Andy McNab - War torn

'You probably should sit inside, mate,' Dave said gruffly.

'Don't talk shit.' Jamie sorted out the belt for Streaky and edged Dave away from the machine gun. Dave watched him for a moment then the boss arrived at their side.

'When the fuck is the air support arriving?' Dave asked. 'Because we'll soon be standing here with nothing to throw at them but bottles of water.'

'We'll have to slow our rate of fire to make it last longer,' Weeks said.

'They'll notice and move in.'

'They're already moving in,' the boss shouted back, over the whoosh of an incoming RPG. 'If we get really low then we might have to try blowing up the IED and exiting forward over the bridge.'

'No!' Dave shouted back. 'They'll have left an IED on the other side too.'

Binman appeared from behind the Vector to help Jamie with the machine gun and Streaky returned to the fire fight with renewed energy.

'Slow your rate of fire!' Sol ordered him a few minutes later. Streaky nodded and paused and then forgot. Now the machine gun was back at work he tried to keep his rifle firing almost as fast, which was impossible of course, but made him feel more effective. He paused at last, his weapon burning in his hands. He looked around. So where exactly were the flipflops?

He watched enemy rounds bouncing like hailstones, threshing the leaves and dust into something like fine confetti. He searched for muzzle flashes. He listened. He decided the flipflops must be everywhere. He swallowed. They were heavily outnumbered. And if they weren't surrounded yet, they soon would be.

As the fight intensified, Streaky saw the boss push the woman interpreter into the back of the Vector. She obviously didn't want to go but she climbed inside and Streaky glimpsed the medic in there with her. Everyone else, including Dave, including the signaller, including the boss, was outside firing back at the ambush.

Mal vacated a prominent firing position to refill magazines and Streaky stepped into it. He swallowed, raised his weapon, released the safety and started to fire once more. When he stopped, he watched a round bounce along the track in front of him and estimated that it had come from a tree only about fifty metres away. Fifty metres! He fired at the high branches of the tree. No body fell but, all the same, it felt good to have something to fire at. He fired again and again and again to make sure.

On every patrol so far, Streaky had submitted to a sense of helplessness. He didn't think about what he did. He followed orders. He didn't know where he was, in what direction they were driving, how far from the base they were or what the reason for their mission might be, even if the boss had tried to explain it. He just expected other people to tell him what to do.

Now, with his hands hot from his weapon, the smoky, sulphuric smell of the battle filling his nostrils and its noise all around him, his senses were heightened and so was his understanding. He understood that the enemy was to the rear and on two flanks. If they succeeded in moving forward of the convoy then the Vectors would be totally surrounded. That was a thought so uncomfortable it was enough to induce streams of sweat all of its own, separate from the sweat induced by carrying a lot of kit in sweltering heat, separate from the sweat of the battle itself. I'm weaker in emotion than in arms and fire aim The smoke I'm inhaling isn't keeping my mind sane, It feels like rehydration's a better soldier's game…

On Streaky's left, Angus was firing rapidly. Streaky tried to copy him. He fired round after round after round. You could lose yourself in firing. It was as though you ceased to exist and your body became a part of your weapon. It was good to think of yourself as a weapon. It made you feel invulnerable. It made you feel like a killing machine.

When at last he paused there was a rap forming in his head. We're pinned down It's a sin to frown, I wish I could grin but it's grim in this town No houses no streets no shops and no women Just choking on the smoke and no joking I need water, water water water…

What rhymed with water?

There was the sodium glare and the crash of an RPG, so powerful it made Streaky duck. With his head down, words inserted themselves into his brain.

Water… daughter, sorter, halter… no good, none of them, not one of them was any good.

The grenade had missed the Vectors and was landing on the track in front of them. There was a pause. Everyone, including the enemy, was waiting to see if it had hit the IED.

'Cover!' Dave roared.

But the grenade fell short and firing resumed.

'We're short of ammo,' Dave told everyone. 'Watch and fire. Watch and fire. Conserve ammo.'

Streaky didn't hear him. Water, transporter Good rhyme. Water, mortar Yes! Even better! Water, slaughter!

The best! Despite the battle all around him, Streaky smiled.

Nearby, the boss was asking over the radio when the air support was coming. It sounded as though they were giving him the brush-off because the fragments of his reply Streaky could catch were: '… outnumbered… supplies… seriously overexposed…'

There was a pause.

'And when will it be available?' the boss demanded.

Binman's face appeared, chalk white and smelling of vomit.

'Shit,' he said to Streaky.

'Listen, bruv,' Streaky said, 'I was going to sick up and then I started firing and I felt a lot better when I had something to do and now I'm loving it. I just keep on firing, that's what I do.'

But Binns rolled his eyes in his white, white face and did not speak. The medic climbed out of a Vector to take his arm.

'Come on, sprog,' he said to Binman. 'You're in shock. And I'm not surprised. Your sarge says you've never done this before. It's what they call a baptism of fire.'

Binns was getting into the Vector just as the woman interpreter jumped out.

Streaky sneaked around the side of the Vector to fire more rounds, very quickly. He began to feel confident despite the knowledge that nothing they had done, not the constant rattle of their machine guns or the full force of their small arms, lessened the enemy's strength. In fact, the Taliban firing positions were getting closer. They seemed to be moving in around the sides of the Vectors now so that even crouching behind the vehicles you could feel exposed.

Nausea gripped Streaky again. If the flipflops slipped forward of the Vectors, 1 Section would be completely surrounded. He knew there was an IED up there. He hoped it was enough to keep the Taliban back. Involuntarily he glanced towards it and saw a shadow flicker through the distant undergrowth. Streaky came from the vertical world of high-rise flats in Wolverhampton and he was alert to any horizontals. Here was something the wrong shape moving swiftly through the woods. He readjusted his position to see it better.

Someone next to him was raising their weapon too. It was the woman interpreter, with her SA80. She had seen the shadow and was taking aim. Suddenly anxious to beat her, Streaky fired again and again, as fast as he could. The shadow fell.

'We'll never know,' said the woman, 'which of us did that.'

Since she had only fired a few rounds, Streaky thought it was certainly him. But he smiled at her anyway. She smiled back.

'What are you doing?' the boss thundered behind them.

'Using our weapons,' said the woman. 'We saw the enemy trying to sneak forward.'

'Just slotted a flipflop!' Streaky said gleefully.

For some reason the boss didn't seem to share his excitement. 'Get over the other side, will you, and slow down the ammo rate,' he snapped.

Streaky could hear the conversation as he went. The boss said: 'Asma, I asked you to stay in the Vector. The OC prefers women not to engage in frontline fighting.'

And the woman was saying: 'Frontline? Where the fuck is that? They're all around us!'