Andrea Höst: Gratuitous Epilogue [Touchstone: Extras]

Wednesday, December 3

Home-making

Wow – feels like forever since I’ve written. December already. Kaoren asked me to start a new diary, for all I’m nowhere near finished reading him even the first one. But he’s right that I place less of a filter on myself in these diaries than I do in any conversation, and we both look forward to our reading sessions. I’m finding myself with a lot less time to sit about writing though, so he’ll have to make do with a monthly catch-up.

The past few weeks have been all about planning our Arcadian house, tweaking and finalising the rough design we’d blocked out with the program I gave Ys. Kaoren, with his usual efficiency, had carted out a drone and obtained a proper topographic scan of the site for the house – above the waterfall and curving down one side of the little hill. It was great to see how into the project he was: the kids aren’t the only ones who have been thinking long and hard about just what they’d like our home to be.

Beyond a shelf built into the bed, I left our bedroom’s design to Kaoren, since he has the best idea of what his Sights can cope with. I amused myself with a retreat room – an idea Kaoren liked and promptly copied for himself. We ended up with a stack of three octagons which weren’t quite sitting directly on top of each other. The bedroom is in the middle, on what would be the main floor of the building, with windows above the waterfall. There’s a side door to a stairwell up and down, as well as out to the patio. Kaoren’s retreat will be one floor down, and positioned toward the back, away from the central body of the house. It will be windowless with lots of shelving, and a rear exit to what will be a tiny sunken garden room where he can meditate. All those things in his quarters back on Tare will end up on the new shelves, presuming we ever open the way to Tare.

My retreat will be an eyrie, a kind of rooftop pagoda with windows in every direction, an excess of window seats to loll about in, and a door to a walkway across the top of the centre section of the house.

The centre of the building has the kitchen and the lounge and a workout room, and a couple of guest bedrooms and laundry and storage area and all that kind of practical stuff. The very large lounge opens on to a sprawling, multi-level patio overlooking the waterfall.

The far tier of the patio connects to the kids' domain, which will be the largest part of the house. Two stacks of octagons linked by bathrooms. I was logically thinking of one room for each of them, but this turned into quite a debate thanks to Sen’s insistence that Kaoren and I fill her life with babies. That isn’t going to happen any time soon, and definitely not in the numbers she would like. But because it was easy to do, we added another two spare rooms in the kids' area to appease her and cope with overflow guests.

Rye very definitely wanted the rear, lower room, opening onto the proposed back yard. This wasn’t simply copying Kaoren – he wants a garden of his own, to grow vegetables and keep pets. Sen decided she wanted the room beside his – I suspect that this is all about being closest to the action in the main lounge room, or perhaps whatever pets Rye produces. On top of these two rooms is a play room for the kids, which opens out on the rooftop walkway leading to my retreat, and also onto the kids' part of the patio, and the two spare bedrooms, which will overlook the back garden. Sen has decided to lay claim on these in the interim, so they won’t be lonely .

Ys and Lira opted for the top two rooms, which will be the highest point. The whole house will be sheltered by the mass of trees on the island, and partially shielded by the hill on the Pandora side, but with amazing views across the lake toward the water bird nesting grounds. Ys sectioned off her room into little roomlets, so that the bed isn’t visible, and there’s a sheltered study area – each section with its own set of windows. Lira, by contrast, didn’t want anything interrupting her ability to see out, and wanted stairs down the outside of the building to the upper garden.

Sen treats it all as a joyful game, with her playing princess, but Ys and Rye go through overwhelmed patches. They’re beginning to accept that we mean it about becoming a family, that we’re not going to change our minds, and that they’re important to us and warrant a room of their own, just the way they want it. Lira’s a more confusing case – she obviously grew up privileged and protected, but also terribly isolated. And she’s been having a bad spate of dreams about fading out of existence. Sometimes the planning sessions leave her angry and upset, because she’s not sure she’ll be here to see the house.

KOTIS Command has at least not objected to the idea of us moving. And, despite the enormous demand for construction professionals, we’ll have our design back from our chosen architect soon and have been able to tentatively line up construction dates. That’s a side-benefit of being Caszandra : something I vacillate between finding convenient and embarrassing. It’s not going to go away, so either I work with it or I practice my pouting.

At least the extra-special treatment seems to extend to all of the Setari – is a way of thanking them for putting their lives on the line. And there’s a lot of prestige for the architect and builders, too. I’m pleased with the architect, Tel Sevra, because our house plans haven’t appeared on the news. Yet.

I want to make the house happen sooner rather than later, particularly to give us all more outside life which doesn’t get reported within minutes. One decision I’ve yet to make is whether to employ someone to help with the cleaning – we’re going to try on our own at first, but it’ll be a big house and it might be a bit much for the two of us. While I don’t mind the kids having some minor chores to do, I don’t want them scrubbing bathrooms, or any of the other things I’ve been fortunate to have KOTIS staff doing for me. Still, we’ll have our own cleaning snot, which is, uh, a good thing, I guess.

Also on the staff front, Maze tells me I might want to consider some kind of assistant. On Tare the interface made it impossible for people to actually post things addressed to me. There’s a postal rule set up about unsolicited gifts to the Setari which has covered me as well – you need a verification code to send anything through the Taren postal system. The same set-up is in place here, but is a lot harder to manage, and the KOTIS support staff have had to deal with people just walking up as close to the building as they can get before greensuits intercept them, and leaving packages and presents for all of us. I’d never actually thought that through in detail, but of course Raiten’s fan club alone could probably fill a room each month. The island and Setari guards will make it harder for people to do that, but non-KOTIS staff are becoming more mobile and will eventually have their own boats and flyers. The presents are just people trying to be nice, but I guess if we started accepting them we’d need a house twice as big to put it all in. And KOTIS is still blocking random mail and invitations and things, which is convenient, if impolite. But hiring someone to deal with that means less privacy.

Among the pile of things I’d like to keep private is the treatment Ys and Rye have been going through to remove the scarring from their backs. We celebrated its conclusion by going to the island for a swim (Maze and Alay as our escorts this time), and even though Ys and Rye still wore the same shorts and shirt ensemble, I noticed a certain air of freedom which I think may be because now there’s no risk of anyone seeing the scars through their wet clothes.