Kate Elliott - Spirit Gate

These words were met with a silence, broken when Master Calon stepped forward.

"The council of Olossi-both Greater and Lesser-has conferred, and has voted. Captain Anji, it is our wish that you accept the post of commander of the militia of Olossi."

The rain had faded to spits and kisses. Under the veranda, Mai remained dry, but the weary folk crowded into the square were soaking and shivering as a night wind rose out of the southeast. Only the Qin soldiers remained unmoved. No doubt they had survived much more extreme temperatures in their distant home in the grasslands. Then she saw Shai; he, at least, rubbed his arms as if he were cold. He raised a hand to mark that he had seen her, and she touched a finger to her lips in reply. She wept, just a little, to see him whole and safe.

Anji wiped his forehead with the back of a hand, smearing grime. He had a splash of blood on his right cheek. These ornaments gave him a dangerous look as he surveyed the council members, each in turn, and the sweep of rooftops where Olossi climbed the hill beyond. Lamps were lit along the length of the porch. On the streets above, within closed compounds, lamplight glimmered. At length, he looked at Mai, but she shook her head, and he smiled faintly and turned back to the council.

"I am not moved to alter the bargain already sealed. My men and I will take lands west and north of the Olo'o Sea, in those regions of the Barrens where there is decent pasturage."

Which lands happened to lie near the seeps and fissures where the fire lanterns burn.

"Is there anything else that cannot wait until tomorrow?" he asked the council. "I will arrange for guards to be posted, some from my troop and others from the militia. I believe the threat is over, but we must remain cautious."

"No one could have survived that fire," said Calon. "Their leaders surely are dead. Together with Master Feden."

"He gave his life to save his honor," said Anji. "It was a worthy death."

He stepped forward and took Mai's hand. "Now, if you will, I desire to rest."

The council members, too, were stunned by the day's events.

Eliar moved forward before any other could speak. "If you will, Captain Anji, we offer you guest rights in our house. I'll go ahead to make sure all is ready for you."

"I accept with gratitude," said Anji, but he turned his gaze back to examine Mai, searchingly. He bent close, so others could not hear him. "What is different?" he whispered.

"You are alive." She made sure her voice did not tremble. She was strong enough to do what must be done, but she was so very very very glad she need not do it alone.

"So I am," he agreed, "although twice dead, once to my father's people and once to my mother's people." Then he smiled, closely, warmly. "You have a secret."

Remembering what it was, she smiled in answer. She could not help sounding as if she were boasting. "We will have a child."

He was not a man prone to display, but he grasped her other hand and held it tightly. Anyone might guess what they spoke of, merely by looking at his face. "It seems we have passed through Spirit Gate into a new life."

And of course, so they had. A parting, a journey, a battle, a new life. A fine tale, truly. There is never any reason for happiness. Yet it exists.

On the Eve of the Festival

At the Advent of the Year of the Red Goat

Hands cupped around a shallow drinking bowl, Joss brooded. He sipped until the bowl was drained dry, then set it down. After pouring a fourth helping of rice wine from the carafe, he placed it back in its basin of hot water and with a sleeve wiped from the table's top the droplets of water left behind by the pouring. But none of it helped, not the ritual of pouring, not the punch of the wine rising to his eyes, not the peace or the quiet. He sat by lamplight in the master's cote of Argent Hall, alone except for the whisper of rains on the roof. The doors to the porch were all slid back so he could see outside, but the garden lay in darkness. At the beginning of the wet season, it was always difficult to adjust to a night sky covered in cloud, with no stars or moon to be seen, or to see by.

So it seemed to him. He was waiting in the dark. He was blind, with nothing to guide him. They had won a victory, but only by going against the code of the halls.

Reeves were meant to enforce the law, not to wage war. He could win the argument within his head, claiming they had been given no choice, and know it was true. He could rejoice in his heart that Olossi had been saved, and feel it as worthwhile, a bold triumph. But in his gut, he knew any more steps taken down this road would lead to a terrible place where he did not want to go. No matter the reason, they had betrayed the reeves of Argent Hall. They had passed through that gate, and they could never go back and pretend it had not happened.

The rains lulled him. The cool air washed over him, dragging him into sleep.

The dream always unveils itself in an unwinding of mist, but this time there is no journey in the wilderness, no distant figure that vanishes as soon as he glimpses it. She walks right out of the darkness and up onto the porch, and she examines him with an expression of regret mingled with amusement. It hurts to look at her, because in his dream she seems so very ordinary and alive.

"You're drunk," she says.

He raises a hand to acknowledge her with an ironic salute. "Of course I am. Whenever I think of you, I drink."

She shakes her head. "Joss. Do not carry this burden. Do not mourn me. Let it go."

"I can't. It won't let me go. Oh, Marit. Do you know what we've done?"

"I know. That's why I came to warn you: Beware the outlander."

He chuckled, because the dream was agony: to hear her, to see her. Why must he torment himself? Why throw these words at himself, as if to blame someone else for a decision he had helped plan and carry out? Or perhaps the gods had chosen his dreams as an entrance into his heart, to scold him, since in sleep he could only listen and speak but not, truly, act.

"What are you?" he asked her. "Are you real? Or only a dream, as I fear?"

She displayed both hands, palms facing him. Strong and subtle hands, whose touch he recalled too well. "I am a Guardian now," she said sadly.

He sighed, feeling the pull of the dream as it slid into impossibility, the place where he was forced to acknowledge that none of it could be real. "The Guardians are gone… or else this is their way of punishing me for walking onto forbidden ground…"

Twenty years ago, back when he was young.

And he woke, startling out of sleep at the clop of feet on the porch steps. He rose too quickly, and knocked the bowl onto the floor.

"Marit!" he called.

"Oh, the gods," said the Snake, who was standing on the porch in the soft morning light together with a half-dozen reeves. "He's drunk. Again."

"You bastard," said Joss, picking up the empty carafe and hefting it. "This will make a nice sound, shattering on your head."

"Enough of that!"

Blinking, he saw who had come with Volias and the others. Leaning on her stick, the commander limped into the room. She had already taken off her boots; all of them had, which meant they had stood on the porch for a while watching him sleep, and babble in his sleep, no doubt. He flushed.

"Set that down, Joss," she added. "It's a fine piece of porcelain. It would be a waste to throw it away so lightly."

Still gripping the carafe, he moved aside, and bumped his foot on the bowl as he got out of her way. The wine had soaked the pillow, but she levered herself down regardless and winced as she got her leg turned the best way. Picking up the bowl, she set it back on the table, then extended a hand. After a moment, Joss gave her the carafe. She placed it beside the bowl.