S Bolton - Sacrifice

I forced myself to uncurl and start crawling. I went back the way I'd come, back towards the common room and kitchen. As my scent faded, the dogs began to calm. After a few more seconds I heard a male voice talking to them, soothing them.

The television in the common room was turned on and several of the men were gathered around it, watching with interest. With any luck it might distract them for a while. Also, whilst my recent encounter with the canine world had left me shaking violently, I realized the presence of dogs was good news; just so long as they remained locked up. If guard dogs provided the island's security, they might rely less on devices like alarms and cameras. Of course, once the dogs were loose, my life expectancy stood at around ten minutes.

The kitchen was empty, the smoker's window still open.

It was a stupid, ridiculous risk to even think about taking with most of the clinic's staff in the next room. Far better to creep back across the island, climb on to my boat and sail to Unst; try and convince Helen to come back here sooner than planned, to take Tronal by surprise. That way, I might just be alive when the sun came up. But would Dana?

Glancing round, I saw a tall bush and ran for it. Behind it, I unhooked my backpack and pulled off my waterproofs. Underneath were the scrubs I'd been wearing all day. I pulled a cap on to my head and tucked my hair up inside it. Seen quickly and at a distance, it was just possible I wouldn't set alarm bells ringing. I ran forward, paused to check the kitchen was still empty and climbed in.

The volume of the TV next door was turned up loud and I was pretty certain no one had heard me come in. I clambered over a steel worktop, dropped to the floor and listened hard: nothing but the low chanting of a sports crowd on the TV and an occasional expletive from the next room. I leaned over and pulled the window down until it was almost but not quite closed. With luck, anyone glancing at it would think it shut and locked. I crossed the kitchen and gently opened the door. The corridor was empty and I set off left, away from the common room. Looking up, I could see cameras tucked away in the corner between wall and ceiling. I just had to hope they weren't being monitored.

I walked slowly, silently, alert every second for the slightest noise that would tell me someone was approaching. Along the wall on my right-hand side were occasional windows showing a dim view of the internal courtyard. Across the courtyard was another lit and windowed corridor. It would not be easy to remain unseen. From the outside, the building had looked old, but once inside I didn't think it could be. It was just too regular, too clean and modern in its construction, the windows large and frequent. On my left were rooms. Most had closed doors, one with light shining under that I passed by quickly. Two had open doors and I glanced inside. The first was an office: desk, computer terminal, glass-fronted bookcase; the second was some sort of meeting room.

I came to the end of the corridor and found a door to my right leading out into the courtyard. On my left were the steel double doors of a large lift and a flight of stairs. I started to climb.

Seven steps up and the stairs made a 180-degree turn. There was a fire-door at the top. I opened it and glanced through. The corridor was narrow and windowless. Dim spotlights were evenly spaced along the low ceiling. I counted six doors along my right-hand side. Each had a small shuttered window. I slid back the first shutter.

The room beyond was dark but I could make out a narrow, hospital-style bed with tubular framing and a pale-coloured cabinet by its side. Also an easy chair and a small TV, mounted on the wall. Someone lay in the bed but the covers were pulled up high and I had no way of telling whether the someone was young or old, male or female, dead or alive.

I moved on to the next window. Same set-up. Except this time, as I watched, the figure in the bed moved, turning over and stretching before settling down again.

The next room was empty; so was the fourth.

There was light in the fifth room. A woman sat in the armchair, reading a magazine. She looked up and we made eye contact. Then she dropped her magazine, put both hands on the arms of her chair and pushed herself up. She was wearing pyjamas and a dressing gown. She was pregnant.

She came towards the door. Every nerve ending I had was on fire, but I knew if I ran now the game would be up. She opened the door and tilted her head slightly to one side.

'Hello,' she said.

All I could do was stare back. Creases appeared on her forehead and her eyes narrowed.

'Sorry,' I managed. 'Long day, four hours in theatre, brain not really functioning any more. How are you feeling?'

She relaxed and stepped back, inviting me into her room. I went in, closing the door behind me and making sure the window shutter was pulled across.

'I'm OK,' she said. 'Bit nervous. Mr Mortensen said he would give me something to help me sleep but I guess he's been busy.' She leaned back against the bed. 'We're still OK for tomorrow, aren't we?'

I forced myself to smile at her. 'Haven't heard anything to the contrary.'

'Thank Christ. I just want to get it over with now. I really need to get back to work.'

A termination. Dana had told me the clinic carried them out. This woman, at least, was here voluntarily.

'Have I seen you before?' she was asking me.

I shook my head. 'Don't think so. How long have you been here?'

'Five days now. I really need to get home. I thought it would just take twenty-four hours.'

'I've been away for a week,' I said. 'Just back on duty this afternoon. I haven't managed to look at your notes yet. Have there been complications?'

She sighed and pushed herself up so that she was sitting on the bed. 'Just about everything you can think of. Blood pressure sky- high, apparently, although it's never been a problem in the past. Sugar and protein in my urine. Traces of a viral infection in my blood, although why that should stop you going ahead is beyond me.'

It was beyond me too. It all sounded like complete nonsense. Something was starting to feel very wrong. I glanced at the notes pinned to the foot of her bed, found her name.

'Emma, can I have a quick look at your tummy?'

She lay back on the bed and pulled her dressing gown open. She was a striking-looking woman: probably in her late twenties, tall with vivid blonde hair showing just a fraction of dark roots. Her eyes were large and light brown in colour, her lips plump and very red, her teeth white and perfect.

I started to press my hands very gently on her abdomen. Immediately something kicked back. I glanced up at Emma but her face had tightened. She wouldn't make eye contact.

'What do you do for a living, Emma?' I asked her, as my hands travelled upwards.

She smiled. 'I'm an actress,' she said, with the air of someone who'd waited a long time to say those words and who hadn't quite got used to the thrill of doing so. 'I've just got a lead in the West End.' She named a musical I'd vaguely heard of. 'My understudy has been filling in but if I'm not back soon they might give her the job permanently.'

I finished my examination and thanked her. I was far from happy. I went back to the foot of the bed and picked up her notes again. On the second page I found what I was looking for. LMP: 3 November 2006. I stared at the tubular frame of the bedpost while I tried to do the calculation in my head. Then I flicked through the rest of the notes. I looked up. Emma was sitting up now and had been watching me. Her eyes looked cautious, her lips set straight.

'Emma, it says here your last menstrual period was on the third of November. Does that sound about right?' She nodded.

'Which would make you… about twenty-seven, twenty-eight weeks?'