Barry Eisler - Inside out

But it was more than that. He liked being on the inside. He liked knowing the secrets, the way things really worked, the real world beneath the surface everyone else inhabited. Contractors had the salary, and maybe they still had the swagger, but they didn't have the inside position. And he didn't want to give that up.

And why should he? What else did he have? A daughter who thought he was dead, an ex-wife who wished it were so… crap, it hurt, but when he was alone with his thoughts like this, he had to admit his life was a mess. He was glad he and Alex had managed to mend some badly broken fences recently, that was something. But what had it really changed? They weren't attached by much more than blood before, and it wouldn't be all that different now.

And Sarah? Their chemistry was pretty unbelievable, it was true. They couldn't have been more different and at first he thought she hated him. Which maybe on some level she did, but then they'd wound up in bed anyway. He'd initially tried to pass it off as the effects of shared danger and a combat hard-on, but the truth was, it felt like more than that.

Even so, the only reason she'd let herself get close was because she didn't really understand what he did. How could she understand? They were from totally different worlds. And let's face it, she was the kind of person who was more comfortable pretending his world didn't even exist. Which was ironic, because as far as he was concerned, it was her world-a world where violence never solved anything and where no one was evil, just misunderstood, and all people were fundamentally rational and could be reasoned with-that was the illusion, the pretty veneer. He knew the truth. He knew what things looked like from the inside. And he liked the view.

He thought about how he'd handle Wheeler. He knew subtlety wasn't his forte-never had been, never would be. He was better at kicking in doors than at persuading people to open them, and this was a persuasion job, no doubt. But he'd had the elicitation training at the Farm, and over the course of various ops, he'd managed to put that training to good use. It was like Hort said, he just needed to exercise a little more control. He'd be okay.

At just past eight o'clock, Wheeler's front door opened. A small boy, eight years old if Hort's information was correct, stepped outside, Wheeler just behind him, blond hair tied back, gray shorts and a navy tank top. She helped the boy struggle into a backpack, kissed him, and waved him off, then watched while he waited at the curb with a few other kids similarly outfitted. A few minutes later, a yellow school bus pulled up. There was a hiss of hydraulic brakes, a red stop sign sprouted from its side, and then it was gone, the children along with it. Wheeler watched it go, looking somehow deflated in its wake. Ben thought of Ami in Manila, another child of a dead father.

Come on, forget it. It's better like this. Put it away.

He got out of the car and started walking toward Wheeler's house, his head sweeping left and right, keying on the hot spots. He detected no problems. He was wearing an olive poplin suit, white shirt, wine-colored tie, and black wing tips, all courtesy of a Brooks Brothers in Orlando, all practically government-issue. A standard Bureau Glock 23, spare magazines, pocket litter, and FBI ID and passport in the name of special agent Daniel Froomkin had been waiting for him in a dead drop near Orlando. Hort had explained that there actually was a Froomkin on the payroll in the J. Edgar Hoover Building in Washington, D.C., that the legend was fully backstopped. They couldn't expect Wheeler to cooperate with someone who had no colorable legal authority.

The air was humid and smelled of cut grass. A thin, Mexican-looking guy was pushing a buzzing mower across one of the lawns on the other side of the street. Ben paused and watched him for a moment. The guy's T-shirt was soaked with sweat and he was wearing earplugs against the noise. His arms were weathered and brown from too much sun. A beat-up pickup loaded with gardening equipment sat at the curb. The guy felt legit.

He headed up a short riser of cement steps, the Glock creating a reassuring weight and pressure under his left armpit, reminding himself one last time that he was Dan Froomkin, FBI, investigating a crime. Even a civilian could sometimes spot the incongruity in the vibe between an operator and an investigator. One of the things they'd taught him at the Farm was that to make a cover work, you had to submerge your true self inside it. The key was to believe your cover, to feel it like it was the truth.

He knocked on the door, an authoritative knock, confident, but not so loud as to be intimidating or aggressive. And he kept a respectful distance from the threshold. The trick would be to make her want to cooperate in part by making her afraid of what might happen if she didn't. But she couldn't be consciously aware of the fear. It had to be in the background, obscured by a demeanor just friendly enough to enable her to believe she was volunteering and ignore that she was being subtly coerced.

A moment later, Wheeler opened the door. Either Kissimmee enjoyed a low crime rate, or she was trusting. Or maybe her mind was still on her son.

"Can I help you?" she asked, her expression uncertain. Up close he could see she was a pretty woman, mid-forties, hair highlighted, teeth artificially white. The shorts and tank top revealed a toned body. Ben noted in mental shorthand that despite the modest house, despite being a single mother, she still spent on the hair, the teeth, maybe on a personal trainer or yoga or Pilates courses. Her appearance was important to her. He was aware this might be useful, but he didn't yet see how.

"Yes, ma'am," Ben said, producing the FBI ID. "I'm Dan Froomkin, special agent, Federal Bureau of Investigation. I'd like to ask you a few questions about your late husband, Daniel Larison. It should only take a few minutes, if you don't mind."

Her pupils dilated slightly, the result, no doubt, of an adrenal surge. But she seemed more surprised than afraid. "My late husband… what? Why?"

"We're investigating a crime, ma'am. Your husband wasn't involved, but his behavior in the time before his death might prove helpful."

Ben waited while she absorbed that potentially ominous we. After a moment, she said, "All right, but I don't really think I'll be able to help, Mr. Froomkin."

Ben gave her a friendly smile, a lower-wattage version of the one that had always made it easy for him to hook up in high school and in various port cities after. "Well, it can't hurt to try and find out. And please, you can call me Dan if you like. Sometimes I hate having to be so official with people."

"All right, Dan," she said, returning the smile with a slightly nervous-looking one of her own. "Come in, I guess. Would you like a cup of coffee? I just put some on."

Ben nodded. "I'd love one. Thanks."

He followed her through a small foyer to an equally small kitchen. The furniture was sparse and eclectic and looked like it had been handed down. The way she took care of herself suggested Wheeler wasn't exceptionally frugal, so from the furnishings Ben surmised Larison hadn't carried an impressive life insurance policy and hadn't left behind much of anything else. Again, he wasn't sure what this might mean, but filed it away as something potentially useful.

The kitchen smelled like waffles or pancakes. Clearing a pair of plates and glasses from the table, she said, "Sorry about the mess. Here, have a seat."

Ben noted that she made breakfast and ate it with her son. Watched him at the bus stop until he was gone. A devoted parent. He thought of Ami again, and was irritated at himself for letting the thought intrude. Ami had nothing to do with this.

He sat and considered. She was nervous, that was clear. But who wouldn't be, when the government shows up at the door flashing ID and asking about dead relatives? The nervousness felt normal. She was wary, not scared. And regardless, she'd taken him to the kitchen. That was good. People did business in the kitchen, it was where they opened up. The living room was a facade, the place for putting people off.