Robert Goddard - Borrowed Time

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While out walking Robin Timariot encounters a woman, with whom he has an unforgettable conversation. On his return home, Timariot discovers the woman was raped and murdered and he becomes obsessed with the search for the truth.

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“What clue?”

Her gaze circled slowly round the room, from the window to where I was sitting. “You know, don’t you?”

“No. Tell me.”

“When Mummy left that afternoon, she said to me… We were standing by the car. She was ready to go. Hesitating a bit. She wouldn’t have normally. We’d said goodbye. And, anyway, it wasn’t supposed to be a lengthy parting. She said… I remember the words exactly. There’s no mistake. Sarah thinks I misheard. But I didn’t. I misunderstood. That’s what I did. She said: ‘I may not be back for quite a while, darling.’ I thought she meant she was going to stay with Sophie Marsden. To show the picture off to her. Well, she’d mentioned she might. So all I said was: ‘You’ll be with Sophie?’ And she thought for a moment. And then she replied: ‘Of course, darling. That’s where I’ll be.’ Then she kissed me and drove away.”

“I don’t see-”

“I testified in court that Mummy was quite specific about her plans. But she wasn’t. Not really. Otherwise she’d have phoned Sophie before setting off. She told me she was going to Kington to buy one of Oscar Bantock’s paintings. But at the end… as she was leaving… I think she meant to say something else. It was like… she knew she might never see me again.”

“Surely not.”

“If I hadn’t jumped to conclusions, she might have… And then there was the ring. I noticed her checking the finger she’d worn it on with her thumb. As if… she hadn’t lost it… but was checking… reassuring herself… that it wasn’t there.”

“A reflex. Nothing more.”

“What she never put into words… What I can’t exactly describe… You felt it too, didn’t you?”

“I’m not sure what you mean.”

“She was on the brink. She was about to step off. Into the void. She knew it. And still she stepped. Why?”

“I don’t know.” I rose and walked across to the window. She sat beneath me, looking where I was looking. Out into the blanketing greyness of the sky beyond the neighbouring rooftops. “Truly, Rowena, I don’t.” On an impulse, I crouched beside her chair and took her hand in mine. She let me do so, studying me gravely through those immense far-questing eyes. “I often think-like you, apparently-that there was something amiss, something adrift, that evening. She was… like a beautiful yacht in full sail with nobody at the helm… waiting for the breeze to pick up, the current to move her. I’ve never understood it. Never been sure I’m not investing what happened with too much significance because of what followed. I don’t think I am. I don’t think you are. But…”

She smiled with relief. “It means a great deal to me that I’m not completely alone, Robin. It means I’m not the victim of my own delusions after all. Unless we both are.”

“She wouldn’t have wanted you to brood like this. To suffer on her account.”

“I know.”

“She’d have wanted you to be happy. Wouldn’t she?”

“Oh yes.”

“Then can’t you be? For her?”

“But I am. Sometimes. Don’t you see? What I’ve lost isn’t happiness. It’s balance. Equilibrium.” Suddenly, her expression crumpled into tearfulness. She tensed, as if to suppress a sob, released my hand, set the mug down and sighed. “They never tell you that about suicide. The thought of it… can be so exhilarating. So tempting.” She shook her head. “But I’m over it now. There’s nothing in the least bit tempting about a stomach pump. Take my word for it.” At that she smiled. And so did I. “Let’s go for a walk, Robin. I haven’t been out since they released me from hospital. We can leave a note for Sarah.”

We walked out onto Observatory Hill, then circled back to the suspension bridge. She meant to cross it, I knew. To tease me with the classic suicide’s view of the gorge. To test whether I’d try to stop her. But if I did, some slender thread of trust would snap between us. So I let her walk ahead, running her fingers along the railing as she went, squinting up at the high curving cables, or down at the grey winding snake of the river. She stopped in the centre and I caught her up. To find her eyes wide with joy.

“It’s good to be alive,” she said, turning towards me. “Isn’t it?”

I nodded. “Yes. It is.”

“I thought so even on Monday. It’s just… for a moment… for an hour at most… death… or oblivion… seemed even more attractive.”

“But not any more?”

“No. The world’s too wonderful to give up. I haven’t had my fill of it yet.”

“You never will.”

“I hope not. Except… do you think Mummy might simply have… had enough of the world?”

“I’d say the exact reverse.”

“I’m sure you’re right. It’s funny, though. When I saw her… in that place… the mortuary… she looked so… very very beautiful.”

“She was beautiful when she was alive.”

“But even more so when she was dead. Her skin was so pale. Like… flawless alabaster. And so cold. When I touched her, she opened her eyes, you know.”

“What?”

“Oh, it was an hallucination, of course. A figment of my over-stressed imagination. But it seemed so real. And the oddest thing was… how happy she looked.” Rowena took a deep breath, then started back towards the Clifton side of the bridge. As I fell in beside her, she said: “One of the things I used to like about mathematics was the certainty. An answer was either right or wrong. And if it was right, it was absolutely right and always would be. First principles governed everything. Two plus two equalled four and could never equal anything else.”

“Surely that’s still the case.”

“In mathematics, perhaps. But not in life. The variables are too great. It would be possible to rerun the events of the seventeenth of July last year a hundred times within the same parameters and produce a hundred different results. Many of them would be similar, of course. But none would be identical. Not exactly. Some would be dramatically different. Almost unrecognizable. A lot of times-maybe a majority of times-Mummy wouldn’t die. Wouldn’t even be in danger. Just because of some tiny scarcely noticeable variation. Like what she said to me. Or to you. And what we said in reply.”

“But we can’t rerun those events. Any more than we can-or should-take responsibility for the fatal variation.”

“I know.” She looked round at me and smiled. “That’s why I’m going to stop trying to.”

Rowena stayed behind when Sarah drove me to the station early that evening. Sarah, indeed, encouraged her to on the grounds that she should take her convalescence seriously. She was so emphatic on the point, however, that I suspected another reason was at work: an eagerness to compare notes with me on her sister’s state of mind. And so it turned out. No sooner had we left Clifton than she proposed we stop on the way for a drink. There were plenty of later trains than the one I’d been aiming for, so I was happy to agree.

A hotel bar supplied the privacy Sarah was seeking. She insisted on buying the drinks, as if I merited some reward for coming so far. Perhaps my willing response to her call had struck her as unusually-even oddly-generous. She wasn’t to know how helpless I was to resist any summons emanating from her family. I couldn’t have begun to explain why I should be. But I was. What she might regard as altruism was in reality a compulsion.

“I think seeing you’s done Rowena some good. She seemed much more relaxed this afternoon.”

“I didn’t do very much. Apart from listen.”

“Perhaps not. But she thinks you’re the only one who can understand what she experienced the day Mummy died.”

“I can try to. Though I don’t share her belief that your mother somehow foresaw her death.”

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