Singh hurried on. “You’ve all been briefed on what’s happened to Choong, naturally. What we can’t figure out yet is why he’s done it. We’re analysing the confidential psycho-medical reports Mr Ho brought from Hong Kong, but till we’ve done so we can only speculate. Before today I’d have said the reason for setting up a catapathic grouping was the same for which any non-telepathist may go into fugue — to escape an unbearable crisis in real life. All our data, however, point to Choong being excellently adjusted, to his work, his private life, his talent… Yes, Miss Moreno ?”
“Do we really have to prolong this conference?” the woman said brittlely. Howson tensed. For all her careful control, a leakage of indisputable alarm was reaching him. “There’s only one course of action open, and the sooner it’s tackled, the better!”
Lockspeiser slapped the table with his palm. “Great! Will someone tell me what action ? I’d never checked up on this—this catapathic thing before I heard about Choong. Seems to me he’s blocked every way of reaching him — hasn’t he ?”
“What has to be done is this,” Howson said in a voice as shrill and hard as a scream. “Somebody has to follow him into fantasy. Somebody has to risk his own sanity to work out the rules by which his universe operates — to sort out from ten real personalities and God knows how many schizoid secondaries the ego of the telepathist — to make the fantasy so uninhabitable that from sheer disgust he withdraws the links between himself and the others and reverts to normal perception.”
He raised his eyes to meet Miss Moreno’s directly. She gazed steadily back as he finished, “And it’s not easy!”
“Did I say it was?” A hint of a flush deepened the olive tan of her cheeks.
“You said the sooner we tackled Choong the better.” Howson parodied a bow of invitation. “You’re welcome! For one thing, you have to learn your subject by heart first. If you don’t, he can hide from you behind an infinite succession of masks, until you’re too angry to out-think him, or too worn out to care, or — or too fascinated…” He swallowed and licked his lips, still looking towards Miss Moreno but no longer seeing her. “For another thing, while the body retains its energy reserves, an intruder has to slither in or not enter at all. If he’s clumsy and obvious, he meets the combined resources of the participants head-on, and they deny his existence as they’ve denied their own bodies. This time there are ten in the grouping, and you may bet that Choong hasn’t invited nincompoops and milksops to share his dreams! And lastly—” He checked. They waited for him, the pause becoming like the interval between the lightning and the thunder.
“And lastly,” Howson repeated very slowly, “Choong isn’t an inadequate personality on the run.”
Then why? Why? WHY?
He left them to get on with it after that. There were only the peripheral questions to settle, and it didn’t matter who asked which; they were all predictable.
“Can’t their resistance be lowered — by drugs, maybe ?”
“Not by drugs. An electric shock to the organ of Funck is sometimes helpful. But any depressant we used would affect the motor functions — the heart, the breathing reflex — as well as the higher centres involved in imagination. We have nothing Chat selective on the nervous system.”
“Well — prosthetic hearts, lungs?”
“No good until the telepathic linkage is already broken. Prior to that, they’d welcome it. It would mean that much less demand from their bodies, and the natural functions might cease for good.”
“Does physical separation make any difference?”
“They use telepathists to communicate with Mars. I hope that answers your question!” Singh was getting edgy; his mind wasn’t on the questioner, but on the absent Howson, wondering if he were eavesdropping from elsewhere in the building. He was, of course. He couldn’t resist it.
Sensing the growing impatience of the director in chief, the others changed their minds about asking more questions, and Lockspeiser came straight to the point.
“All right, Dr. Singh! All that remains to be settled is this: will Dr. Howson tackle the job, and what are his chances of success in a reasonably short time?”
I wish I knew… But Singh masked that thought skilfully; maybe not even Miss Moreno detected it. He said aloud, “As to tackling the job — I’m sure he will. As to succeeding in a reasonably short time — he has an unbroken record of success in his previous cases, and few of his cures took more than forty-eight hours once they got started. Mark you, the ground has to be prepared, as he pointed out; he has to learn his patient from birth on before he enters the fantasy.”
“Fair enough,” Lockspeiser grunted, and rose to his feet.
But Miss Moreno lingered, catching Singh’s eye, and spoke when the door had closed behind Ho and Lockspeiser.
“I’m going to put that question again, Dr. Singh, if you don’t mind. It’s essential that we don’t gamble in this matter. Are you sure Dr. Howson will get Choong back ?”
Instantly, rage, as much as Pandit Singh ever allowed himself. And, spoken aloud: ” Don’t let yourself say or even think that! Damnation, I’ve worked with Gerry for eleven years. I’ve seen him develop from a frightened, shy, retarded adolescent into a capable — hell, a brilliant! — therapist. His mind’s as keen as a scalpel. I know that — how is it you don’t ? You’re a telepathist yourself, aren’t you ?”
There was a moment of chill. Eyes closed, rocking a little on his special chair, Howson waited to feel Singh hear the answer. He had no wish to investigate Miss Moreno’s mind if she had refused him contact previously.
Then: “How did you know ? My office was under orders not to tell you. I think I made it pretty clear to Howson that I—”
“I didn’t have to be told!” Singh waved the words aside with an impatient gesture. “I’ve seen better than two hundred telepathists, sick and well, trained and novice. I still want an answer, though. How is it you don’t know that Gerry is the one and only living man who can get Choong back ?”
“Because—” There was a pause, coloured by the gathering of will-power towards a decision. “Because Choong scares me, if I’ve got to be frank! Ever since Vargas discovered the catapathic linkage, out of — I don’t know — frustration, maladjustment… Oh, skip that. Ever since, anyway, it’s been a standing temptation to all of us. You’re probably an exception if you’ve worked with so many telepathists, but most people imagine the talent is absolutely rewarding and satisfying. For all the careful propaganda to the contrary, they get jealous.” The words were bitter now. “Well, a telepathist can be frustrated, or depressed, or lose heart. And any of us could say at any time, ‘Let the world go to blazes! I can make my own!’ But we’re held back. We think, ‘It’s the weaklings who give in !’
“But Choong has done it now. A weakling? Him? Never! He apparently went into fugue by simple choice, in full possession of his faculties. Is that where I’m going to end up ? Or Howson ? Or all of us ? I’ve been refusing rapport with Gerry Howson, doctor. I know it’s upsetting him. But you see… I’m afraid that if I find he’s as tempted as I am, and if he finds I’m tempted, we’ll have lost not only Choong, but him, and me as well.”
Singh had no answer. He merely bowed his head.
So there it was, in all its nakedness: the fear. Abruptly Howson didn’t dislike Miss Moreno any longer. She had meant well. She had simply not realized that it was more help to him to know that his terror was shared, rather than a product of his individual plight.
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