David Dalglish - Blood of the Underworld

“I know the man who has been playing puppeteer here in Veldaren. His name is Laerek, a priest from Mordeina. He was to meet with me tonight, very soon, but I have no intention of going. I have no desire to maintain this position I am in, to be taskmaster over the Faceless.”

Zusa clutched her daggers tight, and had to fight back her excitement at finally having a name, a person to hunt.

“You said there was a choice.”

“Indeed,” he said, pulling his gaze back down from the stars to her. “If you come with me, we can flee the city tonight, hide where not even the temple can find us. I’ll leave all gods and kings behind. I only came back here for you, Zusa, just for you. No one will know, no one will have reason to think you didn’t vanish into hiding back at Alyssa’s.”

He took a step toward her, reaching out a hand.

“We can be together,” he said. “I know I erred revealing our love to the priests. I know I was a fool to feel guilt and shame. Please, this is all I know to do to make up for it.”

“Is that all you have to offer me?” Zusa asked. She tried to ignore his words, his apologies. She thought of herself in her filth, him kissing her neck. Thought of how oblivious he’d been to her situation. She was just a memory to him, a perfect memory…

“I’m not sure I can,” she said. “You’re a stranger to me, Daverik.”

“Now perhaps, but not before. We were our firsts, Katherine. Surely no flame has burned brighter for you than I.”

Anger, she thought. Keep the anger fresh. Keep the betrayal fresh.

“I can’t,” she said at last. “I can’t leave Alyssa.”

Daverik sighed, but despite his obvious disappointment, he let out a bitter laugh.

“I know. I’d hoped otherwise, but I know. I’m sorry, Katherine. If you’d only said yes, I’d have never told you. I’d have spared you the heartache.”

Zusa felt her heart begin to race as her mind immediately went to the most dire of assumptions.

“What do you mean?” she asked.

Daverik shook his head.

“I am not the only one to meet with Laerek tonight. The Widow was to meet him as well, but only after.”

Her racing heart stopped. Her stomach clenched.

“After what?” she asked.

“After killing Alyssa Gemcroft.”

Zusa flung herself at him, grabbing his neck so she might slam him against the wall.

“Why?” she screamed. “What have we done to deserve this?”

“I am not the one you should be angry with,” Daverik said, clutching her wrist. “I didn’t set this in motion. Alyssa represents something that is an affront to Karak, something that must be brought low to make way for his return.”

“Return? Whose return?”

Daverik shook his head.

“No time, Zusa. The Widow is just a puppet, a minor player in all this. Even Laerek is but a mouthpiece for the real force working behind everything. Alyssa is already dead. I’ll tell you where to find Laerek, but you must hurry. Take vengeance on him, before he leaves Veldaren forever.”

Zusa’s grip tightened, and she almost strangled the life from her former lover.

“Don’t be a fool,” he said in a raspy voice, fighting to breathe through her grasp. “Kill the one responsible, then come with me. We’ll leave this all behind. You’ll never feel pain again, not like this. Don’t go back. You don’t want to see it.”

“No,” she said, letting him go. “You’ve never understood me, Daverik, and you never will.”

With every last bit of strength she ran toward the Connington mansion, daggers at the ready, long cloak billowing.

Daverik watched her go, and his heart ached at the sight. He loved her, so much he loved her, but time and trials had changed her, warped her into something he only vaguely recognized.

“Such a shame,” he whispered.

He heard Ezra land behind him, quiet as a cat landing on padded feet.

“She still will not accept you, will she?” she asked.

Daverik shook his head.

“Zusa is too far gone, and whatever love she has for me is not enough to bring her back.”

He looked over his shoulder, saw her drawing her daggers. Daverik once more thought of the softness of Zusa’s skin, the way his lips had brushed her neck, and then cast aside the sinful memories so he might give his Faceless her order.

“She’ll interfere if she can. Kill her, and if the Widow cannot fulfill his task, then kill Alyssa as well.”

Ezra stepped closer, rubbing her wrapped face against his shoulder while leering up at him.

“You risked much for an old love,” she said. “Deborah just barely lives, and others of the temple are not so lucky.”

“The dead go to Karak, their souls claimed and protected,” Daverik snapped. “Zusa is greater than any of them, yet she will burn, only burn. I had to try.”

Ezra smirked as she stepped away to give chase.

“Tell me,” she said. “Would you have risked for my soul as you have for hers?”

He could not answer, and he felt his neck flush with the shame.

“I thought not,” Ezra said. “Dangerous games, Daverik. You play such dangerous games…”

She ran, to murder the only woman Daverik had ever loved. The act was just, of course, a necessary fate for a woman who had blasphemed against Karak. But he would find no comfort in it, no solace.

“Forgive me, Zusa,” he told the night. “Perhaps, after an eternity, I might one day hold your body against mine. But I’ve given you enough chances. I wash my hands of this. Your fault, not mine, dear Katherine…”

Stephen Connington stepped into the tiny room, holding a candle to give himself light. As he’d hoped, she was already waiting for him there.

“Mother,” he said, seeing her sitting against the wall, surrounded by little toys carved out of wood.

“I’m here, child,” Melody said.

Stephen went to her, curling up in her arms as he closed his eyes. He was getting too big for it, he knew, but he did so anyway. With his eyes closed, he was once more lost in darkness, lost in a past he’d thought he’d escaped. Sadly, it seemed he never would.

“Do you think father loved me?” he asked.

“You know he did.”

He thought of the years of darkness amid months of light, of the beatings and the hunger, followed by Leon’s lips on his neck.

“Do I?” Stephen asked.

He’d been a bastard of Leon’s, birthed by a lowly servant girl who had aroused his father’s attention. Melody was not his mother, not by blood, no matter how much he might wish it be true. There’d been times Leon had treated him well, had laughed and told him stories as they walked through the mansion. Other times, though…other times…

“He told you so, didn’t he?” Melody said, stirring him from his thoughts.

His father’s voice echoed in his head, distorted over time so he couldn’t be sure if the love he heard in it existed or not.

You know they would kill you, Stephen. They don’t think you’re good enough to be one of them, to take over everything I’ve built. They want some boy pulled from a prissy noblelady’s cunt instead. But you’re my daughter, you hear me? You never forget it. My blood. So don’t you worry when I put you down there. It’s for your safety, Stephen. Your safety.

No matter the love he felt from his father, those long months spent in the cell had wore on him, bathing him in darkness as he grew up isolated and alone. But then, when he was almost six, an angel had been delivered to him. It was his mother, the true mother that owned his heart. Melody had been placed in the cell adjacent to his. The first he’d ever known of her was the songs she sang to pass the time. In that deep darkness, that voice had carried him, given him comfort so he could sleep without crying.