Alex Bledsoe - Wisp of a Thing

“But Berklee got away from him.”

He took on a depth of sadness Rob had never imagined. “Sure, she did. And now she drinks herself to sleep every night. She’s right, if I hadn’t gone off to college, everything would be different. But I did, and Stoney was still here, and… I think she’s just taking the slow road instead of the interstate like some of the others did. But she’s going to end up in the same place.”

“I have to try, man. I can’t really explain it, but I have to. Nobody, and I mean nobody, tried to help me when I needed it. They were all hyenas, snapping around for scraps, or just ignored it like it didn’t matter to them. I can’t let myself become one of those people.”

Doyle looked at him seriously. “It ain’t your problem. Live and let live. Respect boundaries, like they say on Oprah. ”

“I can’t,” he said sadly. “Not this time.”

Bliss climbed the trail, her back sweaty despite the cool breeze. The path wound through the woods, so well hidden that only someone with her background could follow it. Here the trees had never been cut, no fires ever thinned their ranks, and once anchored firmly into the soil, they were as immovable as the mountain they crowned. She heard deer scamper away in the shadows, the smaller movements of more phlegmatic raccoons and possums, and felt the presence of other things that lived only around the Tufa’s sacred places. She wished she had time to bask in it, to reconnect with that huge tug in her belly that led ultimately into the heart of the night wind itself. But this was First Daughter business, and the hike alone had taken an hour and a half. She’d started just before sunrise, after dropping off her note for Rob, and it would be past noon before she reached her truck again. Worse, she was almost entirely sure this would be pointless. But unless she tried, whatever she did next would be misinterpreted and scorned.

Despite a lifetime in the mountains, she found this climb so arduous, her calves burned, and she wanted nothing more than to sit down, catch her breath, and then descend. But she recognized that urge as part of this spot’s defenses, and while she couldn’t ignore it, she used the annoyance it generated to urge her on. She didn’t have to walk, of course; the Tufa had much faster and easier ways to get around. But the meeting she sought needed to be arranged in the proper way.

At last, through the final grove of trees, she saw the bare top of the mountain. Smoke curled into the sky from a stone chimney that emerged straight from the ground. In a few minutes, she stood before the rock wall built into the side of the hill, with its gray, ancient wooden door. Railroad ties provided steps for the last few yards, and planks made a crude porch. Music played softly from a cheap radio. She knocked.

“Whozat?” a man’s voice demanded.

“You know goddam well who it is,” Bliss said. “Let me in.”

The door opened, and Rockhouse Hicks peered out. In the shadowy interior, he seemed bulkier and more threatening, but of course she knew the secret of that. “What do you want?” he muttered when he saw her.

“Shouldn’t you be on your way to the P.O.?”

“So? You ain’t my keeper.”

“That’s lucky for you. I figured you might have quite a head, drunk as you were last night.”

“Don’t remember much about it.”

“Convenient. But we need to hash out what to do about Curnen and Stoney.”

“You do what you want, they ain’t nothing to me,” he said, and started to shut the door.

She blocked it open. “I don’t want to be in your damn hobbit hole any more than you want me here. So stop being a jackass and work with me.”

“You ain’t my equal, Bliss, so don’t take that tone with me. Mandalay wants to talk, she can bring herself up here, just like you did.”

“I carry Mandalay’s song, you know that. Stop stalling.”

He looked at her. The smug superiority he showed in town was completely gone, and he now appeared as a weak, tired old man. His overalls were stained with mud, and his beard held crumbs and bits of food. When he turned just so, the light revealed two long, untended hairs protruding from one ear. He said, “I ain’t got nothing to do with that retarded sister of yours no more.”

“She’s not retarded, you self-righteous bastard,” Bliss hissed. In her head, she added, She’s cursed. By you. She followed him inside.

The dwelling consisted of one room with a fireplace, a table with two straight-backed chairs, a rocking chair, and a bed. The walls were stone, sealed with mortar that had crumbled in places and allowed gray lichen and mold to grow along the seepage stains. It made the place smell like an untended armpit. All the furniture was handmade, squared off and crude. The blankets on the bed were tattered and faded. Only the five banjos in their stands gave evidence of any recent attention. The heat and light from the hearth fire were overwhelming when the door closed behind her.

“And she’s not just my sister,” Bliss continued as she unzipped her jacket. “She’s your daughter.”

“Ain’t nothing to me,” he said as he turned off the old radio and settled into the wooden rocker before the fire. He picked up an old quilt and arranged it over his legs. “She turned her back on me when I needed her most. When the last leaf falls off the Widow’s Tree, she’ll be gone. No more of that damned howling all night.”

Bliss knelt and shoved the chair around so that he had to face her. “You made a big tactical error with her, Rockhouse. You backed her into a place where she doesn’t feel like she has anything to lose. What happens if she decides the hell with you and your rules?”

“Hmph,” he said. He spit into the fire, and it sizzled. “That girl ain’t got long. Then it won’t be nobody’s problem no more.”

She stood and walked away, fighting the urge to make him follow his saliva into the fire. It was hard to remember that this tired, pathetic creature was also the mean, vindictive monster who sowed malice and spite from the post office porch. What did it feel like to live alone, in one room beneath the top of a mountain so isolated, no one ever visited unless they were pissed off enough to make the climb? To know that you inspired only hatred, fear, or disgust? But then she remembered all he’d done, and her pity burned away like his spit.

A small object on the table caught her eye. She picked up a tiny ax, no more than five inches long. Its metal head gleamed, and the edge shone like a scalpel. Beside it rested a walnut. “Reliving past glories?” she said, with no attempt to minimize the sarcasm.

“Kiss my ass, Bliss,” Rockhouse mumbled without looking.

“And we got Yankees, too,” she said. “There’s one that Curnen’s been sniffing around.”

“Ain’t Curnen that brought him to y’all’s barn dance, now, is it?”

She ignored him. “And Stoney’s picked up a Yankee girl with a husband. That was stupid, Rockhouse, even for him. Now there’ll be all sorts of attention.”

“Ain’t nobody gonna find nothing they ain’t supposed to find. Always been the way. Still true.”

“What if it’s not? What if things are slipping? What if the night winds want it that way?” When he didn’t reply, she slammed her hands on the table, and he jumped. The tiny ax fell to the floor. “ Dammit, Rockhouse! This affects us all, not just your people! All the Tufa stand to lose now. If there’s any chance, we have to work together to stop it, or at least turn it aside so it glances off.”

“Yeah?” he said contemptuously. “What’ll you do about it, Bliss? Sing a song?”