Carrie Jones - Entice

“She doesn’t love me anymore,” I whisper.

Betty stills. She knows who I am talking about.

The candles flicker, cast shadows against the walls.

“Of course she-,” Betty starts.

“Don’t lie to me,” I interrupt. “You aren’t supposed to lie. That’s not you.”

She swallows hard, looks away, but then must think better of it and meets my eyes.

“I am so sorry that you’re hurt,” she says.

And we both know that she’s not talking about the gunshot wound.

I wake up to a knocking noise. Groaning, I shift my weight on the bed and try to figure out what happened. I must have fallen asleep. Cassidy’s obviously been back in my room, because there are new candles.

The knocking sounds again. It’s coming from my window. I stretch and swing my legs to the side of my bed. My muscles creak and moan. Pain ripples through my chest, but it isn’t as horrible as it was before. I stagger toward the window and peek around the shade, pulling it out just enough.

“Let me in, Zara.”

It’s Astley. He’s hovering there, which is super creepy.

“I can’t.”

“You still do not trust me?” His face is a broken branch.

“Of course I trust you, but I- Betty wouldn’t like it,” I say honestly as I struggle to open the window.

He smiles a little sheepishly and lifts it for me, saying, “She would not like it that you are even talking to me, would she?”

That’s true. My mother would like it even less. Still, I let him perch on the windowsill. His feet dangle into the open air. The cold rushes in and we talk in whispers. He tells me everyone is still downstairs trying to figure out exactly how to convince BiForst to tell them how to get to Valhalla, but he thinks it’s pointless.

“There is no need to interrogate him. My mother knows. Now that we know where she is, I shall go talk to her. I can go alone,” he says.

But that’s not going to happen. I pick at the edge of my comforter. It’s frayed a little bit, but the yellow looks so happy and hopeful.

“I’m coming with you,” I say.

He knows me well enough to know he can’t talk me out of it, but I also think he doesn’t want to talk me out of it. Something calm passes between us. For a second I contemplate telling everyone downstairs about what’s going on, especially after Iceland, but this is Astley’s mother and New York is where he grew up. It will be totally safe. And anyway, I know without a doubt that nobody would let me go.

All he says is, “You will tell me if your injuries become too much.”

I agree and then make him turn around while I change into regular clothes and shoes. When I’m done, he motions for me to join him on the windowsill. He wraps his arms around me.

“My car is parked out on the road,” he explains. “I am going to jump off the window and fly you to it. Trust me?”

“I do.” I lean my head against his shoulder because it is too hard to hold it up anymore. He breathes in and jumps, bringing both of us into the dark, snow-filled night.

We travel in silence for a while. Astley gives me another iron pill even though his car is so high end and pricey special that it doesn’t have much iron in it. He’s cleaned out the blood-or had someone clean it for him, would be a better way to phrase it, actually. We travel down the dark Maine highway, adding mile after mile of solitude and dark night. We get to Augusta and the traffic picks up a tiny bit. We see an occasional Hannaford grocery truck or an oil truck. It isn’t until we get to Portland that there is any real traffic. We drive farther and farther away from Betty and Issie and my mom and home. Each mile makes me a little more worried about the choice I made to just leave them.

“They treat me like a child,” I say into the darkness.

Astley doesn’t answer.

“They try to take all my decisions away from me,” I add.

“Are you cold?” he asks after a ridiculously awkward silence. “I can turn up the heat. How are you feeling?”

“I’m fine.” I wait another mile. It passes quickly. “Do you know what I mean?”

“I do.” He breathes into the air, shifts the car into a faster gear. “Are you certain about this, Zara? I would like for this to be your choice.”

I am sure. Every mile brings me closer to Nick.

A t an emergency community meeting, the Bedford police chief threw up his hands. “I don’t know what to tell you all,” he said. “Short of closing down the entire town, I don’t know how to keep people safe… I just don’t know.”

– T HE B EDFORD A MERICAN

Normally, it takes eight and a half hours to drive straight from Bedford to New York City, but Astley does not drive like a normal person, and even though we leave at about seven thirty p.m., we get there just a little after midnight. I sleep for most of the trip, and before I know it we’re heading into the city and I’m jonesing for a piece of gum to get rid of my stale sleep breath. The light of Manhattan is hazy and orange from the streetlamps and the signs on shops, which are mostly closed because of the time. Astley maneuvers the car through taxis and late-night delivery trucks like a pro. There are menorahs in some windows, wreaths on some doors. Even through the windshield wipers the city looks magical-like anything could happen here.

“It’s so different from Maine,” I murmur.

His hands loosen on the steering wheel. “I thought you were still asleep.”

We park on a residential street, and Astley shuts off the engine. All my muscles ache from being stuck in the car for so long, but we’re here now, and how awesome is that?

“Did you magically conjure that parking space?” I tease as Astley pulls an umbrella out from where it had been hiding near his feet.

He looks at me full on. His face is nervous but kind, shadowed from the night and weary from the driving. “Sometimes if you wish hard enough, things truly do happen for you.”

“Is that Disney magic or pixie magic?” I kid as I prepare to get out. My wound stretches and I wince.

His hand touches my shoulder. “It is life magic.”

He helps me out of the car, opening my door and half lifting me out. We stand there for a second, close but not touching, and then we start walking. Light shafts around a row of town houses that line the street, illuminating the hazy orange-gray sky above. A cold rain plummets down onto the umbrella that Astley holds above both of our heads, but it still slants under and wets the bottom of my jeans and his dark cords. “Rain” is maybe the wrong word for this kind of precipitation. It is more like icy pellet balls. They ping onto us. Some bounce off the cement sidewalks before creating a slippery glaze. I skid on it a little bit. Astley grabs me before I slip. His fingers press into my side as if it is the most natural thing in the universe for him to touch me.

“I do apologize about the weather,” he says, keeping his arm firmly around my waist.

I snap my head up and stare at him, openmouthed. “Astley, why are you apologizing? Can you control the weather too?”

“No,” he says forlornly. “I wish we could.”

“That would almost make the pixie thing worth it.” I sigh before I can stop myself. My breath is irregular and sends rippling pain through my chest. The bandage pricks at my skin like some constant reminder of how horribly wrong things can go.

“I thought getting your wolf back would make it worth it,” Astley half asks and half says. It’s a probing question.