David Dalglish - A Dance of Shadows

“I’ll handle the monsters.”

Melody ran her hands along John Gandrem’s chest, touching the soft silk of his shirt. She lay in his arms atop her extravagant bed, the silken sheets smooth beneath her. They were both fully clothed.

“Are you sure you are fine?” John asked her, brushing his hands through her hair.

“I believe so,” she said. “Please, just kiss me first…”

He did so, his lips rough, his facial hair brushing against her skin. Closing her eyes, she tried to slip into the rhythm, to remember what it meant to be embraced by a man who was strong, and kind, and caring. As she did, he kissed the top of her head, rubbed her neck and her shoulders, then drifted his hands downward. When his callused fingers touched her breasts she let out a cry, and immediately the hands were gone.

“I’m sorry,” she heard him say, but despite it she sensed the frustration. Melody felt her lower lip quiver.

“No, it’s fine,” she said. “It’s…”

Such a beautiful dove you are, Melody…

She sat up, pushing aside the blankets and wrapping her arms around her knees. John let out a sigh, and he slid his legs off the bed and put his back to her.

“I don’t know what that sick bastard Leon did to you,” he said. “I have a feeling I’ll never know. If you need time, though, I’ll give it to you. It’s only what you deserve.”

She grabbed his shoulder when he turned to go. He was stronger than any would guess, still muscular, and at her touch she felt him tighten.

“You are far better than I deserve,” she said, kissing his shoulder, his neck. “When the time comes, when I… am ready, I will let you know. Thank you, John. You are a good man, a kind man.”

He left her room, and the moment he was gone she slid off the bed, moved to the door, and flung the lock shut. A silent sob escaped her lips as she pressed her forehead against the cold wood.

Karak help her, soon she’d have to give John something more than a fleeting touch of her lips against his. But even those kisses flooded her with thoughts of Leon, of his touch, never entering her, only wanting her there like some idol he could touch himself to, something to spill his seed on as she lay imprisoned, helpless, chained.

“I need you, John,” she whispered. “You’re a good man. A good man.”

She prayed he stayed so good, so willing to wait as she pushed through her pain. The world was dark, and her friends few.

Turning toward her closet, she walked across the padded carpet until she knelt inside and retrieved her chrysarium from its hiding place. Its touch helped soothe her worries, and she smiled as she closed her eyes. Putting it on her bed, she went to her windows. They’d shut the curtains when John entered, but she wanted them thicker still, wanted not even the moonlight to filter in. A spare sheet did the trick, hung over the curtain rods. That done, she returned to her bed, and in the darkness touched the sides of the chrysarium.

“Karak,” she said, breathing the word like a charm.

Immediately the gems lit up, beginning to rock as the magic flooded into them. Eyes locked on the center, she watched as the gems lifted to the farthest extent of their thin silver chains. Prayers left her lips, simple ones, adulations to the beloved Lion. A warmth flooded her, the feeling of her god’s presence. It was that feeling that had kept her sane through the years, the chrysarium the only gift Leon had allowed her to keep. In the darkness she’d seen visions, distant beauty, even glimpses of the friends and family she’d known.

It wasn’t until she’d been freed from the prison that she’d fully discovered the chrysarium’s true power.

“Laerek,” she whispered when Karak’s power filled her like a river.

The colors bled out of the gems and into the center of the chrysarium, shifting, molding, becoming a shape with a face. The young priest startled, and she saw his small form look up to her, right into her own eyes.

“Melody,” he said, and then the miniature version of him bowed low. “I am glad to see you are still safe and well.”

“Fear not for my safety,” she whispered to him, crouching down closer. “It is you who must be careful.”

“And I am,” Laerek said. “I assure you, I am.”

His voice was tinny, the pitch not quite right. Limitations of the chrysarium, she knew, but the ability to converse with someone so far away was a godsend. She didn’t quite know what it was Laerek saw when he talked to her, and she’d been afraid to ask. Did he see a smaller version of herself? Perhaps a vision of her full form, hovering in the air above him? Or was she nothing but an image in his mind’s eye?

“Any word from Luther?” she asked, deciding not to let the conversation run any longer than necessary. The longer she used the chrysarium, the greater the headache afterward.

“Indeed,” he said. “I received his letter just this morning.”

“And?”

Laerek looked left and right, his hands rubbing together to show his nervousness.

“Have you made any progress with your daughter about her faith, or lack thereof?”

Melody let out a sigh. This was it, of course, the one conversation she’d been dreading. Part of her wanted to lie, but she would not demean herself so in the eyes of her god.

“The outcast Zusa has been with her for too long,” she admitted. “Alyssa will not turn to Karak, barring a miracle. The priests here in Veldaren have done little to persuade her, either. The Lion will find no home here, not without much work on my part.”

“Is it only a matter of time?”

Melody shook her head. “It is a matter of years, not months or days.”

Laerek crossed his arms, and however it was he saw her, he refused to look her in the eye. “Then forgive me, Melody, but my orders are clear. We do not have years. We may not even have months. If Alyssa will not bow to the faith, and allow us the use of her resources, then it is time for the Gemcroft family to find itself a new leader.”

Melody felt a shadow fall across her heart. For the briefest moment Laerek’s color faded, the gems starting to dim.

Karak be with me , she begged, her fingers tightly clutching the sides of the chrysarium.

“Would you have me imprison her?” she asked, daring to hope.

Laerek finally looked back into her eye. “We cannot take that risk. The Widow I hear of… she is still under your control, yes?”

Melody nodded. “For now.”

“Then have the Widow kill Alyssa. No one will ask questions, and if they do, the answers they find will never lead back to you.”

Slowly Melody breathed in, and slowly she exhaled. The gems lifted, and Laerek’s skin glowed once more with a vibrancy that was beautiful to behold.

“Karak orders, and I obey,” she said. “Tomorrow night I will relay your orders to the Widow. With Alyssa’s death, taking over the household will be of little difficulty, especially with Lord Gandrem at my side.”

Laerek’s head bobbed up and down, rapidly, like a bird’s.

“Good. Good. I’m glad things go well for you.”

“Yes, so well, the execution of my own daughter.”

Laerek opened his mouth to speak, but he had no words. Melody pulled her hands away from the chrysarium. The gems fell into the dark stone bowl with a clatter, and with tears in her eyes she stared at the fading afterimage in the darkness. Tears slipped down her face, and she didn’t bother to fight them. She was too old for losing battles such as that.

“Your fault,” she whispered, thinking of Maynard’s cold smile, his ungentle hands. “This is all your fault. You drove me to him. He listened. You never did.”

It was her affair that had brought Maynard’s wrath upon her, her affair that had sent her into the bowels of Leon’s prison, denied the fate of death her husband had been promised, instead left to suffer and rot. And now, because of a near decade of absence, her daughter had grown up denied the wisdom of her deity, denied the proof of his love. Alyssa’s heart was hardened, and now she would suffer greatly for it.