David Dalglish: Night of Wolves

“I’ll be there shortly,” he said, sliding off the bed and reaching for his armor. Jessie started to close the door, then stopped. Her green eyes stared at him, and seeing the question aching to be asked, he prompted her to speak.

“Will Bobby go on to the golden land?” she asked. “Killing yourself…my father’s always said the gods hate men who die a coward. Killing yourself’s a sin, and to die sinning…”

His hand clasping his cold breastplate, Jerico stopped and frowned. He tried to decide what to say, what measure of truth would comfort her, and what he even knew himself.

“I don’t know,” he said. “I dearly hope so. He was a kind man. I’ll pray for him, and pray that he’s with his family in the hereafter. Surely Ashhur can fault no man for missing his loved ones as much as Bobby did.”

“Darius said he deserved Karak’s punishment.”

Jerico pulled his armor over his head, shifted it, and then walked over to kiss the girl on the forehead.

“He speaks out of hurt,” he said. “Pay him no mind. Now go, and tell your father I’m almost ready.”

She smiled weakly, curtseyed, and then was gone. Jerico sighed.

“Damn you, Darius,” he said, tightening the straps on his armor. “For once, couldn’t you know better?”

It seemed half the town had gathered at Bobby’s home by the time he arrived. Jerico’s host, the tall Jeremy Hangfield, stood in the center, clearly in charge. He was a distant relative of a noble in Mordeina, and owned more land than the rest of Durham combined. Thankfully, the corrupting influence of his wealth never went beyond him and the tax man. The people treated him as their leader, lord in all but name.

“There you are!” Jeremy said, spotting him near the back of the crowd. “Come, Jerico, come! Darius has refused to pray over him, but Bobby was a good man, and he deserves no worse than any one of us here.”

The way parted before him, and he stepped to the porch of Bobby’s home. Inside, he saw a rope lying on the floor, having been cut from the rafter it’d been tied to. Wrapped in a blanket was Bobby’s corpse. His parents, their backs hunched, their skin deeply tanned by the sun, sat to the side, surrounded by their friends. Not far away, he saw the parents of Bobby’s dead wife, and they looked too drained to cry. They’d lost all their tears the days before, suffering for the fate of their daughter and grandchildren.

Jerico knelt before Bobby’s parents and took their hands in his.

“Is there anything you want me to say?” he asked.

The father looked at him, his eyes puffy and red.

“He wasn’t his self when he did it. You know that, right? He’d never…he’d never do this…”

“He was already dead,” said the mother. “Died when Susie did.”

He kissed both their hands, stood, and then looked to the crowd. Some wanted comfort. Some were there to support their friends, and couldn’t care less what he had to say. A knot grew in his stomach, and his tongue felt layered with sand. What could he say to them? He knew so little. At the Citadel, they’d taught him the words for funerals, what to say for the passing of men, women, and children. They’d never trained him to deal with the looks they’d give him, the near desperate desire for relief and comfort.

Jerico gave them what he could, and it felt like exposing a piece of himself as he spoke. He told them of Bobby’s kindness, talked of the love of his family, and the grace he’d accepted from Ashhur. He said not a word of his suicide. Let the gods deal with that. When he finished, he gestured to Jeremy, who stepped forward, three men with him. They lifted Bobby into their arms and carried him out. They would bury him in the fields, forever to be a part of their village and their way of life.

Afterward, Jerico mingled, accepted compliments for his speech, and then searched for Darius.

He found him outside the town, sitting with his back to a lone tree growing atop a hill. The wind blew, and it felt wonderful against Jerico’s warm skin. Speaking to the public always made him flush and feel like his neck were on fire.

“You weren’t there for the burial,” he said as he sat down beside him.

“Don’t deserve it.”

Jerico sighed. “Whether he hanged himself or not, he trusted both of us, and at least you could have-”

“Not him,” Darius said, shooting him a glare. “ I don’t deserve to be there. He was hurting, and I led him out into the Wedge in hopes of aiding him. Instead, I made things worse. One of those that died was Bobby’s best friend, Peck Smithson. How could he endure that?”

He leaned against the tree and thudded his head against the bark.

“I led us right into that ambush,” he said, his voice growing quieter. “The tracks were so obvious a child could have followed them. I should have known something was wrong. The people of this village aren’t fighters. They’re farmers, shepherds, and herdsmen. Now more are dead, the village suffers for the lack of hands, and the one I sought to help spent the night hanging from his ceiling by a rope.”

“Yeah, you really messed up, didn’t you?”

At Darius’s glare, Jerico chuckled and smacked his shoulder.

“If our gods agree on something, it’s that we’re all human, and all make mistakes. Let it go, Darius. You did what you thought was right. Next time, don’t let your guilt keep you away. I’m tired of dedicating all the burials around here. Oh, and don’t give a damn sermon about the punishment awaiting a loved one who died mere hours before.”

“You would have me lie about my beliefs to make them feel better?”

“I’d have you show a measure of tact and talk about anything else in the world for the next few days. Surely you can grant me that?”

Darius sighed. “Very well. The least I could do for what remains of his family. It’s not like I want it to be this way, Jerico. The rules we live under are harsh, and not everyone will meet them, but truth is stone, unbending, unmoving. That is the way of Order.”

Jerico stayed silent, not wanting to discuss theology. Instead he gestured east, toward the distant river.

“What do we do about the wolf-men? From what I gathered, it was a pack of ten that attacked us. That, plus the raids across the river worry me to no end. They’ve found a gap in the towers, and Durham’s right there in the way.”

“We killed more than half,” Darius said. “And that was with them having the advantage. Do you still think they’ll press us?”

“How do we know it was half?” Jerico asked, voicing the fear that had been nagging at him. “We were within the Wedge only a little while. How many might be gathering? We could have stumbled upon a single hunting party, not the entire pack.”

Darius shook his head. “That can’t be. That would mean a pack of fifty or so, maybe more. It’s been years since any packs of that size. The elven scoutmasters keep them thinned and at war with one another, and someone that strong usually finds an arrow in their neck.”

“Except the elves are gone,” Jerico said quietly. “We cannot take any chances. Let us request aid from the towers, together.”

“We can handle this,” Darius said, his stubbornness and pride returning.

“Whether we can or can’t, I’d rather we err on the side of caution. Trust me on this?”

Darius sighed.

“Twice now I agree to your demands. I must be bothered by this more than I thought.”

“Good. It’s a welcome reminder you’re as human as I am.”

Jerico gave him an exhausted grin, and the dark paladin relented to his good humor.

“Write your request,” Darius said, standing. “And I will sign it.”

“Where are you going?” asked Jerico.