To his surprise, Sasaki smiled warmly. “Then come.”
He drew a hard breath. “No,” he said. “I can’t.”
“Explain?”
“There’s someone else who belongs here before I do. A friend. Daniel Keith. He works in Selection—a BC-positive. He’d be up here now if it wasn’t for me.” He was fighting with tears. “If you’re going to give me a discretionary space, I—you have to let me give it to him.”
She was studying him closely. “Mikhail, do you know anything about this?”
“Keith was on the list,” he said. “He was sent to Prainha because of contact with Christopher. He’s under arrest there.”
“He was clear except for his friendship with this man?”
“Yes.”
She nodded, looking into Christopher’s eyes. “You don’t know how extraordinary I find it that you would give up your place to your friend.”
“I made him a promise.”
“Even so, that would be rare selflessness, even here.” She sat forward in her chair. “I think that we can find two places as easily as one.”
A shuddery sob escaped through the smile that sprang onto Christopher’s face. He pressed his palms together almost as though praying, and puffed away the rush of discordant emotion in hoarse breaths.
Rising, she smiled and touched his shoulder. “I will give you some time. Then there will be much more to say.”
He twisted in his chair as she started away. “You had me tested for the Chi Sequence. On Takara. Didn’t you?”
“That was the question I expected first,” she said. “Yes.”
“What am I?”
“Young,” she said. “But you will grow.” Guiding Dryke ahead of her, she started again for the door.
Christopher stood and called after them. “That’s not enough,” he said.
She turned and looked back. “Most of those who will make this trip will know no more.”
Shaking his head, he said, “I still need to know—do I belong here?”
Her gaze appraised him. “Not if you still need that question answered by me.”
He considered that for a long time, then laughed a little laugh, the joke a silent secret. “No. I suppose I don’t. But did any of us really have a choice? Did you?”
“No,” she said. “And still, I did what I wanted.”
“I don’t understand.”
“Do you know T. E. Lawrence?”
“A little.”
“The epigraph from Seven Pillars .” She quoted, “ ‘I loved you, so I drew these tides of men into my hands and wrote my will across the sky in stars, to earn you Freedom—’ ”
“Yes,” Christopher said, throat suddenly tight, thinking not of Lawrence, nor of Sasaki. “I have one more question.”
She waited.
“For him,” Christopher said, looking at Dryke.
Dryke met his gaze with a look absent of apology—which, for the first time, Christopher could accept. “What?”
“Where is my father?”
There was only the briefest hesitation. “Where we found him.”
Eleven days later, fulfilling a promise by Sasaki, an Allied screamer took Christopher down to the ridge.
It promised to be his last hour on Earth, and he had hoped Loi could meet him there and share it. He had envisioned a tidy closure—fierce, fervent hugs, murmured I love you’s , blessings and forgiveness. But it was not to be. The day before, when he called her to ask, he found her half a world away in Osaka, promoting a new timesculpt, arranging for an exhibition. She could not get away.
Her regret seemed sincere, but he could not tell her that there would be no more chances. She already knew he was leaving— he had been transferring his libraries up from the housecom all week, and a Project gofer had been by to retrieve Claudia and his other possessions. He was moving on, and so was Loi, and if it was not tidy, it was still going to be all right, in time.
Just as it was somehow right that he had ended up coming to the ridge alone.
Overhead, clouds like black lace curled down to form a dome. The house was little more than ashes, and the ashes were already dotted with green fronds. Christopher moved slowly across the charred foundation, marking where each room had been, toeing the ashes here and there but finding nothing he recognized, much less anything he wanted. Hands buried in his pockets, he wandered a short way into the woods, drawing in the familiar scents, looking skyward into the crown and watching the firs dance their slow dance in the wind, listening to the delicate sound dead needles made falling to the soft carpet of the forest floor.
Then it was time to do what he had come there to do.
The grave marker had been made on Takara, formed of the compacted lunar soil used as satland shielding, etched with energy captured from the Sun. In silence, Christopher carried the heavy tablet from the screamer and placed it in the wet ashes above his father’s tomb.
JEREMIAH MCCUTCHEON, it said.
Non Omnis Moriar.
“Good-bye,” said Christopher. And as the rain began and his tears ran, Loi, his father and the verdant hills all released him with their blessing.
UAG STOP
For one day short of five weeks, Memphis nursed its wounds, real and feigned, in a polar orbit high enough to shrink the blue-white globe below almost to the size of a memory.
Inside, training continued as time and space allowed, with impromptu classes held at all hours, all over the ship. With the manifest at 218 over the design maximum of 12,000, staff and citizenry both faced relentless settling-in pains, as though the ship were a shoe and a half size too small. But, in an unfolding miracle, each day Memphis seemed to grow larger, as its inhabitants learned where elbows rubbed and how best to use the spaces that they had.
While the techs and mechs tuned the ship’s systems, the counselors tried to tune its community. Nearly two hundred Selection mistakes were quietly corrected before the sailing day arrived, each case reviewed by Sasaki before the offenders were sent down to Takara for holding. A hundred more went out on their own through the door that Sasaki held open for them to the very last.
But at last the ship was ready, and the door irrevocably closed. There was no announcement— Memphis was still officially disabled, departure indefinitely postponed—and yet somehow there were anticipations in the ether. On the day that Memphis sailed, 56,000 massed in London at a Muslim prayer rally aimed at pulling the starship back down from the sky. In the hour Memphis sailed, a judge in Delaware granted an injunction barring the starship from leaving and ordering Allied to show that the son of Mr. and Mrs. Bellamy of Wilmington, missing now for nearly two months, was not aboard.
But neither the power of prayer nor the power of law would be enough to stay the captain’s will or still the starship’s drives. And so, in the minutes before Memphis sailed, two friends spoke one last time across a void wider in space than in spirit.
“I’ve already written my essay for tomorrow’s History Today ,” said Thomas Tidwell from his house in Halfwhistle. “Do you want to hear how it begins? ‘The starship Ur left Earth in the sunlight, to children’s cheers and the sound of summer bands. The starship Memphis stole away in the night, in the silence of a pricking conscience.’ Nicely turned, don’t you think?”
“Well enough—but whose conscience?” said Sasaki from her suite on Memphis . “Mine is clear.”
“I use you only as a bullfighter uses the cape, to draw them in, unsuspecting. I go on to make many profound observations, the meaning of which will likely escape nine in ten listeners.”
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