SL Huang - Up and Coming - Stories by the 2016 Campbell-Eligible Authors

I stopped for a moment and looked straight at her. I could almost see the cloak of sadness surrounding her.

"I’m building a time machine so I can go back and talk to Dad."

She started to cry. I didn’t know what else I could have told her except the truth. I made tea in a thermos and brought a couple of apples and a jar of peanut butter with me to the shop.

Then I lit the forge.

I worked for seven hours straight. In the end, I couldn’t feel my shoulders and lifting the thermos seemed an impossible task. I left it in the shop that night. As I lay in bed, I could still feel the heat of the scorching coals in my face; the smell of the thick leather gloves was still on my hands. I took the noise of hammer on steel with me to my dreams. I’m coming to you, Dad. I’ll see you soon. I’ll see you very soon.

I went back to the store the next day after school. I was tired and sore but I didn’t want to miss more than the two hours from yesterday. Paul had made hot cocoa in his tiny little kitchen. It was only three in the afternoon but the sky had darkened already. A few flurries of snow had fallen. He asked me how it went last night and I gave him the short answer. "Good," I said, hoping he wouldn’t detect the insecurity in my voice. I didn’t really know how it went. I’d finished the task but I had no idea what the outcome would be. I’d basically put together parts with no way of knowing how it all would turn out.

We put up Christmas lights around the bay window, which was just me handing Paul the individual string lights and, at the same time, holding the ladder so he wouldn’t fall over. We’d been working quietly for a while, only interrupted by a few questions he asked and me giving him very short answers, when he stopped and turned toward me.

"May I ask you another question?" he said.

"Sure," I replied.

"You know I’ll help you in any way I can, right?"

"Yes. Thank you."

"I owe it to your father. But not only that. I think you’re a bright kid and…you’ve been through a lot…with your mom and now your dad. My question is…"

I saw that he was looking for the right words to use. Part of me wished he would stop there and not say anything.

"Forgive me but…what are you building?"

I didn’t answer for a while and Paul didn’t say anything either. I think he wasn’t sure if he should have asked. When my stepmom asked before, I didn’t think about it much. Maybe it was the way he asked. His tone of voice was kind and genuinely concerned. Up until now, I hadn’t questioned what I was doing. I’d only questioned my ability, not the fact that I was doing it. I had followed the instructions from the notebook blindly. His question stirred something in me—something I didn’t think about before. The last couple of weeks, I was too busy going forward and the task itself had blotted out the purpose of it. What was I doing? Did I truly believe it possible to build a machine that would bring me back to my father? To tell Paul the truth seemed silly all of a sudden. And in saying it out loud to him I would expose the lie and realize that there was nothing on the other end of this, that I had sent myself on a fool’s errand. I couldn’t stop the tears from coming. Pain suddenly washed over me. My wish to see my father again had made me blind to the reality of it.

Paul sat down next to me and held me. I couldn’t control my tears anymore and sobbed into his arm. It was as if the flood gates had opened. I had never felt pain so deeply before. I thought about my father and my mother and each time I thought it was over, I started again. Paul didn’t say anything. He knew this was a necessary evil, that I needed to cleanse myself and face my loss head-on. After what seemed like a very long time, I let go of him and he handed me a box of tissues. I told him about the hospital and what my father had said to me. At least what I thought he’d said to me. I told him about the drawer and the notebook and the machine and while I did that, I saw the sadness in Paul’s eyes. It occurred to me at that moment that, throughout my own grief, I had never thought about his.

"I don’t know what the right answer is," he said after a while. "It’s completely up to you whether or not you want to finish it."

"I want to finish it." I was surprised by my answer. As soon as I said it, I knew it was the truth. I wanted to finish what I had started. "Can you order the magnets if I give you the money?"

"Of course," Paul said.

"I don’t want to order them before I have all the money."

"Okay. Let me know when and I’ll do it."

When I went to the shop that evening, I lit a fire in the stove and filled two of the galvanized pipes with sand. The notes suggested using sand inside the pipes and then sealing them off so they could be bent into a circular shape without breaking. Once that was done, I drilled twelve holes in each one at equal distance to each other and on both sides of the pipe. The magnets would be attached to them. The pipes would then be welded to the back of the chassis.

By the end of the following week, I had finished the controls, battery compartment with connectors, and the seat with head rest and neck stabilizer. I also made another one-hundred and fifty dollars and fifty cents. Paul kept the money and ordered the magnets. They arrived the next day and I mounted them to the outer ring of the centrifugal rotor.

All that was left to do was to install the battery and work the wire fencing into a cone-like shape, not unlike that of a pilot’s cabin. It would cover the upper part of the traveler’s seat like a cage. I brought the rotor out back. The storage area was freezing. I was wearing fingerless gloves and within ten minutes in there, I couldn’t feel my fingertips and had to go back to the shop to stand in front of the stove. The light wasn’t great either and I had to wear my head lamp all the time. When I finally set the rotor into the center of the magnetic field, I didn’t expect it to hold. The shape I had forged wasn’t perfect, rudimentary at best. But when I very slowly let go of it, the rotor held its position in the center of the magnetic circle.

I welded the hinges onto the cabin top and connected them to the chassis. To get into the seat, one had to move one side of the cage up and climb inside. It could then be closed from the inside. But I yet had to climb into the cabin. I had thought about it a few times but I never did.

That Friday after school, I went to the store to work. It was very busy in there. I never realized how many people buy Christmas gifts in a hardware store, but there were a lot of sons and daughters who were there with their mothers buying last minute gifts for their dads. They were buying power drills and wrench sets and multi-function tools.

I don’t remember ever having felt sorry for myself up until that day. I was angry at them for buying gifts that were so cheaply made. My dad always told me that the tools one uses should reflect the value of what you’re making. I don’t think he ever bought a cheap tool in his life. In my mind, they were buying those gifts because they didn’t know what else to give. I could have come up with a dozen items to buy for my father that day. He needed a new handkerchief. His old one had holes in it from being washed so many times that the fabric had thinned out. He could use a couple of cans of Worker’s Miracle heavy-duty hand cream because the skin on his hands would crack periodically. So much so that he sometimes slept with gloves on, his hands thickly covered with cream. There were those thermal socks he really liked, and he could always use a new pair of leather gloves. He was always wearing his until they would literally fall off his hands during work.

I didn’t realize that tears were running down my face until Paul gently put his hand on my shoulder.