Anne Bishop - Twilight's Dawn

“Daemon isn’t sensing anything either?”

Surreal shook her head. “I wear the Gray; Daemon wears the Black. If her power is so weak she comes away from the Ceremony without a Jewel ...”

“She’ll feel like an outsider within her own family,” Marian concluded. “Especially because Titian wears Birthright Summer-sky and Daemonar wears the Green.”

Surreal shivered at the thought. Wasn’t that how so many things had gone wrong with Jaenelle Angelline’s life? She had been the outsider in her family, with her special friends and abilities no one had wanted to understand until Saetan had recognized her as the daughter of his soul.

Well, Jaenelle Saetien was never going to feel like an outsider whether she wore a Jewel or not.

“You look so fierce,” Marian said. “Where did you go?”

“Nowhere. Too far.” She tried to smile. “Daemon is going through the steps with Jaenelle. Want to make a bet on who is lecturing who?”

“Do you remember—,” Daemon began.

“I remember!” Jaenelle huffed out a breath. “Papa! We’ve gone over this forever-many times!”

He went down on one knee to be closer to her. “I know, but—”

“Papa!” She cat-puffed and jumped back. “Don’t put your knee on the ground. You’ll get dirty! Stand up!”

He obeyed. She immediately closed in on him and began whacking at his knee to clean off flecks of dirt.

“We have to stay neat and tidy because this is an important day,” Jaenelle said.

“Yes, Lady.”

She gave him a narrow-eyed look to see if he was making fun of her. Then she got a look in her eyes that was much too old for her young years—and scared the shit out of him.

“You’re afraid, aren’t you?” she asked.

Terrified, actually. “A little.”

She grabbed his hand in both of hers and gave him a sweet smile. “Don’t worry, Papa. Everything will be fine. I already know what Jewel I’m supposed to pick. My friend told me.”

His stomach lurched. There had been no mention of the special friend over the past few weeks. “Witch-child, you can’t choose a Jewel just because you like its color.”

“ Tch. I know that. I know all this stuff, Papa.” She looked past him. “I’m supposed to stand with the other children now, and you’re supposed to stand with Mama.”

She hauled him over to where Surreal stood with Marian, then ran off to join the other children who were going through the Ceremony.

Marian looked at him, then looked at Surreal and sighed. “I’ll pay you later.” She wandered off.

“Problem?” Surreal asked.

“Apparently, it’s now your responsibility to keep me neat and tidy,” he replied dryly. “And if you’re going to place bets about me, do I get a share of the winnings?”

She gave him a sharp smile. “No.”

His heart raced and the need to move was almost unbearable. But he stood still because he wasn’t willing to let anyone know how much effort it was taking to stay in control and appear no more anxious than any other father waiting to be told his fate with regard to his child.

Surreal slipped her arm through his. Then she looked at the children and sighed. “She’s at the end of the line.”

“Maybe we should have had a private Ceremony,” he muttered.

“You’re the Warlord Prince of Dhemlan. Even if she had been the only child acquiring a Birthright Jewel today, it wouldn’t have been a private Ceremony.”

A hard truth. If nothing else, all the Dhemlan Queens would have come to witness the second half of the Ceremony.

“We should move up with the families who are participating today,” he said. When she started to withdraw her arm, he pressed his hand over hers, holding her in place. “There’s no reason to be formal. Is there?”

She studied his face and shook her head. “No reason.”

Her mood seemed bittersweet, and he suspected he was the cause of whatever bitterness dimmed her pleasure in this special day. She had been his partner, his friend, his lover. They had laughed together and worried together and, sometimes, fought with each other.

He hadn’t been the husband she deserved. He had taken care of her body and enjoyed doing it, and he’d made an effort not to deliberately hurt her heart. He cared for her, deeply, but he’d never said the words that matter most to a woman.

And yet, she had stayed—and he wanted her to stay because he wanted to be with her, wanted to share his life with her.

Maybe, once this day was behind them, the tension that had been building between them would go away, along with the unspoken questions and doubts.

Maybe.

Or maybe, like the previous patriarch of the SaDiablo family, he would find himself surrounded by people he loved and yet always feel alone.

His heart ached with love and pride as he looked at the people who were his family. Sylvia’s boys, Beron and Mikal. Manny, who had taken care of him when he’d been a child. Tersa, his mother. Jillian. Marian and the children. Lucivar. And Surreal.

Giving his arm a squeeze, Surreal slipped away to talk to Manny. Lucivar shifted to fill the space.

“How did you survive this twice?” Daemon asked.

Lucivar shrugged. “Nothing I could do about it. A child will wear the Jewels a child will wear. I figure it’s my job to teach them to live up to their own potential instead of trying to match someone else—including me.”

“That’s not what I meant.”

“If you don’t know the answer to that, old son, then you haven’t been paying attention to the woman you’ve lived with these past fifteen years,” Lucivar said quietly, turning enough to make the words private. “She loves you. You know that, don’t you? And she’s as committed to her daughter as you are.”

“I know.” Daemon sighed. “I know.” But was that commitment enough?

“Boys,” Tersa said.

He and Lucivar immediately looked toward the Sanctuary where the first girl was coming out with her new Jewel.

“Oh,” Marian said with warm pleasure. “She has a Summer-sky.”

The next child in line, a boy, went into the Sanctuary with his chosen witness while the girl stood beside her mother, who proceeded with the formal granting of paternity.

Another child went in, and another man was granted legal rights to the child he had made.

Daemon called in chairs for the women and spread a blanket for the children so that they could sit on the ground and play hawks and hares. Lucivar called in a jug of water and let Daemonar take a glass to Jaenelle while he poured water for the rest of them.

By the second hour, Manny was dozing in her chair, and Surreal had gone off with Marian, who needed to feed and change the baby.

“A dozen children is too many,” Daemon said, accepting the glass of wine Lucivar poured for him. “We should have been split up into smaller groups throughout the day, like they did in Ebon Rih when your children went through the Ceremony.” When Lucivar said nothing, he felt like a fool. “I should have insisted on this group being split into smaller groups.”

“Maybe. Not that it would have made any difference. Not today. They are here to watch you and your daughter.”

“Isn’t that delightful?”

“Everything has a price.”

By the time they reached the third hour, children were getting whiny, adults were getting restless, and Daemon was ready to exile every Queen and aristo present. He’d had enough of the speculative looks and the whispers behind their hands. He also made note of the ones, like Lady Zhara, who had remained gracious and friendly during the long wait, and didn’t appear to be there for any other reason than to offer her good wishes.

Then, finally, Jaenelle was the only one waiting her turn.