal. He was weak.

"Mom!" I screamed. "Mom!"

She thundered down the stairs and stopped at the entrance to the kitchen. She sucked in her breath and grabbed the big palm plant next to the sink. Her words came out like a whisper, "He's having a heart attack." My own heart stopped then, and my dad's eyes widened and he looked at me, pleading. He had never looked at me that way before. His mouth moved. No sound came out.

At school Issie and I sit together at lunch and in all the classes we share. Devyn sits with us in the cafeteria too, and he and Issie laugh so much about the stupidest things it's hard not to laugh with them, even as I check to make sure I haven't gone transparent.

It's actually hard to get annoyed by them because they are so cute together.

"So," I say. "I think I might believe you about the pixie guy."

"Why?" Issie asks.

I chew on my bagel. "I got stuck in the ice yesterday. I went off the road."

"Nick told us," Devyn says.

"Did he tell you about the dust, too?" I ask, watching Devyn rip into a roast beef grinder.

"Yep," he says with his mouth full.

"It's weird," I say. "Especially with the boy that went missing last week. I think they might be connected."

"You know about the Beardsley boy?" lssie asks.

"Betty told me that it happened before," I say. "I'm thinking about going to the computer lab and looking for info."

"I'll come with you," Devyn says, mushing the rest of his grinder in.

"Me too," lssie says, collecting his garbage and her own.

"You should be a couple," I tell lssie as we throw away our trash. "You aren't already a couple, are you?"

"Me and Devyn?" she squeaks.

"Yeah, you and Devyn," I say, elbowing her in the side. "I think he likes you."

She drops her soda can into the recycle bin and turns to stare back at Devyn.

He waves.

Her smile is huge.

"Really?" she asks.

I toss my apple core into the garbage bin. "Really."

She links her arm through mine. "I'm so glad you're here, Zara. I'm glad you aren't hanging out with Megan and her people."

She glances over at Megan, who is holding court over a throng of admirers.

Megan lifts up her eyes and meets mine. I swear if she could shoot fire at me she would, or at the very least, laser beams.

"She hates me," I say. "No big loss. I'd rather be your friend any day."

This is so corny, but lssie eats it up.

"Really? You have to come over again, you know. There's so much stuff I want to tell you." She pulls me back to the lunch table, almost hopping the entire way. "Devyn, guess what Zara just said."

"That she adores snow?" Devyn asks. "And is no longer a victim of cheimaphobia?"

lssie licks some honey that's run off her sandwich and onto her fingers.

"No."

"That she has called her mother and no longer resents her for sending her to Maine, thus ending future decades of therapy and massive loss of revenue for my revenue-hungry parents?"

"No."

I stick out my tongue at him.

"That she has indeed freed all the political prisoners throughout the globe?"

"Devyn!"

He laughs. "Okay. Okay. I'll play nice."

He turns to lssie and says all sweetly, "What did Zara say?"

"She said that she'd rather be my friend than Megan's, any day."

"Zara's no idiot," he says. He raises his eyebrows at me. "I knew you had it in you."

I'm totally confused. I take a sip of my soda. "What do you mean?"

"To make good choices," he says. "You'd choose lssie even if Megan didn't hate you, right?"

I glance at Megan and her frosty eye shadow, her perfect hair, her happy laugh, and her group of admirers. "Megan is cold."

Devyn nods. "Exactly."

We google like crazy. Most of the pixie hits are crap about role-playing games. Then we hit paydirt.

People believe pixies are tiny, happy fey with just a streak of mischief. They are not. Closer to the vampire's callous disdain for the sanctity of human life, pixies should be avoided at all costs. The only protection against their wrath is their mortal enemy, the were.

"The were?" I say.

Devyn and lssie exchange a look and then Devyn turns to me. "Notwere as in the verb 'we were' but where as in 'where the heck have my sunglasses gone.' It's werewolves, werebears, that sort of thing."

He smiles like it's no big deal.

"Youare kidding me." I rock back in my chair, shaking my head.

"Weres are protectors of humans and each other," lssie explains. "It's like their sacred duty or something."

"And we know this how?"

"Eighth-grade cryptozoology project." She turns back to the screen. "Does it say anything else, Devyn?"

We all read the page silently. Devyn must read faster than we do, because he points at a far-ahead paragraph.

Pixies tend to congregate in wooded places. Some pass as humans and interact with humans under the benefit of a spell often known as a glamour. They should still be avoided. When not mated with a queen for an unspecified amount of time, the pixie king will demand tributes given to him in the form of young human men.

Devyn reads the next part. " 'Whom they kill after using them for their blood-hungry pleasures.' " "Not cool," lssie says.

"Not cool at all," I agree.

I read a tiny bit more, " 'The tortured boys gradually fall prey to hysteria'-Duh? Wouldn't you? — 'and then they lose pieces of their souls, gradually becoming an inhuman husk prior to death.' "That's so freaky awful," lssie whispers, grabbing onto Devyn's arm.

His eyes get sad and scared but his voice is brave. "It'll be okay, Is."

"What if that actually happens?" I whisper. "What if it's already happening?"

I look into their pale, motionless faces. I try to brave myself up. "But it's just a Web site, right? Anyone can write something on the Web."

The bell rings.

"Right." Devyn erases the history on the Web browser.

Everyone looks so disturbed I decide to make a joke. "I guess the weres around here aren't doing a good job."

They don't even crack a smile.

"Come on," I say. "You don't actually believe this, do you?"

Issie rubs at the bridge of her nose with the side of her hand. "Kind of."

I stare down Devyn. "You believe in werewolves and pixies? Like there's not enough real-life badness to be freaked about, you what? You want more?"

"Zara. Can you explain the dust?"

I pull in a breath, remember it by my car, near the woods, on Nick's back. "No."

"Do you think people are so brilliant we understand everything?"