“Phoenix!” I shout across the hilltop. “Ready for a lesson?”
Her face is maniacal with glee as she races Gazzy — now a tall, lanky fourteen-year-old — back up the slope.
When she was born, the name seemed to suit her — my little Phoenix, helping us all rise from the ashes. She’s Fifi to Total and Nudge, Ninja Nix to the boys. But I’ll let her pick her own name when she’s ready, of course.
Just as I once chose Maximum Ride .
“Take your cues from the wind, watch for smaller birds in your path,” I repeat for the hundredth time. “And absolutely no dive-bombs without me!”
“Never, ever,” Phoenix repeats, and then proceeds to walk on her hands near the rocky edge. Gazzy cackles and tumbles forward, matching her trick for trick. While the rest of the flock hoots and hollers, cheering them on, naturally, I’m over here inventing new swear words and trying not to swallow my bottom lip.
Can you tell I’m way more nervous about my girl’s first flight than she is?
“Would you relax?” Iggy scolds me. “Did you forget how easy flying is? Besides, the kid’s got invincible DNA, so this should be no biggie. Ooof! ” he groans as I elbow him in the ribs.
Next to me, Fang chuckles as he watches his daughter give poor, protesting Total a very undignified belly rub. It’s hard to remember that there was once a Fang who rarely laughed or smiled. Tiny Phoenix has completely changed him. She’s changed all of us.
My fear grows as she picks her way to the edge of the cliff and looks down. I know she’s tough. I make sure she gets up again every time she falls down, and I tell her she can do anything.
Even when life throws you a flaming curveball almost big enough to kick the earth out of orbit. Learn how to do what’s right, because it takes a lot more guts.
If there’s one thing my baby’s got, it’s guts.
The flock crowds around Phoenix before the group flight, giving pointers.
“Think about using all your senses at once,” Ratchet says. “Remember what I taught you, baby girl — be the ninja.”
“Flap as fast as you can, little Fifi,” Total warns. “It’s important to gain altitude fast when your wings are so small.”
“But don’t think about anything!” Nudge chimes in. “That’ll ruin it.”
Phoenix nods solemnly, eyes wide. You can see her mentally calculating as her eyes flit from face to face.
We face the sprawled green landscape of the rain forest. The sun is a huge eye hanging in front of us, warming our skin. The sky is endless.
One by one, the rest of the flock members take off, their powerful wings pulling them higher and higher into the air. Our V is longer these days as our flock grows, but Angel flies at the center, steering us into the wind, and there are still three spaces at the end, waiting for us to join them.
Phoenix nudges her little feet toward the edge. She takes a breath, and for the first time, when she looks up at me, I see a bit of fear in her eyes. “What if I can’t remember it all?”
“Just do what feels right, sweetie,” I coach, firmly suppressing my worry.
“You know I would never let you fall,” Fang whispers to her with his crooked smile, putting a lump in my throat. “Your mom and I will always be there to catch you.”
It’s scary at first, but I believe we’ve all got it in us to soar. Look at me. Like the Remedy once said, I’m really pretty ordinary — just a normal girl slash bird kid slash recombinant life-form who wanted to save the world.
It could’ve been any of us. Aren’t we all just along for the ride?
“Ready?” I ask, squeezing my daughter’s hand, while Fang reaches for the other.
“Ready!” Phoenix echoes.
“Now jump !”