Paula Hawkins - Into the Water

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‘Julia, it’s me. I need you to call me back. Please, Julia. It’s important …’ In the last days before her death, Nel Abbott called her sister.
Jules didn’t pick up the phone, ignoring her plea for help.
Now Nel is dead. They say she jumped. And Jules has been dragged back to the one place she hoped she had escaped for good, to care for the teenage girl her sister left behind.
But Jules is afraid. So afraid. Of her long-buried memories, of the old Mill House, of knowing that Nel would never have jumped.
And most of all she’s afraid of the water, and the place they call the Drowning Pool …
With the same propulsive writing and acute understanding of human instincts that captivated millions of readers around the world in her explosive debut thriller,
, Paula Hawkins delivers an urgent, satisfying read that hinges on the stories we tell about our pasts and their power to destroy the lives we live now.

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I told the truth. I bought the pills on Mum’s card because Katie asked me to, and neither of us had any clue that they were bad for you. Or I didn’t, in any case, and if Katie did she never said anything to me about it.

‘You don’t seem particularly concerned,’ DS Morgan said, ‘that they might have contributed to Katie’s negative state of mind at the end of her life?’

I nearly bit through my tongue. ‘No,’ I told her, ‘I’m not concerned about that. Katie didn’t do what she did because of any pills.’

‘So why did she?’

I should have known she’d seize on that, so I kept talking. ‘She didn’t even take that many. A few, probably not more than four or five. Count the pills,’ I said to Sean. ‘I’m pretty sure the order was for thirty-five. Count them.’

‘We will,’ he said. Then he asked, ‘Did you supply pills to anyone else?’ I shook my head, but he wouldn’t leave it at that. ‘This is important, Lena.’

‘I know it is,’ I told him. ‘That was the only time I bought them. I was doing a favour for a friend. That was all it was. Honestly.’

He leaned back in his chair. ‘All right,’ he said. ‘The thing I’m struggling to understand is why Katie would want to take pills like that at all.’ He looked at me, and then at Julia, as though she might know the answer. ‘It’s not as though she was overweight.’

‘Well, she wasn’t thin,’ I said, and Julia made a strange noise, like a cross between a snort and a laugh, and when I looked at her she was looking back at me like she hated me.

‘Did people say that to her?’ DS Morgan asked me. ‘At school? Were there comments made about her weight?’

‘Jesus!’ I was finding it so hard not to lose my temper. ‘No. Katie wasn’t being bullied. You know what? She used to call me skinny bitch all the time. She used to laugh at me, because, you know …’ I got embarrassed because Sean was looking right at me, but I’d started so I had to finish, ‘Because I’ve got no boobs. So she called me skinny bitch and sometimes I replied with fat cow, and neither of us meant it .’

They didn’t get it. They never do. And the problem was, I couldn’t explain it all properly. Sometimes, I didn’t even understand myself, because although she wasn’t thin, it really didn’t bother her. She never talked about it the way the others did. I’ve never had to try, but Amy and Ellie and Tanya did. Always low-carbing or fasting or purging or whatever-the-fuck. But Katie didn’t care, she liked having tits. She liked the way her body looked, or at least she always used to. And then – I honestly don’t know what it was – some stupid comment on Insta or a dumb remark from some Cro-Magnon at school and she got weird about it. That was when she asked me for the pills. But by the time I’d got them, she seemed to be over it – and she said they didn’t work anyway.

I thought the interview was over. I thought I’d made my point, and then DS Morgan went off on a completely different tangent, asking me about the day Louise came round just after Katie died. I was like, yes, of course I remember that day. It was one of the worst days of my life. I still get upset just thinking about it.

‘I’ve never seen anything like that,’ I told them, ‘like the way Louise was that day.’

She nodded, then she asked – all earnest, all concerned, ‘When Louise said to your mother that “she wouldn’t rest until she saw Nel pay”, how did you take that? What did you think she meant by that?’

I lost it then. ‘She didn’t mean anything , you fucking moron.’

‘Lena.’ Sean was glaring at me. ‘Language, please.’

‘Well, I’m sorry, but for God’s sake! Louise’s daughter had just died, she didn’t even know what she saying. She was crazy .’

I was ready to leave, but Sean asked me to stay. ‘I don’t have to though, do I? I’m not under arrest, am I?’

‘No, Lena, of course you’re not,’ he said.

I spoke to him, because he understood. ‘Look, Louise wasn’t serious. She was totally hysterical. Off her head. You remember, don’t you? What she was like? I mean, of course she was saying all sorts of things, we all were, I think we all went a bit mad after Katie died. But – for God’s sake – Louise didn’t hurt Mum. Honestly, I think if she’d had a gun or a knife that day, maybe she would have. But she didn’t.’

I wanted to tell the whole truth. I really did. Not to the woman detective, not even to Julia, really, but I wanted to tell Sean. But I couldn’t. It would have been a betrayal, and after everything I’d done, I couldn’t betray Katie now. So I said all I could. ‘Louise didn’t do anything to my mother, OK? She didn’t. Mum made her own choice.’

I got up to go, but DS Morgan wasn’t done yet. She was looking at me, this strange expression on her face, like she didn’t believe a word I’d been saying, and then she said, ‘You know what strikes me as odd, Lena? You don’t seem remotely curious as to why Katie did what she did, and why your mother did what she did. When someone dies like this, the question everyone asks is why . Why would they do that? Why would they take their own lives when they have so much to live for? But not you. And the only reason – the only reason – I can think of for that, is because you already know.’

Sean took me by the arm and led me from the room before I could say anything.

Lena

JULIA WANTED TO drive me home, but I told her I felt like a walk. It wasn’t true, but a) I didn’t want to be in the car alone with her, and b) I saw Josh, on his bike, across the road, going round and round in circles, and I knew he was waiting for me.

‘’Sup, Josh?’ I said when he came riding over. When he was about nine or ten, he started saying ‘’Sup?’ to people instead of hello, and Katie and I never let him forget it. Usually he laughs, but this time he didn’t. He looked frightened. ‘What’s wrong, Josh? What’s happened?’

‘What were they asking you about?’ he said in this little whis-pery voice.

‘It’s nothing, don’t worry. They found some pills that Katie took and they think that they – the pills, I mean – might have something to do with … what happened. They’re wrong, obviously. Don’t worry.’ I gave him a little hug and he pulled away, which he never does. Usually he’ll use any excuse to have a cuddle or hold my hand.

‘Did they ask you about Mum?’ he said.

‘No. Well, yeah, I suppose. A little. Why?’

‘I don’t know,’ he said, but he wouldn’t look at me.

‘Why, Josh?’

‘I think we should tell,’ he said.

I could feel the first spots of warm rain on my arms and I looked up at the sky. It was deathly dark, a storm coming over. ‘No, Josh,’ I said. ‘No. We’re not going to tell.’

‘Lena, we have to.’

‘No!’ I said again, and I grabbed his arm more tightly than I meant to and he yelped like a puppy when you step on its tail. ‘We made a promise. You made a promise.’ He shook his head and so I dug my nails into his arm.

He started to cry. ‘But what good does it do now?’

I let go of his arm and put my hands on his shoulders. I forced him to look at me. ‘A promise is a promise, Josh. I mean it. You do not tell anyone.’

He was right, in a way, we weren’t doing any good. There was no good to be done. But still, I couldn’t betray her. And if they knew about Katie, they’d ask questions about what happened afterwards, and I didn’t want anyone to know about what we did, Mum and I. What we did, and what we didn’t do.

I didn’t want to leave Josh like that, and I didn’t want to go home anyway, so I put my arm around him and gave him a comforting squeeze, and then I took his hand. ‘Come on,’ I said to him. ‘Come with me. I know something we can do, something that’ll make us feel better.’ He turned bright red and I started laughing. ‘Not that , you dirty boy!’ He laughed too then, and wiped the tears from his face.

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