Andrew Klavan - The last thing I remember

Never give in, never, never, never, never.

I leaned over to the right to get the other angle on my strapped leg. And that’s when I saw it.

It wasn’t much. Just a rough spot in the chair leg. A little patch where the metal had maybe bumped into something, had somehow gotten scraped and damaged. The thing was, though, the rough spot was right above the strap on my ankle. And whatever had caused the damage had left a little ledge of metal sticking out above the scrape.

And it was sharp.

By lifting my foot, I could move the canvas strap on my right ankle against the sharp edge of the metal. I didn’t have a lot of leeway, a lot of room to move. I couldn’t actually cut through the canvas, but I might be able to wear a way through it if I had enough time.

I didn’t. My time was up. Just then, the door opened, and the two men came into the room.

My heart would’ve sunk when I saw them, except my heart had already sunk so low there was nowhere left for it to go. But these two-these men-you could see it in their eyes: they were the worst kind of enemies to have. Not even evil-just obedient to evil, just dead in their hearts and minds and following blindly whatever orders they were given. Right now, their orders were “Kill him”- that meant me. One look at them, and I knew no matter what I said, they would follow those orders to the end.

They were dressed just like I was. White shirts, black slacks. The one on the left was white, slovenly, with limp black hair hanging over idiot eyes and a chunky belly pushing tight against his belt. The one on the right was smaller, thinner. Brown-skinned and foreign-looking with a narrow, jutting face like a rat’s. He had a light in his dark eyes, a sort of breathless smile playing at the corner of his lips. He was excited, I could tell. He was looking forward to this. He liked hurting people. He liked watching them die.

The chunky thug closed the door behind him.

I looked at the two of them, too terrified to speak. I half expected them to just pull guns out and shoot me to death where I sat. They didn’t, though, not right off. They came toward me. They stood over me.

And all the while, I kept lifting and lowering my foot. I couldn’t look down-that would’ve given it away-so I couldn’t be sure I was still rubbing the canvas strap against the sharp little irregularity in the metal of the chair leg. But I hoped I was. And I hoped they wouldn’t notice. And I hoped the strap would start to tear. But I have to admit it: my hope wasn’t very strong.

The chunky thug smiled stupidly. He talked stupidly, too, in a thick, dull voice. I got the feeling that stupidly was pretty much the way he did everything.

“Okay, you dumb punk, you asked for it,” he said.

“That’s right,” said the rat-faced guy. His voice was light and breathless, excited like his eyes. He had an accent of some kind. “If you’d talked to us, maybe we could’ve helped you.”

I kept lifting and lowering my foot. Hoping they wouldn’t notice. Hoping the strap would tear. Never give in.

“Where am I?” I said. My own voice was hoarse and raspy. My throat hurt as if I’d been screaming. I probably had been. “Who are you? Where are my parents? Why are you doing this to me?”

Chunky and Rat Face looked at each other. Chunky shrugged. Rat Face laughed.

“‘Where am I?’” he mimicked me. “What do you think, we’re idiots? You think we’re gonna fall for that?”

“I mean it,” I said. “I don’t know where I am. I don’t know what’s happening. Why are you doing this to me? I haven’t done anything to you.”

I lifted my foot up and down, up and down. Never give in.

Chunky stepped up close to the chair and looked down at me. “You’re still being smart with us?” he said. “Didn’t I show you what happens to smart punks? Didn’t you learn anything?”

“Come on, we oughta do this,” Rat Face told him nervously.

“I swear,” I said desperately. “The last thing I remember, I was at home, I was in bed. I swear.”

Anger surged into Chunky’s face. He grabbed the front of my shirt. He pulled back his fist.

“Say that again,” he said. “I dare you.”

I looked up at him. I didn’t say it again.

“Come on, come on, come on,” said Rat Face. “Prince is waiting. Let’s do this, let’s go.”

Chunky held me another second, his fist raised, daring me to speak. I didn’t. Finally, he smiled his stupid smile. He let go of my shirt front, pushing me back hard. He sneered down at me in triumph. Oh yeah, he was satisfied with himself, all right. He’d ordered me to shut up and frightened me into obeying him. He was a big tough guy, Chunky was. I’ll bet he could beat up almost anyone he happened to find strapped to a chair.

I moved my foot up and down. Never give in.

Chunky stepped back from me. Rat Face smiled with excitement. Was this it? Were they going to shoot me now?

No. Rat Face turned and moved to the white chest of drawers against the wall.

At that moment, I felt something. A little jolting movement. The strap. The strap on my ankle. I couldn’t look at it for fear of drawing their attention to it, but it felt as if it had given way, just a little bit. The metal must’ve cut into it-just a little bit-but enough so that now I could lift my foot maybe a quarter inch farther, drive it against the metal with just a little bit more force.

Rat Face opened the second drawer in the bureau. My breath caught as he reached in and took out a hypodermic syringe.

He looked over at me. He wanted to see the terror in my eyes. He did. I was terrified, all right. And he liked that. He liked seeing how scared I was.

“What are you going to do?” I said. The words just came out of me. It wasn’t as if I didn’t know.

Rat Face took a vial of some clear fluid out of the drawer. He was grinning openly now. Chunky was grinning too.

Rat Face held up the vial so I could see it. “You’re gonna like this stuff,” he said. “You know what this stuff does? It burns. Yeah. It’s, like, some kind of acid or something. I inject this into you and it burns right through you from the inside. Slow, slow, slow. I’ve seen guys scream for an hour before it killed them. Oh yeah. They scream and scream like you wouldn’t believe.”

I pretended to go wild with fear. I didn’t have to pretend much.

“I don’t know anything!” I shouted. “I don’t even know where I am!”

I pulled and thrashed against the straps-not really trying to break out, but just because it helped disguise the fact that I was bringing my right foot up harder and harder, and the strap-I could feel it!-the strap was giving way. The metal was cutting into it, deeper and deeper.

Chunky laughed to see my terror. “You should’ve talked when you had a chance, you dumb punk,” he said. “Look at you now.”

Rat Face brought the hypodermic needle to the top of the vial. He pushed it in and began to draw the clear liquid into the barrel of the syringe.

I leaned far forward in my chair, pretending to stomp my foot in rage so I could bring the strap up even harder against the metal.

“Please! Please!” I shouted. “You have to believe me! I don’t know you! I don’t know how I got here! I don’t know where I am!”

And on that last word, I felt the strap around my ankle break. I couldn’t be absolutely sure because I couldn’t look at it, but I thought I’d managed to cut it clean through. I tested it, moving my foot away from the chair leg just a little.

Yes. Yes. I’d done it. My right leg was free.

One Shot The timing was perfect. Rat Face and Chunky didn’t notice. Rat Face was too busy drawing the poison into his syringe, his eyes bright with anticipation of my agony and death. And Chunky was watching it, too, savoring the sight of the deadly liquid flowing into the glass barrel.