Linda Castillo - Cops and…Lovers?

"Actually, I took the one you recommended."

"Good. I think you'll find Mr. Barton is a fair landlord." Nick wasn't sure why he felt so off-kilter. In the ten years he'd been chief of police, he'd never felt awkward with his deputies. What was it about Erin McNeal that had him acting like a tongue-tied juvenile?

Disgusted by his behavior, he rose and walked to the metal file cabinet behind his desk, where her uniforms, service revolver and badge lay in a neat pile. He scooped it up and set it on the desk between them.

"You and I are riding together today," he said. "We'll be together until your probationary period is up in thirty days. I'll show you around town. Point out the trouble spots, the city limits, the landmarks. Clyde Blankenship's horses got out this morning. We'll drive by and make sure he fixed the fence. He's over ninety years old and doesn't always do a good job."

"Horses?"

Nick frowned at her, wondering if the lady hotshot cop from Chicago considered herself above such menial law enforcement tasks. "School started last week. Hector drew crosswalk duty. We'll drive by and see how he's doing."

Erin nodded.

"There's a locker room next to the water cooler," he said. "You can change there. Locker number five."

"It'll just take me a minute to change clothes."

The image of her slipping out of that skirt came to mind unbidden, but he ruthlessly shoved it away. "Assignments and shifts are posted weekly on the board above the time clock."

Rising, she gathered her uniforms, revolver and badge from his desk. "How many other deputies work for you?" she asked.

"Hector and two part-timers." Nick caught a whiff of her sweet, exotic scent-and nearly lost his train of thought. This was becoming downright annoying.

He studied her, trying not to notice the softness of her mouth or the delicate slant of her jaw. "Any questions?" he asked, rising.

"I'll just get dressed."

Rounding his desk, he started toward the main office, starkly aware that she was behind him. "Locker room's there." He motioned toward the hall leading to the rear of the building.

"I'll be five minutes."

"Take your time."

Erin 's hands shook as she stepped into her uniform slacks and tucked in her shirt. Her service revolver lay on the bench beside her, reminding her that after six months and four interviews she was once again a police officer. She should have been ecstatic now that she was finally getting her life back on track. But the reality of what she faced was as disconcerting as it was thrilling. The responsibility of it pressed down on her like a lead weight. As she slipped the revolver into her holster, she tried not to think about whether she'd have the guts to use it.

Erin refused to second-guess herself. Not when she'd already passed the point of no return.

Smoothing her shirt, she picked up her extra uniform and started for the door, all too aware that her heart was pounding. "You can do this," she murmured, determined not to let the uncertainty rattle her.

The sound of a child's voice coming from the outer office broke into her thoughts. Curious, she continued down the hall and stopped on entering the main office. A little girl with hair the color of a wheat field sat at Hector's desk, tugging a coloring book from her backpack. She looked to be only eight or nine years old, but possessed the most adult eyes Erin had ever seen on a child.

Nick had come out of his office and was walking toward the girl. "Why aren't you in school, honeybunch?" he asked.

The child shrugged. "I wanted to ride with you today."

"It's a schoolday."

"I don't want to go to school today."

Stooping, he pressed a kiss to her forehead, then stood back and regarded her with an expression of stern amusement. "I thought you liked school this year. Isn't today library day?"

"Mrs. McClellan doesn't like me."

"Doesn't like you? What's not to like?" He tousled her hair, his hand lingering. "Just between you and me, Mrs. McClellan told me you're her favorite librarian."

The little girl looked at the coloring book spread out on the desk. "Can't I just stay here awhile? I brought my coloring book, see? I'll be quiet."

"Honey, I'd love to spend the day with you, but you can't miss any more school and I've got work to do." Digging in her backpack, he pulled out a box of colorful markers. "Who brought you here to the station?"

The little girl leaned over and shot Erin a less-than-friendly look over Nick's shoulder. "Who's that lady?"

Nick glanced at Erin, then turned back to the girl. "Her name's Erin. She's my new deputy-"

"That's a boy's name."

"Steph, I want you to tell me who brought you here."

"No one." She selected a marker and began to color. "I just left. Mr. Finn sent me to the office for talking to Kimmy Bunger during attendance. The hall monitor was in the bathroom, and nobody was paying any attention, so I just left."

Erin saw Nick's shoulders go rigid. "Wait a minute," he said firmly. "You just left? An adult didn't drive you here?"

"It's not that big a deal, Daddy. The school's only two blocks away."

"I'm afraid leaving school without permission is a big deal, Steph. You know I'm going to have to call the school and talk to the principal again, don't you?" Gently easing the marker from her fingers, he rounded her chair and pulled it back from the desk.

That was when Erin noticed the wheelchair. She stared, trying valiantly to curb the resulting shock.

"You know you're not allowed to leave school without permission," Nick said, picking up the phone and punching in numbers. "Why didn't you tell your teacher you wanted to go home? Why didn't you call me?"

In some small corner of her mind, Erin heard him ask for the principal. She stood frozen in place, telling herself the sight of the wheelchair hadn't upset her, hadn't made her remember.

Images from the night of the shooting burst forth in her mind's eye. She fought the flashback, but it pressed down on her, a solid weight of fear that stole her concentration and threatened her control. Danny lying on the floor in a pool of blood. The churning in her gut. The smell of gunpowder.

The folded uniform she'd been clutching slipped from her hands and fell to the floor in a heap. Nick looked up, his eyes narrowing. Terrified he would misinterpret her reaction, Erin quickly scooped up the fallen uniform, then backed into the relative safety of the hall. Her chest felt as if it was being squeezed by a giant vise, but she forced air into her lungs. She was going to be okay, she assured herself. It had been a while since she'd had a flashback, but they still came on occasion. Whenever a sound or smell or sight reminded her of the night she'd been shot, it all came rushing back…

Ordering herself to calm down, she smoothed the front of her uniform and watched Nick kneel to tie his daughter's shoe. The little girl wore a pink sweatshirt and matching pants, with polka-dot sneakers. It was a happy outfit, made for climbing trees and playing hopscotch. But Erin could plainly see by the look in this child's eyes that she wasn't happy. She certainly wasn't going to get up out of that wheelchair and play hopscotch anytime soon.

"Get your books and markers together, kiddo," he said. "I'm taking you home."

"I don't want to go home."

"It's either school or home," he said firmly. "I'll let you choose."

"Please, Daddy, I want to go with you."

Erin didn't miss the pain that knifed across Nick's features. Jaw clenched, he looked down at the floor, then slowly straightened, as if the effort cost him more energy than he had to spare. "Put your books and markers in your book bag, honeybunch. I'll take you home."

Huffing in displeasure, the little girl wheeled closer to the desk and started throwing markers one by one into her book bag.