Gene Wolfe - Nightside the Long Sun

“Bird, you must speak thus to Great Pas, the Father of the Gods.

“Bird, you must speak thus also to Sinuous Echidna, Great Pas’s consort. You must speak so to Scalding Scylla, to Marvelous Molpe, to Black Tartaros, to Mute Hierax, to Enchanting Thelxiepeia, to Ever-feasting Phaea, to Desert Sphigx, and to any other god that you may encounter in Mainframe—but particularly to the Outsider, who has greatly favored me, saying that for the remainder of my days I will do his will. That I abase myself before him.”

“No, no,” the night chough muttered, as it had in the market. And then, “Please, no.”

Silk pronounced the final words: “Have no speech with devils, bird. Neither are you to linger in any place where devils are.”

Grasping the frantic night chough firmly by the neck, he extended his gauntleted right hand to Maytera Rose, the senior among the sibyls. Into it she laid the bone-hilted knife of sacrifice that Patera Pike had inherited from his own predecessor. Its long, oddly crooked blade was dull with years and the ineradicable stains of blood, but both edges were bright and keen.

The night chough’s beak gaped. It struggled furiously. A last strangled half-human cry echoed from the distempered walls of the manteion, and the wretched night chough went limp in Silk’s grasp. Interrupting the ritual, he held the flaccid body to his ear, then brushed open one blood-red eye with his thumb.

“It’s dead,” he told the wailing women. For a moment he was at a loss for words. Helplessly he muttered, “I’ve never had this happen before. Dead already, before I could sacrifice it.”

They halted their shuffling dance. Maytera Marble said diplomatically, “No doubt it has already carried your thanks to the gods, Patera.”

Maytera Rose sniffed loudly and reclaimed the sacrificial knife.

Little Maytera Mint inquired timidly, “Aren’t you going to burn it, Patera?”

Silk shook his head. “Mishaps of this kind are covered in the rubrics, Maytera, although I admit I never thought I’d have to apply those particular strictures. They state unequivocally that unless another victim can be produced without delay, the sacrifice must not proceed. In other words, we can’t just throw this dead bird into the sacred fire. This could just as well be something that one of the children picked up in the street.”

He wanted to rid himself of it as he spoke—to fling it among the benches or drop it down the chute into which Maytera Marble and Maytera Mint would eventually shovel the still-sacred ashes of the altar fire. Controlling himself with an effort, he added, “All of you have seen more of life than I. Haven’t you ever assisted at a profaned sacrifice before?”

Maytera Rose sniffed again. Like her earlier sniff, it reeked of condemnation; what had happened was unquestionably Patera Silk’s fault, and his alone. It had been he and none other (as the sniff made exquisitely plain), who had chosen this contemptible bird. If only he had been a little more careful, a little more knowledgeable, and above all a great deal more pious—in short, much, much more like poor dear Patera Pike—nothing of this shameful kind could possibly have occurred.

Maytera Marble said, “No, Patera, never. May I speak with you when we’re through here, on another topic? In my room in the palaestra, perhaps?”

Silk nodded. “I’ll meet you there as soon as I’ve disposed of this, Maytera.” The temptation to berate himself proved too strong. “I ought to have known better. The Writings warned me; but they left me foolish enough to suppose that my sacrifice might yet be acceptable, even if our Sacred Window remained empty. This will be a salutary lesson for me, Maytera. At least I certainly hope it will be, and it had better be. Thank Phaea that the children weren’t here to see it.”

By this time Maytera Mint had nerved herself to speak. “No one can ever know the mind of the Outsider, Patera. He isn’t like the other gods, who take counsel with one another in Mainframe.”

“But when the gods have spoken so clearly—” Realizing that what he was saying was not to the point, Silk left the thought incomplete. “You’re right, of course, Maytera. His desires have been made plain to me, and this sacrifice was not included among them. In the future I’ll try to confine myself to doing what he’s told me to do. I know I can rely upon all of you to assist me in that, as in everything.”

Maytera Rose did not sniff a third time, mercifully contenting herself with scratching her nose instead. Her nose, her mouth, and her right eye were the most presentable parts of her face; and though they had been molded of some tough polymer, they appeared almost normal. Her left eye, with which she had been born, seemed at once mad and blind, bleared and festering.

While trying to avoid that eye, and wishing (as he so often had since coming to the manteion) that replacements were still available, Silk shifted the night chough from his left hand to his right. “Thank you, Maytera Rose, Maytera Marble, Maytera Mint. Thank you. We’ll do much better next time, I feel certain.” He had slipped off his sacrificial gauntlets; the hated bird felt warm and somehow dusty in his perspiring hands. “In the palaestra, in five minutes or so, Maytera Marble.”

“In here, Patera!”

Silk halted abruptly, nearly slipping as the wet gravel rolled beneath his shoes.

“In the arbor,” Maytera Marble added. She waved, her black-clad arm and gleaming hand just visible through the screening grape leaves.

The first fury of the storm had passed off quickly, but it was still raining, a gentle pattering that settled like a benediction upon her struggling beds of kitchen herbs.

We meet like lovers, Silk thought as he regained his balance and pushed aside the dripping foliage, and wondered for an instant whether she did not think the same.

No. As lovers, he admitted to himself. For he loved her as he had loved his mother, as he might have loved the older sister he had never had, striving to draw forth the shy smile she achieved by an inclination of her head—to win her approval, the approbation of an old sibyl, of a worn-out chem at whom nobody, when he had been small and there had been a lot more chems around, would ever have troubled to glance twice, whom no one but the youngest children ever thought interesting. How lonely he would have been in the midst of the brawling congestion of this quarter, if it had not been for her!

She rose as he entered the arbor and sat again as he sat. He said, “You really don’t have to do that when we’re alone, sib. I’ve told you.”

Maytera Marble tilted her head in such a way that her rigid, metal face appeared contrite. “Sometimes I forget. I apologize, Patera.”

“And I forget that I should never correct you, because I always find out, as soon as it’s too late, that you were right after all. What is it you want to talk to me about, Maytera?”

“You don’t mind the rain?” Maytera Marble looked up at the overarching thatch of vines.

“Of course not. But you must. If you don’t feel like walking all the way to the palaestra, we could go into the manteion. I want to see if the roof still leaks, anyway.”

She shook her head. “Maytera Rose would be upset. She knows that it’s perfectly innocent, but she doesn’t want us meeting in the palaestra, with no one else present. People might talk, you know—the kind of people who never attend sacrifices anyway, and are looking for an excuse. And she didn’t want to come herself, and Maytera Mint’s watching the fire. So I thought out here. It’s not quite so private—Maytera can see us through the windows of the cenoby—and we still have a bit of shelter from the rain.”