Jeffrey Carver - Eternity's End

A heartbeat later, a similar homesickness hit Legroeder, as if his own homeworld might be hidden somewhere below.

Something’s there. I feel it, Deutsch said quietly from the keel position. For a moment, Legroeder could not identify the emotion disguised by Deutsch’s metallic voice. And then he had it: fear.

Why fear?

What do you see, Freem’n?

Not sure. Not sure.

Legroeder peered, but could see nothing to be afraid of. What does it look like? I don’t see anything at all .

Not sure. Shadows. Just a glimpse of something. Gone now, said Deutsch. His voice reverberated with increasing fear.

I felt it, too, said Palagren. A presence. I don’t know what . He seemed to be catching some of Deutsch’s fear, overlaid with a deep and troubling need. Do we dare go closer?

Deutsch tensed perceptibly at the suggestion.

Let’s be careful here, said Legroeder. What do we hope to find?

Movement, Palagren said. If there is movement…

Then we shouldn’t turn away from it, Legroeder thought. But that doesn’t mean we should plunge right in, either. All right, he said. But cautiously .

It felt as if the image simply swelled up to engulf him. It was dark and mysterious, drawing him into something beautiful and exciting…

With a rush of memory, he felt himself becoming aroused as the shadows resolved into a powerful image of Tracy-Ace/Alfa, unclothed, reaching out, open to him at her center, eyes filled with inexpressible longing. Legroeder fell toward the image with a muted groan, unable to resist the hunger…

What’s this? Ker’sell hissed, wheeling around to glare at him.

With a jerk of recognition, Legroeder tried to veer away from the thought; this was the last thing he wanted any of the others in the net to see. He strove to banish it, but Tracy-Ace was moving toward him, fingers closing around his shoulder blades, mouth closing on his…

Exactly as I thought! Ker’sell hissed, his anger flaring in the net like a pale, crackling flame.

No—it’s not—! Legroeder protested as he struggled to change the image. Did Palagren and Deutsch see it, too? (Help me!) he whispered to the implants.

// Initiating change, // they answered, and began a swift reweaving of the image.

Tracy-Ace was transformed in an eyeblink into another woman…

(Not you!) he whispered, as the beautiful, raven-haired pirate from DeNoble beckoned to him, augments flickering with sinister delight. (Christ, not Greta!)

// Changing again… //

(Just help me wipe it—!)

There was a flicker, and the image changed abruptly. The female form turned into a luminous wire figure and spun away from him, moving out across the darkness with a final sparkle. Legroeder gasped in relief.

I’m not sure I understand what’s happening here, Palagren said slowly, as though rousing himself from a daze.

Ker’sell was still hissing, but his outrage seemed to ebb as he was distracted by changes in the scene below. The spiderweb pattern of lighted cities was turning into a cyber-landscape of cyan and crimson webbing suspended over black, illuminated from within by speeding pulses of sapphire and orange. They were dropping toward it as though moving through an intelnet. We must not fly through this! Ker’sell cried.

Legroeder reacted with annoyance. Why not? Does anyone else see a problem?

Not here, said Deutsch.

Palagren glanced backward, gesturing in the negative.

Then what was Ker’sell alarmed at?

(What do you see?) Legroeder asked his augments.

// Analyzing… the activity below is very regular and rhythmic, as if all activities balance other activities. No net gain… //

Activity in the Sargasso… balancing and canceling…?

(Can you filter it, let me see the component movements?)

// Attempting… //

The augment matrix began to blur through its analyzing and filtering routines. At the same time, he felt the image begin to shift; one of the other riggers was changing it. Leave it a moment!

It’s making me dizzy, Ker’sell complained, continuing to change the image.

Legroeder reached to stop him. Why are you afraid? I need to know what’s happening. Then, a little too sternly: I’m in command here! Freem’n, help me!

Deutsch reacted in some unseen way, meshing his augmentation with the Kyber net to block the change.

No! Ker’sell protested. We can’t!

What are you afraid of? Legroeder shouted, his annoyance growing. Don’t keep trying to change it! Tell me!

The Narseil’s fear was palpable, radiating throughout the net. There are things down there—things out of time—past, future—all mixed up! I can’t see…

What things? Legroeder tried to probe the image, but it was all entangled with the Narseil’s fear. You’ve got to—

NO! Cracks in time! Splinters! Things moving—!

Ker’sell, said Palagren suddenly. Pull out of the tessa’chron! You’re losing objectivity!

Instead of answering, Ker’sell made a desperate attempt to bypass Deutsch’s blocks. The net quaked from his efforts.

This was becoming dangerous. You are relieved! Legroeder commanded. Ker’sell—leave the net .

What—? squawked the Narseil.

Get out of the net! At once!

For an instant, no one moved. Then Palagren said to his fellow Narseil, Follow his instructions .

Ker’sell abruptly vanished from the net.

Legroeder’s heart was pounding. He tried to concentrate on the landscape below, the virtual cyberimage of a world. All right . He gulped. Let’s all calm down . He took three deep breaths, focusing on the flickering movements. Palagren—get on the com and talk to Ker’sell. Find out what he saw, why he was so alarmed .

As Palagren obeyed, Cantha called from the bridge. We’re picking up a lot of strange quantum effects. I can’t quite follow it. And Ker’sell is quite upset. Captain wants to know, are things under control?

Legroeder was breathlessly trying to assess that very question. What had Ker’sell seen that the others could not? Was he just hallucinating, or were there really—?

Legroeder’s heart nearly stopped as he saw a shape begin to form among the threads of light below. What was that—and why did he feel alarmed by it, even before he knew what it was?

Legroeder, are you doing something? Deutsch asked worriedly.

Not intentionally. I’ve got my implants trying to sort out energy flows that are canceling each other …

Well, yeah—so am I, Deutsch said. But I’m not getting anywh—

His words broke off as the new image suddenly came to life. An enormous, spiderlike thing rose up out of the crisscrossing threads of light. Its body was an illuminated shape of transparent glass. It was moving across the landscape with a slow, undulating movement. Streaming out from it were faint wavelets in the Flux, moving backward like the wake of a boat.

What is that? Palagren whispered in fascination. Is it alive?

Legroeder shrugged, watching it with a creeping horror. He struggled to control his emotions; he didn’t know where they were coming from. Look at the wake moving back from it. Is that canceling its energy?

Let’s find out, Deutsch said darkly, as if disapproving of this strange manifestation.