Don Winslow - The Power of the Dog

Callan says, “I was there.”

“Where?”

“When they killed Parada,” he says. “I was part of it.”

He feels her body tense beside him. Her breathing stops. Then she says, “For God’s sake, why?”

It’s ten, fifteen minutes before he says a word. Then he starts with being seventeen years old in the Liffey Pub and pulling the trigger on Eddie Friel. He talks for hours, murmuring softly into the warmth of her neck, and tells her about the men he killed. He tells her about the murders he did in New York, Colombia, Peru, Honduras, El Salvador, Mexico. When he gets to that day at the Guadalajara airport he says, “I didn’t know it was supposed to be him. I tried to stop it, but I was too late. He died in my arms, Nora. He said he forgave me.”

“But you don’t.”

He shakes his head. “I’m guilty as hell. For him. For all of them.”

He’s surprised when he feels her arms wrap around him and pull him tight. His tears fall on her neck.

When he stops crying she says, “When I was fourteen…”

She tells him about all the men. The johns, the jobs, the parties. All the men she took in her mouth, her ass, herself. She looks into his eyes for the revulsion she expects to see but she doesn’t find it. Then she tells him about how she loved Parada, and how she wanted revenge, and how she went with Adan, and how it led to so much killing and how it hurts.

Their faces are close, their lips almost touching.

She takes his hand and puts it under her denim shirt and on her breast. His eyes open, he looks surprised, but she nods and he brushes her nipple with his palm and she feels it get hard and it feels good and when he lowers his mouth to her breast and licks and sucks it’s like she blossoms in his mouth and she feels herself getting soft and moist.

He’s hard. She reaches down and opens his jeans and feels him and his moan vibrates on her breast. She frees his cock from his pants and strokes him and he tentatively unzips her pants and reaches in and touches her pussy with one finger and she says It’s good so he dips his finger into her wetness then rubs it gently on her bud and feels it swell and get hard and after a while her back arches and she groans and cries and he slides his mouth down and sucks her and licks her like he’s healing a wound and her body tightens and arches and she grips his hand as she comes and he strokes her neck and her hair and says It’s okay, it’s okay and when she stops crying she bends down to take his cock in her mouth but he says I want to be inside you, is that okay and she says Yes and he asks again Is that okay and she says I want you in me.

She lies back and takes his cock and guides it to her and he gently pushes and she wraps her legs around him and pushes him in harder and then he’s all the way in and he looks down at her beautiful face and her beautiful eyes and she’s smiling and he says God, that is so beautiful and she nods and tilts her hips up to take him deeper and he feels this sweet place inside her and he slides out and then back in again and she is all sweet slippery heat to him, she is shimmering silvery wet, she strokes his back, his ass, his legs and moans So good, so good and he reaches for that spot with his cock and touches it and there’s sweat on her lips and he licks it off, sweat on her neck and he licks it off, he feels the sweat running between her breasts onto his chest, from her thighs onto his thighs, a sweet sticky wetness between her thighs she’s wrapped around him so tight, he says I’m going to come and she says Yes, baby. Come in me, come in me, come in me and he pushes into her as deep as he can and holds himself there and then he feels her pussy squeeze him, grip him in place, and she pulses on him and he comes, screaming, and then screams again, and then crumples onto the warmth of her shoulder and she says I love feeling you inside me.

They fall asleep like that, with him on top of her.

He gets up early, while she’s still asleep and goes into town to get groceries so that he can wake her up with the smell of blueberry pancakes, coffee and bacon.

When he comes back, she’s gone.

San Diego

1999

A rt meets Hobbs at the Organ Pavilion in Balboa Park. Rows and rows of white metal chairs in a broad semicircle inside the amphitheater slant down toward the stage. Hobbs sits reading a book in the second-to-last row. Sal Scachi sits above him, two seats to the left.

It’s warm out. The beginning of spring.

Art sits down next to Hobbs.

“Any news on Nora Hayden?” Art asks.

“We’ve known each other a long time, Arthur,” Hobbs says. “A lot of water has gone under the bridge.”

“What are you telling me, John?”

Oh, Christ, is she dead?

“I’m sorry, Arthur,” Hobbs says. “I can’t let you take Adan Barrera to trial. You will hand him over to us immediately.”

The same old, same old, Art thinks. First with Tio, now with Adan.

“He’s a terrorist, John! You said so yourself! He’s in bed with FARC and-”

“I have been given assurances,” Hobbs says, “that the Barrera pasador will do no further business with FARC.”

“Assurances?!” Art asks. “From Adan Barrera?!”

“No,” Hobbs says calmly. “From Miguel Angel Barrera.”

Art can’t say anything.

Hobbs can. “This was all getting out of hand, Arthur. Serious men had to step in before it got any worse.”

“ 'Serious men.’ You and Tio.”

“He was appalled at his nephew’s dalliance with terrorists,” Hobbs says. “Would have put a quick stop to it had he known about it. He knows about it now. This is a good solution, Arthur. Adan Barrera could be an invaluable source of intelligence, if given reason to cooperate.”

It’s bullshit, Art knows. They’re terrified of what Adan might say on the stand. With good reason. I wouldn’t take his deal, but they will. They’ve already figured it out. They’ll give him a new face, a new identity, a new life.

The hell they will.

“You can’t have him.”

Hobbs’s voice has some anger in it as he says, “May I remind you that we are in a war on terrorism.”

Art tilts his face toward the sun and enjoys its heat on his skin. He says, “A war on terrorism, a war on Communism, a war on drugs. There’s always a war on something.”

“That is the human condition, I’m afraid.”

“Not for me, not anymore,” Art says. “I’m out of it.”

He gets up.

“It has to end,” Art says. “It has to end somewhere.”

Hobbs says, “May I further remind you that we’ll be pulling your fat out of the fire as well. Your sanctimonious air of moral superiority is frankly unbearable. And insupportable, I might add. You have been complicit in-”

Art holds his hand up. “He already offered me the deal. I turned him down. I’m going to take Adan Barrera to the DA and let justice take its course. Then I’m going to tell everything. About what happened in Condor, about Cerberus, about Red Mist.”

Hobbs goes pale.

“You will not do that, Arthur.”

“Watch me.”

If Hobbs looked pale before, he looks ghostly now. “I thought you were a patriot.”

“I am.”

Art starts to walk away.

It really is spring-the gardens in the park are exploding with new color and the air is warm, with just enough of a residual trace of winter to still be refreshing. He looks down at the amphitheater, where little knots of schoolkids on field trips are gathered around their teachers, and young couples sit over sandwiches, and tourists with cameras draped around their necks study maps of the park and point, and old people walk slowly, enjoying the air and the new warmth of spring.