Gavin Smith: The Age of Scorpio

Cliodna reached down and ran a sharp black claw across Britha’s skin. Britha did not cry out. Her head wanted to burst and the claw wound seemed like nothing. Even through the war in her body and the agony in her head, even though she was slowly beginning to realise that some of the thoughts in her head were not her own, the thought that Cliodna would hurt her made all the strength that had carried her this far evaporate. She wanted to curl up and end it. If Cliodna wanted to then let her kill her.

Instead Britha got up unsteadily.

Cliodna threw Britha’s spear at her feet. ‘Kill me,’ she said quietly.

Quicksilver tears sprang from Britha’s eyes but she didn’t move. Cliodna darted forward and more slashes appeared in Britha’s flesh. The blood ran down her, dripped onto the flesh of the floor and was instantly absorbed.

‘Kill me,’ Cliodna said more loudly and licked her bloodied nails. Britha knew that the Otherworldly woman couldn’t help herself and shook her head.

Cliodna embraced Britha. Her skin was course and rough now, she felt jagged and sharp. She grabbed Britha’s hair and yanked her head back. ‘Kill me!’ Cliodna screamed in her face, breath smelling of meat, before sinking rows of teeth into the other woman’s shoulder and pushing sharp nails through her skin.

This time Britha screamed and pulled away, Cliodna’s fingers and teeth tearing her flesh.

Britha staggered back, sobbing. ‘I can’t!’ she screamed.

‘I can smell that monster’s scent on you,’ Cliodna growled. ‘Either kill me or I will kill you.’

‘You pushed me away!’ Britha screamed at her. She knew it wasn’t fair. Now more than ever it was evident that Cliodna had done it for Britha’s safety. Not only that, it would seem that Bress was more than a little responsible for Cliodna’s transformation.

‘I don’t want to live like this,’ Cliodna told her. ‘I only destroy. I am hanging on to what little is left of me. My nails are bloodied by the meat of my younger brothers and sisters!’ Britha knew she meant her and the other peoples of Ynys Prydein and beyond. ‘Soon I will be gone. I would rather I be killed by someone I loved, when I was capable of that. Better that than I become a terror to your people.’

‘I’m sorry but—’

‘Then I will kill you and forget my name and all that came with it.’

‘I can’t…’ Britha was begging Cliodna to understand.

‘You have no choice. It is your responsibility to stand between your people, all people, and the likes of me. Isn’t that what they taught you in the groves? I’m holding on as long as I can, but there is a red tide inside me.’ Britha was sure she could see tears mingling with the remaining drops of water on her lover’s face. ‘Please.’

The only way she could do it was to give in to the fire part of her that lived in her blood. To let the demon that lived in the spear have its way as her hand closed around its haft. Later she could tell herself that it wasn’t even her who wielded the spear that she pushed through her lover.

Britha finally managed to throw the red-tipped spear away from herself. The demon in the spear laughed as it showed her Cliodna’s death at her hands. She sank to her knees. She screamed as the pain returned. She could feel the thing crawling through the rip in the sky like it was a hole in the back of her mind.

She was in the same cave of flesh, with the same warm wind and rib-like arches of bone. She did not know how or why she had come back from the red rage. Behind her there were rents in the Muileartach’s flesh that she had dug with the spear in her frenzy.

Then she remembered the other voice. No , she decided, voice wasn’t the right word . Despite her magics allowing her to understand all other languages, there was no common language between her and the thoughts that she felt rather than understood, that had soothed her, called her back, though they themselves were filled with pain.

She reached for the Mother’s mind. The pain in there almost killed her immediately. It had already turned the Mother’s elder children insane. Sent them into the water to slay her younger children, to put them out of their misery. To her massive and very alien intellect it seemed the most merciful thing to do. Then the Mother was there in Britha’s mind, through the link in the blood given to her by Cliodna. The Mother tried to protect her from the pain and the suffering being sent to her by Crom Dhubh, but Britha was crawling across the floor of the cavern, screaming, wounds appearing on her flesh.

‘I can make it stop.’ The voice was like silk, low and mellifluous, somehow breaking through all the pain. Seductive, the voice offered what she needed.

He was so very tall. His skin was black. Not the very dark brown of Kush and his compatriots from the kingdoms across the sea far to the south. He looked like a tall and beautiful member of a long-forgotten race. His skin was the absence of light and colour. Naked, he knelt next to her.

She almost asked him to do it, to take the pain. Then the parasite in her mind recoiled from his power. Her mind, struggling to understand what the crystal was showing her, visualised it as lines of black energy crackling into him, which he turned into poison that bled into the Mother. The man did not just exist here and now, but stretched into other places which, although Britha could now see, she had no way of understanding. Crom Dhubh was not there. He was a man-shaped hole in the world. The nothingness inside that hole squirmed like maggots writhing over each other. Britha threw up.

‘It’s nearly over,’ he told her. She wanted to surrender to the voice but the crystal would not let her turn away from what he really was. Britha concentrated on the stray threads of his outline. She reached out to another place. It hurt. Like she had been snapped. She took a thread and pulled.

Crom Dhubh’s head rotated, breaking his neck. Bones splintered, piercing organs, flesh and skin. He fell to the ground, his body a wreck. He looked like a broken doll.

The energy stopped. The poison seeping from him stopped. Begrudgingly the crystal showed her the little part of Teardrop that it had jealously kept. Britha touched the Mother’s mind. Suddenly Britha could feel the pain and the terror of all those in the water. Being attacked and fed on by the Muileartach’s predatory elder children, by poisoned creatures released from corrupted wombs. It threatened to overwhelm her, but she held on to the mind of the Muileartach and the fragment of Teardrop as he taught her the mindsong.

Teardrop knew it as something else, some kind of instruction, but Britha recognised it for what it was. A complex and beautiful magical working designed to lull a god back to sleep.

She could feel the Muileartach reach out and call her elder children back home, sing her own song as she tried to soothe their fractured minds. As the pain receded, Britha started to feel her anger. Britha felt rather than saw writhing tentacles flick out and destroy black ships like a reflexive response to pain.

The organs that ran through her, organs possessing magics that Britha could barely understand, which could draw power from the stars in the night sky, glowing organs, which had opened the way for the Hungry Nothingness – they closed the way as the Mother fell asleep. The way collapsed. The tear closed and was gone, as if it had never existed. There was no sense of it at all, and the wound in her mind closed.

Only the connection with the sleeping god allowed her to cope with the pain.

There was a sound like dry twigs snapping. He did not so much seem to stand as rise before her. Britha looked up at Crom Dhubh.

‘I was dead and dry, full of dust when your people were brute animals,’ he said quietly, his impossibly deep voice carrying. She wondered if any of her people had lived.